She (Unconsidered Wife)
A Hope

Arshad sat before a beautiful woman who had filled his heart for almost two years. But his face looked not excited.

"Hi!"greet Arshad with his smile and only reply to the smile forced by the woman.

"Excuse me. What do you want to order, mama?"ask the waiter who approached them.

"Green tea no sugar." replied Arshad.

"Then please wait a minute. "

Arshad nodded and looked back at the woman before him.

"Laras... Why are you?"arshad asked the woman who was named Laras.

"I want us to end this relationship" Laras replied, staring at Arshad.

"What?!butwhy?what reason?"ask Arshad not to accept.

"You know why, Ar. That's a question you shouldn't ask. You_sudah_wife." replied Laras with great emphasis.

Arshad breathed a rough breath.

"Wife you don't think you mean? What's the problem anyway?it's not the wedding I want. Ummi is forced, dear." said Arshad.

"But I don't want to be labeled as a woman who destroys people's households."

"Who said that?"

"Maybe not now. But don't know later or any time, if we keep in touch. I can't. "

"But I can't break up either."

"I don't want to be called the destroyer of your relationship with your wife."

"The woman is ruining our relationship. He came into my life without being asked and without me planning. Take the position that should be yours. What else is his name if not a destroyer?"

Laras just looked at Arshad with a glaring look.

"I'll definitely divorce him. But not now. I must have a good reason to divorce her. I hope you can wait. Please.."ask Arshad and hold Laras' hand.

Laras nodded and smiled looking at Arshad. Maybe he should be patient. And waited.

The atmosphere was calm now and Arshad had also been drinking his green tea that had just come. But suddenly a slightly rowdy voice nearby shifted his focus. There was a woman apologizing to the waiter who delivered the drink. It seems that the woman accidentally bumped into the waiter.

But that's not what matters. The woman who apologized turned out to be Aisyah. Now he seems to be trying to stop her tears. Arshad was completely shocked to even spontaneously stand up.

Aisyah ran out of the cafe and was followed by two more women.

'He's been beating everything?' tanya Arshad. He feels very guilty now. But isn't that nice?that way Aisyah will probably realize that this marriage is a useless thing.

'Even though the cave thinks it's a good thing, but still it must be painful for Aisyah. What cave is it?' ask Arshad again, in batin .

"Dear, why you?you know that girl?"tanya Laras who was astonished to see Arshad's spontaneous behavior. Laras did not know that the girl was Arshad's wife because she did not come at Arshad's wedding yesterday.

Arshad sat down and tried to smile.

"Not to think about. Oh yeah, how's your boutique?smoothly?"tanya Arshad switched the conversation.

"Current... You know what, baby? Yesterday there was a very rude customer..."Laras continues to tell the story without knowing that Arshad's real focus is not on him. Arshad is still beset with guilt.

'Where do caves apologize?' tanya Arshad sat down and occasionally stared out of the cafe even though the person who expected him to look was no longer there.

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It was five in the afternoon and Arshad had already returned home from the office. I doubt it will come home. Because of that guilt. May Aisha not respond too much to all that Arshad said earlier. Because it is so. ah, Arshad is speechless now.

Arshad walked into the house with his stay cool. Trying to calm down. Having just entered and about to go upstairs because his room was upstairs, Arshad was startled by the sound of broken glass coming from the dining room. Arshad went there to see what was going on.

"Astaghfirullah, is it okay?is there a wound?"ask someone from the dining room when Arshad is almost there. His tone sounded very worried.

"It's okay, baby. Let aunt clean the glass shards first."bi Nah replied.

"No, sit down. Let me do it right. Bi Nah will not use glasses, fear later wounds because they do not see clearly. Let me just.."prevent Aisyah.

"Seriously, madam?"

"Yes, bi...."

Aisyah cleaned the glass fragments and made sure that there were no more glass fragments or fragments. But when he saw Arshad was watching him not far from there, Aisyah immediately smiled.

Arshad felt strange. Aisyah's smile looked sincere. There was no hate in his eyes even looking like there was no burden. Is this woman feeling ordinary or trying to look ordinary?inner Arshad.

"You're home yet?what do I want to make?tea or coffee?"tawar Aisyah's.

"Te_teh aja. "answered Arshad was still nervous and passed to go to the room.

"He heard or didn't he?"murmured Arshad as he climbed the stairs.

After some time, Aisyah went to the room with tea and put it on the nightstand. Aisha did not see Arshad there. Where's she? As she was leaving, she heard the sound of water coming from the bathroom. Then Arshad is taking a shower.

Aisyah went to the dresser to pick up her phone. At noon when he came home, he got a call from his older brother. But still feeling chaotic he did not pick up the call.

When I was about to call back, I heard the sound of the door opening. It turns out Arshad is done. Arshad was seen wearing sturdy clothes and a sarong. It is time to pray Maghrib.

Seeing Aisyah's whereabouts there, making Arshad a little nervous because of the guilt earlier. While Aisyah just stared at her phone and was about to walk out of the room.

"Aisha.."call Arshad and stop Aisha's steps. Aisyah turned to look at Arshad with a sincere smile. In his heart, he kept trying to calm down. She knew what her husband would talk about after this.

"Ka...kamu..kidu hear that was in the cafe?"tanya Arshad looks uncomfortable. Aisyah smiled again and nodded slowly.

"If you want to be angry, it's okay. I deserve to be hit because I hurt your feelings. As a man I should have been more gentle." said Arshad.

"I was angry at first. No woman wants to see her husband with another woman let alone talk about the desire to divorce." said Aisyah.

"You know what one thing can destroy a human being?"asked Aisha and Arshad just silently looked at Aisha.

"Selfish." replied Aisha. "All relationships are based on selfishness, there is no meaning. Every human being would want to have something that he or she must get at any cost. I'm like that too. I want to have you as my whole husband. But one thing made me realize. I can't fill your heart. At first I wanted to keep you, but in the end I could only choose to hold on.."Aisyah's tears finally escaped as well. Really claustrophobic it feels. It was not only Aisha who felt a tightness in her heart, but also Arshad. Don't know why?

"Hiks.hiks. Letting it all flow. In the hope that someday you will be able to accept me. If someday you really can't stand all this, tell me. I will definitely let you go. Because I can't be selfish, I don't want to be happy alone because it keeps you even though your happiness is... Laras."sayah said the name Laras with great difficulty.

"Yes now Arshad is ready, Maghrib. Coming home from the mosque, I'll have some more tea. The tea must be cold now. I went to the kitchen first, took a swipe. "said Aisyah then left Arshad who is now sculpting. Unknowingly, Arshad shed his tears. After a long time she never cried again. Now he was crying because of a woman named Aisyah who now holds the status of his wife.

Arshad held onto his left chest and slightly pressed down on it. Really tight feels.

"What's wrong with me?"ask Arshad.

After that, there was only silence. At dinner, while in the room, everything was quiet. No one's talking. Arshad felt very uncomfortable with this kind of situation.

"What should I do? I'm really very uncomfortable." he muttered but he could still hear Aisyah. Aisyah who was busy with her phone while leaning on the head of the bed, immediately looked at Arshad who was sitting next to her.

"If you're uncomfortable, I can move to another room really, really." said Aisyah, softly.

"Mom.not what I mean. I wasn't comfortable with the quiet atmosphere just now. It's awkward."tutur Arshad.

"Sama, me too. For some reason after the incident, we became silent as a gini. Yes if so, I go to bed first. Not awkward anymore. Good night."

"Night."

Aisyah turned off the sleeping lights that were on her bedside nightstand. Then he fell back to Arshad after praying. Arshad just smiled at Aisyah who had fallen asleep when she had just laid down.

"Sorry Aisyah. I know how much pain you feel. You're too good for me. I don't deserve you. I'm a criminal now. Good night, I wish you happiness "said Arshad and chose to sleep as well. While Aisyah shed her tears with her eyes still closed. Yeah, he heard everything.

'Mendo'what kind of happiness would that be? The happiness you mean is in your hands. If you accept me, it has become a happy thing for me.' Inner Aisyah.

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The next morning, when Aisyah had finished arranging the fried rice on the dining table, not long after that Arshad finally came down and sat in the dining room. Honestly, Aisyah felt a little surprised, she thought Arshad might go straight to the office like yesterday.

"What do you make breakfast for?"ask Arshad.

Aisyah was still unconscious from her shock and just stared at Arshad.

"Aisha.."tegur Arshad.

"Yes?what did you say?"asked Aisyah as she regained consciousness from her daydream.

"What do you make breakfast for?"reset Arshad.

"Na.nasi fried mas. Do you like fried rice?"ask Aisyah.

"Depends on the taste." replied Arshad while nodding.

Aisyah took the fried rice for Arshad and waited for him to eat it.

Aisyah continued to look at Arshad who put the fried rice into her mouth. Is delicious?his inner.

Arshad frowned and looked at Aisyah who was waiting for her criticism.

"Is this you who made it?"ask Arshad.

Aisyah nodded enthusiastically. "Yes son?"ask Aisyah.

"The important thing is still to be eaten." said Arshad and returned to eating his fried rice. Aisha who heard the answer, immediately lethargic because she felt her cooking did not match Arshad's taste.

Arshad glanced at Aisyah who also started eating her fried rice. Arshad held back his laughter looking at Aisyah's expression. Aisyah looks not in the mood to eat. Instantly Arshad immediately laughed off because he could no longer bear to see the lethargic face of Aisyah.

"Hahahah."laughter Arshad.

Aisyah stared lazily at Arshad while frowning her forehead.

'Mas Arshad mocked my cooking?very much heart.' Inner Aisyah.

"I'm just kidding Aisyah. Banget instead." said Arshad still chuckling.

"Can be a joke. Oh yeah, how's that slurry?"

"Enak. How can you make such good porridge?learn from where?"

"Maybe because I often learn to make porridge times. That porridge was the first dish I learned from childhood. I'm so obsessed with making good porridge just to fill someone's heart. But unfortunately when I managed to make a good porridge, he even went to leave me." said Aisyah.

"someone?a bloke?who her?your first love ?"asked Arshad who sounded a bit cynical.

"Yes..."Aisyah nodded happily.

"D..he...bull?"

"Banget." answered Aisyah quickly.

Arshad drank water and stood up from his seat.

"I'm done, the nasgornya not good." said Arshad.

"Huh?! He said..."

"You went to college today?"arshad asked coldly, interrupting Aisha's words.

"Yes.ta.but go to college by noon." replied Aisyah.

"Oh. If so I go to the office first. Assalamualaikum says. "

"Wa'alaikumussalam. "return Aisha while saluting Arshad.

As far as Arshad, Aisyah was astonished and frowned at the sign of thinking.

"I was wrong, right?how suddenly Arshad's attitude is different?the feeling was fine, deh." muttered Aisyah.