She (Unconsidered Wife)
The Great Debate

Sometimes being so worried is necessary when someone important to us even takes the problem lightly. We are even more afraid than him. But what if his stubbornness makes us upset yet helpless at the same time?

Arshad is so worried now. This morning Rizky went into Aisyah's nursery. Not alone, but he brought someone along with him. A handsome man whom he had seen yesterday was talking to Aisyah in the garden. It turned out that the man was a doctor acquaintance of Rizky from Singapore. A young doctor who was very successful at his age. Doctor Arya.

After much talk they had, Arshad felt a little calm. He felt there was hope for Aisyah. Maybe with Arya, Aisyah might be able to survive. But after that meeting, unexpected things were thrown from Aisyah's mouth.

"I don't want to." said Aisha spontaneously when Arshad smiled meaningfully at her. Of course the look of a happy face and smile was immediately faded. It turned serious and mixed with confusion. What else is wrong with Aisha?

"What do you mean? You don't want to accept the surgery offer?"asked Arshad demanding an explanation from Aisyah who looked at him as equally as sharp as Arshad's gaze.

"I'm sure you also know the reason why I refused. I still won't make that big decision. I'm sure you're just as scared as I am. I'm not stupid, I know for sure how you felt when you heard the explanation from Rizky's brother at that time. You are silent and act as if everything is okay even though your mind does not match what you display. You never dared to talk about surgery because your fear is as great as I felt, mas!"clearly Aisyah slightly emphasized her words at the end. It was nothing, but Aisyah was also sure that many people would be afraid if they were to be faced with such a problem as she was now.

Choose between having the surgery or not. If not, his life would not last much longer. If he followed the surgery's advice, then his chances of survival would be less if the surgery didn't work. This is a major operation, however. What if Aisyah thought if the operation didn't work? then the precious time that Aisha had dreamed of spending with Arshad would be lost.

"It's true I'm afraid to make a decision. I'm just as afraid of you. But if this operation is successful you can survive, shah. Nothing is more important to me than that you can stay alive."

"Life can only last a few years after that. It was just a fate that was forced into a beautiful one that I felt was also free. You know what scares me the most? That's when I know whatever way we're going, I'm going!"

"YOU'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE, AISHAH! Please don't ever say the word 'go!"

"Keep I should call what?! Died?!"

"DORRO!"arshad's emotions have crossed the line. Is it wrong if he agrees to the offer?

"Why don't you want to understand my fear, man? I'm afraid that the day I'm going to get surgery is the last day I can see you. I want to spend a little more time with you. WHY DON'T YOU WANT TO KNOW?!"

"I made this decision also with careful thought, Shah. For days I always thought about what was the best decision for me to make. I think surgery is the best way. With the arrival of Dr. Aryans. I'm more and more convinced that the operation will work. If it's about how long you can live after a successful operation, we think about that later. I'm sure God won't do that to us."

"My fear is justified, mas. Why is it so hard for you to understand?"

"WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE TO MY FEAR?! WHO WILL LOSE IT ME! THE ONE THAT WILL BE LEFT IS ME! AND I'M THE MOST SCARED HERE. But. but I'm most sure of your recovery. Can't my faith grow in your heart? I feel more fucked up, Aisyah. You don't know what it's like every night I don't sleep just to make sure you're still there. You don't know how I feel afraid every time I close my eyes, I feel chaotic if only when I wake up I find you. I even hope God took my life first before God took your life because I'm afraid to bear the pain of loss."

"I'm going crazy, baby." Tears fell from Arshad's eyes. Only Aisyah can make it this broken. Only Aisyah was able to mess up her feelings. Tightness felt in his chest as he tried to withstand the chaos in his heart and mind which now turned into clear grains of tears. Arshad was as afraid and troubled as Aisha. No one wants to lose. No one wants a farewell like this.

BUGH BUGH

Arshad smacked his chest, "this turn was as crazy as that fear."after that Arshad turned to leave Aisha who was crying all over.

Why did Aisha have to suffer like this? In the past when he expected Arshad's recognition of him, he also suffered quite a bit. But when that hope is realized, why should this happen?

What Aisyah wants is to be able to repeat everything from the beginning with Arshad. That's his only wish. Aisyah just wants to build a new and better life with Arshad.

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On the other hand Arya who was not far from Aisyah's nursery, saw Arshad who came out of the nursery with a chaotic look. Arya was not stupid to realize what was going on between Arshad and Aisha. He knew that taking such a big decision would be difficult.

Arya was also quite surprised because the important patient Rizky mentioned turned out to be the woman who had caught his attention for a few days. And even more surprised because it turns out Aisyah is married.

To be honest Arya was disappointed to accept the fact that Aisyah already belonged to someone else. For Arya, falling in love is hard. But it becomes easy if the woman is Aisyah. This feeling is wrong. He knows that, but he also knows that this can't be prevented.

"Hey, what's wrong Dr. Aryans? Why stay here?"rizky's reprimand suddenly came making him flinch.

"I was just thinking about what decision would they make? It is unfortunate, at a very young age, Aisyah even suffered from the disease." said Arya beralibi.

"True, Aisyah already I consider like my own sister. Didn't expect this to happen. For how this too has been his will. All right, then I'll stay first. There are patients I have to visit."

"All right..."

After Rizky's departure, Arya immediately contacted someone.

"Hello?"

"I'll send you something, please find out everything I want."