
Everyone always thinks a prostitute is a dirty woman, a woman has no pride, no shame, a lover of luxury, a prostitute is always associated with bad things.
Here's Clara Aurora now, Clara doesn't care if people shake her back, Clara does it for herself, it won't make her regret it.
Clara could have been awarded a scholarship to her college but that would have been impossible for her, had she been as smart as she hoped, things would not have been like this, but would Clara have to continue to blame her abilities? Forcing himself to cross his limits?
Clara always wanted, if only a male figure named Marvel Orlando never existed or not a campus with her, he said, or at least Marvel Orlando is not much smarter than him then everything will feel easy for Clara.
But Clara can't blame others for the problems she faces, Clara can't demand anything from Marvel, the man was the same as it was just that the man was able to achieve what he wanted while Clara was not.
Clara sometimes asks why other people can and she can't? What makes it different? Is it because Clara lacks rest and study? Is it because Clara has more than 2 part time jobs so everything is chaotic?
Is it because Clara fell asleep many times in class hours because she did not sleep all night for her work shift? Clara didn't know how else to conclude it.
Clara again suppose, if she had someone who could continue to support her, being by her side helped her even though not financially but mentally everything might be a little light, but it was all just a assumption.
Clara has no one, her parents are long gone, Clara only has an older sister who doesn't even care if Clara's still breathing or not.
Not once twice did Clara plead for her brother's help but her brother never cared, her brother always said that it was Clara's own fault.
Is it wrong for Clara to pursue her ideals? Is it wrong he asked for help from his brother who incidentally is his family, is it wrong he asked for help to his brother whose life is already luxurious because married to a rich man, he asked for help, did Clara expect help from the only person she has in the world?
Yeah, it all ends the same. Disappointed, Clara did not get anything even though he begged, everything felt sickening, her brother's abuse also made Clara lost her mind, the demands of her college fees also made Clara as choked, and even her, Clara is too depressed to choose a shortcut that Clara believes will one day doom her.
Clara chose to sleep with her brother Damian Leonardus. Sister-in-law who has no heart, but at least has a lot of money so Clara willingly had to hide, play dirty in bed her brother and also her own brother-in-law.
Clara stared at the check that Damian had placed on the nightstand, it was Damian's custom to put ‘upah’ Clara there and leave Clara just like that.
Miris indeed, Clara would be visited whenever Damian could not fuck Clara's sister. They did it quietly right in Clara's room, or even in the hotel.
Feel guilty? Sometimes it was indeed terbesit Clara's heart but disappeared along with the attitude of her brother who always hurt her, ignored her, and never loved her as a sister.
Clara needs money and it's also her brother's fault she can't take care of her own husband, one of her sisters who can't make her husband just touch her. One of his brothers had also hurt him so that he no longer felt any concern for his only brother.
Clara got up from the bed, she glanced at the clock that was showing at 3am. Maybe now Damian has returned to his room and sleep hugging Clara's sister.
Clara stepped back to the bathroom, she would clean her body from her former dirty activities with her own sister-in-law.
In the shower stub Clara thought, until when will he continue like this? Until his needs are met and he no longer needs money from Damian? But when did that day come?
“Ah him again, he is indeed the favorite child of the lecturers at this campus.”
Clara followed Josephine's line of sight looking at a tall male figure with a handsome face that many women like—Marvel Orlando.
Clara pees, lazy to look at the man. Clara doesn't hate Marvel, Clara is just jealous of the man's life. Yep.. Clara admitted that she was a little irritated by the man.
Clara is annoyed because Marvel is a rich kid, he can afford the tuition fee and why did he actually receive the scholarship that their campus gave? Had Marvel refused, Clara would have accepted, and Clara would not have had to sell herself to her sister-in-law.
Clara was not able to take continuous college leave just because she could not pay tuition fees, Clara wants to quickly graduate and pursue the career she dreams of and go far from the lives of her brother and sister-in-law.
“Hah look at him arrogant once, he drives away every person who sits one table with him.” Josephine commented seeing Marvel's behavior, Clara inevitably turned back to see Marvel who was driving away a woman who tried to eat a table with her.
“We don't need to discuss him or pay attention to him, there's no luck.” Clara re-occupied herself with the juice she had.
Clara shook her head, “I've been out of all my part-time jobs, I'll focus on college.”
Josephine looked at Clara with a full glance, she suddenly suspected because Clara always complained of not having money if not working, then where would Clara get money for her college needs?
“You didn't do anything weird for money did Ra?”
Hearing Josephine's question Clara almost choked, but trying to control herself, she smiled fakely. “Do what? Haha, I didn't do anything, it's just that my brother decided to pay for all my tuition. He wants to understand my problem now.”
Clara was lying, obviously she was lying, there was no way she could have told Josephine the truth. As good as Josephine was to her, Josephine would hate her if she knew the truth, if anyone would have a friend like her, an affair from her own sister-in-law.
“Thank God then, then this afternoon you will come with me to the bookstore?” Josephine smiled sweetly, hoping that her smile could make Clara melt and wanted to come with her. “I want to buy a book from my favorite author, you know I've been waiting for the book to be available in the bookstore for a very long time, unfortunately I could not join the PO before because I have money now.”
Clara laughed at Josephine's innocence, she nodded. “Iya I'll come with you.”
Clara leaves Josephine busy with the book she wants to buy, Clara steps to see the book there. Clara is not interested in reading novels or other entertainment books, she is looking for books that can add to her knowledge, Clara wants to move forward, she wants to move on, he hopes he can be rich someday so that he will not be underestimated by others again.
Clara's view fell on the business book, perhaps she needed to learn a lot about business. He was about to pick up the book but his hand stopped when he saw another hand managed to take the book first than Clara.
Clara turned her head towards the figure and furrowed her brows, “You?” Clara pointed at the man, she did not expect to meet Marvel in this bookstore, seeing Marvel's face alone Clara was already emotional.
“Hey, I saw this book first!” Clara did not accept, he wanted to take the book from Marvel but he lost quickly and lost high to Marvel.
“Don't be childish, you can ask the shopkeeper, they must have a book like this again. Even if the shelf runs out does not mean there is not one of these books stored by the store keeper.”
Clara snorted at Marvel's words, why was the man heard lecturing her? It should be Marvel who asked the shopkeeper for the book not himself, Marvel man should he succumb to women!
Clara wants to stop the man and debate him but Clara realizes that she should not be looking for him because of the man, Marvel is the favorite of people in the campus if he is looking for because of Marvel is the same as looking for because of all students and students on campus.
Clara could be a victim of future bully if she did that, Clara could only look at the man's back with all the crap and envy.
If Clara had been in her position, everything would have felt wonderful, right?
Clara was surprised when her phone suddenly vibrated, Clara reached into her jeans pocket and saw a message coming from Damian.
From: ATM Runs
You're where? Into my office now!
Clara sighed reading the message, she did not reply to the message and chose to pocket her phone back and approached Josephine.
He must quickly come to Damian, Damian is typical of men who do not want to wait long, if Clara is late for a day then Damian will babble at length with his cynical gaze, he said, just imagine Clara was already agitated.
“Josephine, are you done? Sorry I have a sudden affair, I have to hunt.”
Clara saw Josephine paying for the book she bought, Josephine pouted for a moment to receive the change and looked at Clara disappointed.
“You are how, you promised to accompany me. Though after this I want to take you to the cafe, I still want to chat with you.”
“We can still do it another time, sorry I did. I really have a sudden business.” Clara could do nothing but leave Josephine, she could not fight Damian and refused Damian's request. Clara promised to obey Damian's orders for money.
Again, because money is not everything, but everything needs money.