Tama And Ratna
37. Abated

Tama and Ratna have been quiet for a few days. Ratna even so visibly avoided Tama. Every morning Ratna would wake up first, prepare all the needs of Tama and then leave. Ratna was actually also not so intent on avoiding her husband so. But he also did not have time to talk to Tama. His job is a lot. Near the end of the semester he began to consult a lot so that he could soon graduate from specialist doctor education.

“Dek, if still tired do not have to leave, yes? Rest at home,” Tama said that morning before the two prepared to leave for TMP to escort the new Bintara to make a pilgrimage there.

“No papa kok,” says Ratna.

“Ya but his face should not be bent so dong. Sorry the other day Mas make you angry, but come on deck don't be angry at all times. The atmosphere of the house so not good gini,” said Tama.

“I'm not angry. Who said I was angry.”

“Dek..., obviously you're angry at that. Hey Ratna, how many days have you tried not to talk to me? If not angry what is his name?”

“Yes anyways Mas the bummer. Was it wrong for me to apologize? I always say sorry and thank you. It was my turn to apologize to get scolded. I'm not actually wrong either. Why do I apologize. I just don't want a bad atmosphere rich gini can happen. That's why I'm sorry but Mas is angry.”

Tama listened to Ratna. For now Tama admits he's wrong. He who put too much pressure on Ratna became just as he wanted to. He began to forget on his promise not to demand anything from Ratna. Tama forgot, if he had promised both of Ratna's parents that he would take care of their daughter as well as possible. Tama also began to forget how Papa used to teach her to never make a woman cry.

“Sorry Mas wrong,” says Tama.

“Not to apologize. I said don't apologize. Yeudah, do not apologize, even if you do wrong again. Let alone, anyway I will also forget kok,” said Ratna.

Tama stood up to Ratna, she tried to grab Ratna's hands just so that she could be a little calmer and not keep burning emotions like this for too long.

“Dek Ratna, my wife. You're wrong, you shouldn't say that to you. You should know that you are so because you mean well. Mas too blind with yourself Mas who do not want to make you burdened so..” said Tama.

“With me getting married to you too I've burdened Mas,” said Ratna made Tama shocked. It seemed to be his premonition all along.

“But is it wrong if I accept that burden to fetch my happiness? I've accepted you as my husband that means I have to obey your words because that's the rule. You are good enough to not demand anything but at least love me the opportunity to learn to be a worthy companion for you and for your rank,” Ratna said.

“Being Brimob is your dream and ambition. That's where your soul is, but I'm not. Make adaptation to a new world that is clearly different this way is already heavy. But Mas Tama never gave me a chance to really learn. Mas's way of keeping me from getting hurt is good, but the more you look after me so protectively the more fragile I feel. The more useless I feel, the less I feel. The impact was yes it was, as trivial as I woke up late and did not have time to make you breakfast so I can think that until I can not sleep Mas.”

“I made a big mistake until we lost our son, it was enough to make me destroyed Mas. I feel like I failed to be a good wife to you.”

Tama was increasingly silent to hear all the complaints of Ratna. He was no longer struggling and was only able to stay in place even when Ratna was currently already walking away from him. Tama realized one thing. It turned out that the one who had been destroying Ratna's mentality was none other than himself. Pratama Aji who always claims that he is the only one who will love Ratna unconditionally whatever the conditions.

“Mas is also Ratna man, how could Mas demand you to be perfect when Mas can not promise to be perfect,” said Tama trying to tell Ratna if she regrets.

“Mas is perfect for me. If Mas is not the best for me to do what I choose Mas that I have not even known for long. We do not want to marry without going through the process of getting to know each other. Our relationship was not long and even then we never met because of work. If I don't believe in the same Mas why do I accept Mas Tama's proposal?” ratna said she was still trying to toughen up.

“So now we have to how? We start over again from the beginning. Want?”

“Clearly. I don't want us stuck in the feelings of each constantly rich gini.”

“Ok, from now on we fix everything. Mas will say do not like it if it does not like it and you can be angry Mas if Mas make it wrong. Problems that we have already made learning, and after this hopefully we can be better again.”

“Wedding we just walk 5 years Mas, our journey will still be very long. If it is likened to a child our age that has not even felt the school. We still have to go to SD, SMP, SMA, Lecture. If we still continue to share our previous views, our household will be more volatile,” Ratna said this time more calmly.

Tama smiled seeing how Ratna finally played her thumb nail again. Apparently, these strange habits even become a special attraction that Tama always longs for. Every time she saw her thumb, she would always remember how Ratna could be so late to her own thoughts whenever she was playing her husband's thumb. Also how this great woman before him would fall asleep at the end of Tama's pants that always held her every night.

“Ratna believe me I'm in love again now,” Tama said.

“Hmm?”

“I fell in love with you again. For the umpteenth time. Thank you for choosing Mas to be the priest of your family,” said Tama again.

“Sama-sama. Thank you for allowing me to devote myself to you,” replied Ratna.

“Sama-sama my dear.”

One problem they finally solved. Tama and Ratna's relationship got even better after that. If Mr. Leo and Ms. Rosa always say, seeing Tama who is with his wife is the same beautiful sight behind the horizon. Not only Mr. Leo, Nesya who had no desire to get married suddenly so eager to have a husband when seeing how Ratna can be so happy smiling while being with her husband. From body language both radiated happiness and positive energy that makes the surrounding mood good.

Tama and Ratna are not the typical couple who are always together wherever they go. Sometimes Tama will focus more on her work while Ratna is busy alone with bhayangkari mothers. But from the look in his eyes, the way the two talked to each other, he said, and from how Tama and Ratna respect each other makes the people around him believe and believe that Tama and Ratna are two people who are united by God to together navigate a happy life.

Tama was famous for being so assertive, cold, and merciless in educating his juniors, but that scary face would be swept away by the wind if he was with his wife. No wonder many Tama subordinates try to look good in front of Ratna so that at least they are helped by Bu Ratna. They also said that only Ms. Ratna could tame Mr. Aji.