The Battle Heart's
postpartum depression

it's been over a month in the hospital. bored ? of course. jeon benar2 take care of the faira and his son well, but not feel comfortable he was not even comfortable with the existence of jeon and his parents although sometimes he also felt touched by their attitude, he also felt touched by their attitude, annoyed, disappointed always in his heart especially when he saw the kindness of jeon, instead of being moved by faira even think that it is not, he thinks jeon is pretending.

his heart sometimes feels good about Jeon's attitude now, but sometimes he is also very afraid. "are you sincere, or just sorry because I have given birth to your child" batin Faira while crying looking at her son who was in the baby box.

while still in his daydream the first faira son named zoan wept faira by slowly lifting the baby trying to calm him but the child never stop crying zoan continues to cry so sodara his twin who was in the box also cried faira benar2 confusion, after giving birth he was right2 there was no care for his son because of his condition so he did not understand how to handle his son. fortunately Jeon came after paying for the faira treatment

"jeon they cry together with I don't know why" said Faira panicked as she sobbed in tears.

quickly jeon immediately examined his son and rushed to make his son milk, within seconds in the arms of jeon his two children immediately quietly spent their milk.

"they're hungry faira" said jeon quietly

faira closed her eyes and turned her face she felt ashamed as a parent because she could not understand her child even when she was hungry she did not understand, faira continued to cry in the corner of the room. jeon, however, swiftly approached her and calmed the faira, embracing the standing faira, crying "no problem, you will understand it later" Jeon tried to calm the faira while stroking her hair.

"stop crying we're going home today" said Jeon again taking off his arms and wiping his tear-soaked cheeks.

jeon helped the faira prepare for the time when Jeon's mother came to their aid, today they will return to Indonesia real faira with doubt follow because of the request of mother and father jeon who want to babysit their children at least until the child is quite large and the faira is fully healed, they did not force the faira to return with Jeon but they only wanted to get back close to the faira and her children, about the relationship of jeon and faira only they could determine.

they finally arrived in their own country jeon luxury car stopped at a luxury housing in the middle of the city

"why are we here?" tanya Faira was surprised to see the big house in front of her

they just smiled and walked into the house and were helped by Jimmy and his wife and a couple of house assistants and two middle-aged women in uniforms to show that they were baby sitters. the astonished Faira follows Jeon's steps and enters the luxurious house.

"follow me" said Jeon as he pulled the faira upstairs.

arriving at the jeon directly shows the room of the faira adjacent to his son's room "this is your room and next to our son's room, do you like it?" jeon asked with a smile "i've been preparing since you agreed to return" said jeon spirit but faira just silently answered nothing.

"do you not like it?" jeon asked because the faira had just been quiet

"do you want to buy me again on the grounds of a son" arrived faira cetus on jeon.

jeon just shook his head as he approached Faira slowly took a deep breath "I regret what I have done to you, what I did I know will not heal your wounds, but this house is not what I mean, this house I bought it for you and your son took it as alimony".

"then you won't stay here, will you?" ask Faira without looking at jeon

"for the next few months I'll be here with you guys until you can take care of everything yourself, after which I'll move on" obviously jeon he reasoned to wait for the faira to take care of everything on its own but it was also his chance to make the faira change her mind and slowly accept it back, even though he did not know the results.

"but remember after I leave here don't stop me from meeting zoans and zeins" jeon said once again and answered the faira with a nod but a little indifferent.

a few days later, Jeon's close friends visited to see his son, faira kindly welcomes them despite the fact that it feels uncomfortable because of her status and the divorced jeon and the house in her place now is a voluntary jeon grant is not a allowance, some may think that the Faira used her son to get money from jeon, but fortunately jeon Benar2 did not publish anything he just confirmed if he had a child with faira who had just been born.

"already faira do not think too far" Faira denied his thoughts he then went to his son's room2 who was playing with his nanny.

"the voice is very funny" said a nanny after hearing the voice released by the faira child.

" how does it sound" sambar faira who just came in was happy to know her son began to make adorable sounds even though he did not hear it himself.

"mom ngockeh a lot with his son mom later he laughs or not nyaut" said the babysitter

faira tried to talk and tried to make her son laugh but her son did not respond to her two children just silent for a moment staring at the eyes of the faira.

"why can't bi" asked Faira a little disappointed

"no papa will just try ma'am, later often2 play with his son ma'am" said the nanny

faira daydreamed sadly she was so disappointed with herself how could a mother who was pregnant and gave birth to her child feel not close to her child even though they live on one roof. faira interrupts her comatose self for weeks so she can't breastfeed her child. "if I breastfeed them, it may seem that they won't get this far" inner faira

he left and went back to his room and followed Jeon because Jeon saw the faira while crying back to his room after his son's room.

"faira what's wrong?" trying to ask Faira who was sitting on the side of the bed while covering her face.

because the faira did not answer any jeon sitting next to the faira and embrace it "why, just tell me not to be dammed" while tidying up the hair of the faira that covers his face.

"who?" jeon began to feel confused

"zoan and zein, always crying if I hold him"

jeon smiled faintly he thought the faira was very funny and spoiled, jeon did not know if the faira might be experiencing baby blues that are susceptible to occur in mothers who have just given birth, Jeon did not know if the faira may be experiencing baby blues that are vulnerable to motherhood, will have a bad impact on the faira if not overcome.

"isn't your condition now starting to improve, you have to be with children often so you understand and learn, over time you will be able to" explained Jeon slowly while stroking the hair faira.

faira just kept quiet while rubbing her wet cheek with a tissue. jeon also went out because his parents were outside the faira was intent on following jeon out but his steps stopped when he saw in the middle room where they gathered there was a woman who was not a stranger in the eyes faira had a conversation with Jeon and her parents.The woman was a jessy designer who was quite close to the jeon family, she was also the one who introduced clara to jeon first.

"both of your sons are right2 like you are jeon" jessy said as she stroked the cheeks of zoan and zein lying on the sofa beside her grandmother.

"of course" he said briefly, staring at his two lying children

"where's his mother?" ask jessy

"over in his room" replied Jeon.

"he's here" frowned in surprise

"yes, that's why" asked jeon in surprise

"what are you referring to"

jeon just shook his head to give an answer.

"if not why is he here" said Jessy who was directly covered in his mouth by jeon.

jessy parried jeon's hand "why jeon, if you don't come back why should one house" he said, whispering slightly, but the faira behind the room heard his talk

"i want to take care of my son2" said Jeon

"take your son why you have to maksa gini," said jessy made jeon and both parents panicked fear sounding faira.

"just why the hell are you" Jeon sizzled telling jessy to be quiet

hearing jessy's words made the faira go back to daydreaming, he thought jessy was right if they did not refer to their inappropriate one house, although with the reason of caring for her child, the faira looked around the house "look how unlucky I am to live here" Inner Faira immediately ran to her room, his embarrassment made him cry so he thought his way out was just accepting jeon's invitation to refer but it was true2 he was afraid he didn't want to go back with jeon because of old wounds, although actually Faira knows if she also still loves jeon.

in the middle of the night the faira had not yet gone to sleep, he also did not leave the room after hearing what jessy jeon said and his parents had repeatedly entered the room asking Faira for dinner but the faira not only kept silent to make jeon both of his parents are getting confused.

"faira is getting weirder jeon anyway" asked the mother to jeon who was playing her phone on a sofa.

"i don't know mom, I often see her crying alone" put her phone in her pants pocket.

"is he depressed?"

"depressants,? but why" asked jeon puzzled

"it often happens to women who have just given birth, because the pain he feels after giving birth makes his hormones change, he will often think of the like"

"what kind of shit?" jeon was confused

"do you read on the internet aja confused mama selamin"

jeon grabbed his phone again and surfed the internet about it.

"what a faira would be this bad" muttered jeon himself. because of the panic jeon went up and opened slowly the room faira in fear is true faira crying alone sitting on the floor while staring blankly whatever was in the mind faira jeon perplexities.

"stop like this faira, what you're crying about" stroked the faira's hair, but the woman who looked down only parried jeon's hand hinting that she didn't like jeon touching her head.

"rest this very night" said Jeon then slowly out, hoping the faira could be calmer if alone.