The Battle Heart's
not giving up

the sound of crying baby so echoed in the big house, jeon with puffy eyes because he was not ready to wake up with a stagger out of his room which was not far from his son's room, he went to his son's room and saw two caregivers trying to calm his two children.

"why is this bi?" jeon asked, approaching his two sons who were crying

"don't know sir, from that cry continues not to know because, even though it has been given milk, the stomach is also not bloated" said one of the caregivers

"the clothes have been opened yet, who knows the insect bite" said Jeon undressing his son.

"already sir, but what's wrong" the nanny replied in a panic.

"maybe want to meet his mother, usually his mother in the morning has come here just to squirm her son" said one of the nannies who carried zein

"why not in the call" said Jeon while turning the body wanted to call the faira

"already, but I think still sleep is not good continued frenzied" said the nanny

jeon began to confuse his forehead wrinkled considering the unusual faira of waking up this afternoon, he accelerated his pace

"luckoo!!!" while knocking on the door of Faira's room, several times called no answer.

"kreeekkkkk" turns out that the door of the room faira is not in the lock of jeon's eyes tracing each side of the room, but he did not find the faira in his room, but he did not find the faira in his room, he ran down the stairs looking at every corner of his house and into the kitchen where there was only a housekeeper.

"sara's mother had seen faira gak" asked jeon to approach the mother of a housekeeper in her place

"mommy Faira emang hasn't come home yet,?" her question made Jeon even more confused

"where is he going?"

"so early in the morning I saw out when I washed the dishes, I kept asking him to say he wanted to walk in the morning" stopped his work and began to pay attention to Jeon

"if it's the morning walk, this session has not come home" Jeon began to panic immediately took the keys of his car that was on a special table. he slowly passed through several streets around the housing hoping his eyes could see the faaira that was expected to walk, but until he went to the highway he did not find the faira.

jeon calls his home and his parents hope that there is news from the faira, Jeon gets more panicked because he does not get the news he wants, especially the afternoon, the more, faira is continuously inaccessible.

"no more faira, please no more" muttered jeon in a frustrated car.

because the day began in the afternoon Jeon also felt very tired he chose to go home.

having just arrived at the house Jeon's parents had already welcomed him with a few questions making jeon even more dizzy

"can't you be at home anyway jeon fairanya?,"

" his phone can't be on the phone"

"what was he talking about last night"

jeon's mother's questions kept Jeon dizzy. "i don't know ma'am, I'm dizzy Jeon said" then ran back to the room faira trying to find something she could take a hint at.

while opening the window curtain that was still covered by a letter overlaid by a cellphone at the end of the window made jeon's eyes rounded he took the phone and opened a small sheet of letter that appeared to have written.

(jeon, I've actually been very happy to see your attitude towards me these past few moments, you might say you won't demand anything from me, but,, uh, you might say you won't demand anything from me,, if you're always in front of me I feel like sooner or later I'm going to accept you, and make me feel like I have no other choice. if I have to accept you it has to be from my own heart not because of any pressure, I want to go for a moment to make sure about the feeling in my heart and choose the path by my own decision, if it turns out that I need you I might come back, but if I don't I won't go back. If I don't go back and take care of zoans and zeins like now it seems like they love you more than I do. I trust you)

reading the letter of faira without feeling jeon dropped his tears he squeezed the letter to the tangle "I didn't know you would think so far faira, and desperate to leave your son" wiping away her tears confirmed her face and tried to calm herself down by taking her breath in deeply.

it has been almost two months faira did not return, he also did not contact jeon even just ask about his son did not, the mother of zoan and zein was as if lost in the swallow of the earth, due to lack of attention to his health, Jeon who was busy working and taking care of his son finally fell unconscious while being a guest at a live event.

now that Jeon was in the treatment room he was so weak, his parents always accompanied him in the care.

"have zoan and zein not been brought here, ma'am?" asked Jeon who was still lying limp on his bed with the infusion needle still stuck in his hand.

"maybe later in the afternoon, I'll have the driver pick them up later" while stroking Jeon's hair.

jeon was just silent he was just silently pensive while staring out the window to see the view of the small garden that was right in front of the window.

"you're so tired, you should take your time to rest, so that something like this doesn't happen again" said Jeon's mother, who was sitting next to her son's bed

"yes" he answered briefly

"it's not just the physical thing you're talking about"

jeon turned to his mother and his face shriveled and asked to hear the mother's words.

"not only your physical tired but your psychic is also very tired, both must rest so that you remain healthy inner birth" he said again because he saw the face of Jeon who did not understand his first speech.

"how's it going?" he said down

"only you know how Jeon works"

"not for a second did I not feel pain because of this miss ma'am, with work I became very busy and momentarily forgot about it" jeon took his breath in "I had to be very tired before going to bed so that there was no chance of remembering it and instantly closing my eyes".

"it's possible, but I don't want to" he replied briefly

"when do you keep doing this?" jeon's mother cried seeing his son's suffering.

"excuse me...."

someone came in and stopped the mother and child talking.

"what's wrong?" jeon asked his assistant who had just entered without knocking.

"the manager has taken care of everything you can take a vacation for the next month" said the assistant, smiling at Jeon

"but I'm not asking for a day off" asked jeon in astonishment

"mama asked you to take a day off" the mother made jeon dumbfounded

"but ma,,,,"

"no, you have to rest" said the mother cut off her child's conversation and then moved out.

"just rest, it's been re-schedule kok work" said the assistant as he touched the shoulder of Jeon who was still sitting on his treatment bed.

jeon just kept quiet and said nothing, because now he had no choice but to rest at home.

the next day Jeon came home from the hospital and decided to rest at his house, jimmy and his wife were at jeon's house to help take care of Jeon's children. jeon walked slowly towards the room where his son was playing, his son was playing with his wife jimmy nadine.

"look, your papa's home" said jimmy's wife while playing with zoan and zein on their stomach with toys in their hands.

jeon just smiled faintly at the baby and then slowly sat down next to his two children with him playing "do you miss papa?" muttered jeon while kissing each2 cheeks of his two ank.

"jeon, you better rest in the room" said jimmy who was next to Nadine.

but Jeon just kept quiet he continued playing with his son..

"mammaaaaa maaa" the original speech from his son's mouth made jeon rise to look at his son's son.

"what a pity to say again" Jeon said in a soft voice

"mammm" said the child who did not understand

"do you miss your mama?,," looked at his two children "ask your mama to come home soon" said Jeon again

jeon's mother was staring at her son in the yard next to their house, jeon daydreaming with a cup of coffee while staring at a fish pond filled with koi fish.

jeon's mother sat next to Jeon, because there were two benches in the courtyard, jeon's mother looked at Jeon's phone on the table next to the cup of coffee that was lit because of the many incoming messages but Jeon was still silent without glancing at the slightest of his phone.

his mother seemed to understand the anguish jeon tried to talk slowly "jeon,,,, everyone must have felt that his name was sorry," stopped and looked at Jeon who was still silent "but,, not all forms of regret must force to correct past mistakes, we can also show regret by respecting the decisions of others" he continued

although the middle with a blank look jeon still understood the meaning of his mother's words, a moment of silence jeon also voiced "this I do because of love ma, ma, I just wanted him to try it with me again so I could erase the trail of pain that was created" he said without looking at his mother.

"that's what he's afraid of Jeon, what you're saying is that he thinks he's gonna put his broken heart on, he might ask if my heart's healing? or will the destruction happen again and get worse? it must have stuck in his mind" explained Jeon's mother as she grabbed his son's hand trying to seduce his son so that his son could be sincere and let go of the faira.

"mom might think I'm selfish?" laughing a little smirk "yes I was selfish for forcing her back, but this is all because she's the reason I live"

"you can live enough with your child, your feelings will disappear over time, so please Jeon stop acting like this, you scare the mother" Jeon's mother said in a high voice.

"i am alive, but without faira as without life"

"stop jeon" said the mother, shaking almost to tears at Jeon's behavior

"stop?" laughing cynically "mom knows how I would be if I loved women so much"

jeon's mother was silent considering her son was very difficult to put his heart on women, but if it was love his son is very difficult to control himself.

"didn't you like the faira?"

"mother also loved him jeon, like her own son"

"then why did mom fight me for it, wouldn't we be happy together"

"It's precisely because I love her that I tell you to stop making her suffer"

"suffered?" jeon looked astonished that he chuckled with red eyes that wanted to cry

"don't you know what it's like, it's not easy to start with you again, he's probably going to be cold to you, even he's going to be so heartfelt in acting, he's not going to be confident anymore, do you want him to continue like that?, and will you put up with his attitude that may be indifferent to you later?" jeon's mother stood up and approached her son hoping that he would understand.

"i know the risk ma'am, I already know, early divorce I've let it go, but mother also at that time encouraged me when I knew the faira was pregnant, I've made the decision mom, I've made the decision, and I've come a long way, faira doesn't have to turn around when I chase after her, I just need her to stop so I can get close" Jeon said, then turned to leave her mother alone in the yard.