The Destiny of Love Rania
CHAPTER 12 (SIGNS OF HIS COMING)

Early in the morning Rania was neat and ready to go to the campus, she had a Reproductive Health course this morning. Rania leaves with Raisya who is also a college and a major with him.

“We don't assign Ran?” Raisya asked.

“No, at most there will be an evaluation of the material that is yesterday”

“Oohh.. I have not recorded the material, yesterday I did not enter”

“Iya yes? Well, afwan Sya. If the record is in the ntar campus can ngak ya?”

“Hopefully. I wrote it fast kok”

Rania and Raisya walk through the alley of their boarding house to the highway where they will wait for the angkot.

“It's a good thing that Jeni has taken the bule out of kosan kita” said Raisya when they discussed the problem of Jeni and her brother.

“Iya Sya, we must firmly reject the obedience that is around us. We should not be silent because we do not know yet whether the Caucasian is actually his sibling Jeni or not? Yach... does not mean suudzon, but if the problem of sin must be careful Sya”

“Yes you are right Ran, so what did Jeni respond this morning to Ran? I did not get to see him, until now he has not come home. Free as a child's life. Walking without rules. Maybe for him it's good to have such freedom huh?”

“As usual, he's angry with me. But, let's not be too how about the same Jeni again. The important thing is that we pray that Jeni's heart is softened and can both join us in the review”

“If Cici think about Ran? His response is good with our preaching, but why does he not want to join?”

“Hmmm... Cici once said this to me, ‘Ran.. if I take part in the study means I have to mutusin Ray donk. I'm having trouble, but Ray can understand? He's reckless Ran, he used to be almost me stayin kept him desperate to crash himself into the highway’ so he said”

“Masya Allah.. sometimes I wonder with people who have already been wet to love someone excessively Ran, whatever they are willing to do. No more logic and reason. Just a feeling maybe yes they use, because the feeling will run is not in accordance with our common sense.” Raisya.

Hearing Raisya's words just now had time to make Rania jerk, because what Rasiya said was true. Rania has experienced this. True feelings are always contrary to common sense, especially when it comes to love.

“Sometimes people who love it too much look stupid” Raisya goes on. Rania was silent. Confused to answer what.

“Too desperate who ended up suffering for himself. Let alone others himself just do not care about him again”

“Luckily I've never felt like that Ran, don't get there. Nauzubillah min dzalik.”.

Suddenly, Rania's mind glared to 2 years ago. In his mind still clearly imagined the folly and recklessness of what he had done to regain his lost love. Still vividly remembered the incident in his memory, as if it was difficult to erase from his memory.

Two years ago was a very bleak year for Rania's life. Tears of sadness always drenched his face, turmoil always enveloped his heart, and anxiety was always implied by him. Empty and empty.

This is the stupidity he used to do. Loving someone excessively, loving someone and hoping to have them completely. But, when a loved one goes the sense of loss is so painful, so painful. A sentence that says that if you love and want to have then be prepared to enter the endless loss that turns out to be true. No one knows about Rania's past. Including Raisya, Rania is so close to closing the biggest secret of her life.

“Ran, have you ever been in love?” Raisya asked as she smacked Rania's shoulder gently. The smooth but continuous punch made Rania shocked amazing.

“Fall in love?” Rania repeats Raisya's question.

“Iya? Have you ever felt like loving someone? In the sense of the opposite sex?”

Rania fell silent. His eyes straight ahead. He dared not look at Raisya who was staring at him again. But he must not long answer Raisya's question, he does not want Raisya suspicious of his residence of the question.

“It must have been Sya. Every one of us must have felt love”

“But if love is excessive?” search Raisya.

Rania was silent again. Should he lie to his best friend? But he was not ready to tell her about her bleak past.

“Kak Nazwa, Kak Raisya Shouting the voice of a teenager in a high school uniform from behind makes Rania and Raisya simultaneously turn their heads back, it turns out Zahra is calling them. They stop, Zahra runs towards them and Rania is saved from Raiysa's sudden question.

“Zahra from aunt Zahra's house. It turns out not far from kosan brother.”

“Loh. You're not in school?” now Raisya asked.

“Iya kok school, may come a little late. There was a sudden need to go to the house of aunt Zahra kak.”

“So what are you wearing here?”

“Nike angkot kak”

“Oya Kak Nazwa, next Friday there is an event at the school. Motivational training is. And Alhamdulilah the results of the meeting yesterday my brother Nazwa was chosen as one of the fillers, sister can right?”

“Hmm... friday yes, God willing yes deck. But brother see scedul brother first yes, hopefully there has not made an appointment or event anything”

“Oke brother, Zahra wait for news from brother. Oya, brother will be paired with the second material filler that is Ustad Fory”, said Zahra with a meaningful smile.

Hearing the name of the young ustad spontaneously made Rania's chest tremble a little, whether the vibration was that she did not know. Rania knew the ustad, there were several times they met, but never once did they talk to each other at most just greeting and smiling at each other.

After that Rania and Raisya parted ways with Zahra, because Zahra used an angkot opposite to them. After Zahra left, Rania was a little worried, afraid that Raisya would return to discuss the question that Rania did not have time to answer but fortunately Raisya forgot it seemed.

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‘umi..’ a short text read by Rania shortly after she was awakened by her phone alarm at exactly 03.00 in the morning. With eyes still sleepy Rania tried to recover her consciousness and observe carefully the number that she felt was not foreign. After his consciousness recovered 100%, he was aghast. That's the number of someone who entered his life 2 years ago. He was still stuck with that number.

Rania's chest was pounding. He returns. After a long time out of communication but tonight he again sms Rania with a short word that is able to make Rania as if back again in 2 years ago.

Rania breathed. With a quick movement he instantly deleted the short message. He did not want to keep it, keeping the text was the same as giving a gap for him to return to the past that he had buried deeply.

Rania stepped into the bathroom. Wudhu and immediately carry out his tahajud prayer routine.

“Yes Allah.. Yes Muujiib.. O Muqollib.I seek refuge in You, I submit to You, Do not let me slip again in error after You have given me guidance. Set my heart to always be in Your way. Whatever happens, I may no longer fall into the same hole, Aamiin…” Rania closed her long prayer with the request because she really felt afraid of the test of faith if faced again with her love in the past.

Finish tahajud Rania back to lay her body in bed. He glanced at the phone located right on the table next to his bed. The plan was to text Zahra, informing her that she could attend an event at her school tomorrow. But, the intention was suppressed when a text entered again on his phone.

“Honey... wake up.. wake up.... tahajud......”.

Rania flinched again. Same number and this must be the same person as the one that texted earlier. Rania hurriedly deleted the dark text.

“Yes God, what else is this? She should not come anymore” Rania said to herself.

Because the 2 dark texts Rania's mind became floating around, his memory goes back to 2 years ago. Event after event comes and goes to decorate his mind, there is a happy, there is a funny even there is sadness until painful events dance in his mind. Somehow that night Rania like to enjoy it without the slightest prevent her heart and mind playing again in the fire of misguided in the name of love.

“One thing you should know is .. Abi's affection is greater than the affection of umi to abi. Abi will never leave Umi. Abi will always be there for umi..”.

That sentence seemed to be blazing in his mind. As if near whispering right in her ear, Rania really misses the sentence, with a loving call from her, with her attention, with her laughter, with her gaze, with her…..

“Astaghfirullah..” Rania brushed aside the shadows about it all, the devil has managed to influence his feelings tonight, he should not be weak like this, it is not appropriate that he dirty his heart with such adulterous thoughts, he said, rania repeatedly beristighfar.

“Yes Allah .. I am not an angel without lust. I am just a human being who has lust, heart and feelings. Therefore, set my heart only to love what You love and what You Ridhoi. And hate what You hate and what You don't ridhoi” Rania's prayer in the heart.

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