The Destiny of Love Rania
CHAPTER 23 (THE SAME MISTAKE)

When he woke up from his sleep, Rania's chest felt pained. Something is different, it feels different. He seemed to be carried away again to 2 years ago when the loss raged on him. In recent days, Rania is back in a relationship of communication with her past love that came without her love. His arrival makes Rania nervous amazing but on the other hand he feels like enjoying it, he lost Control who ended up serving sms from the man.

Rania conscious. He was still weak, his feelings were still wavering, he had not been able to prevent himself from no longer drifting in this yet halal love.

“sayaanng.. abi will return to umi........” The words were heard again, though not directly. However, it made his chest feel tight. There is a sense of happiness about his return again, after a long time he disappeared and now comes to bring new love again. Is Rania happy with this? But, who can guarantee this happiness is in place or not? Rania must be careful in taking action. He had to be observant and dig even deeper what was the intention of his return? Back to what? To marry her? Or maybe to play again?

“For the sake of Allah.. aby is ready to marry umi at this time, but the problem is.......”.

Yach! She's ready, ready to marry Rania, but...why is there a word but? Why is there always a reason to be good. Why are you ready to say love but not ready to get married? Although she said she was ready to get married, but for Rania it was the same if there was a word but and but, what was the problem?

Rania could not continue reading the text that is quite long. Many times the man was busy contacting her but Rania was completely unwilling to pick her up. Therefore, the man explained the real reason, what problems are happening to him at this time so that it prevents him from immediately marrying Rania who he really loves through text.

“Sabar yes dear……. Aby asked for her prayer, rest assured by the power of prayer. Only the power of prayer can change everything, which brings us together  

Yach! He's correct. Prayer's power. Rania never doubted the power of prayer, she was very confident in prayer. Because prayer is a shield, it is the weapon of Muslims. He told Rania to be patient, automatically he told Rania to wait. Waiting for something uncertain. Rania is afraid throughout her waiting, there will be many temptations that pervade her, especially her feelings are still weak in the name of love.

Rania was really confused. Will the same mistake be repeated? The mistake he had gradually corrected would be etched again? Rania doesn't want it to happen again. But, again but. wits lose, now his feelings are too complicated. His feelings are too spoiled. Is it true that women are so weak when brought in terms of feelings?

“Honey...for God's sake, if there is no such problem. At this time also abi will come and directly apply for umi. abi seriously.. abi ngak playfully”.

Sms for sms received. The man tried to convince Rania. Rania was sitting limp on her bed, still holding her face. He doesn't know what to do? Accept or reject it. To hate or to assume that nothing happened. But he can't be like that? He is the type of thinker. And now his mind was like he was fighting with his feelings. Both wanted to occupy the highest place. Rania has not been able to decide what she should do again?

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The morning sunlight still shows its form. This morning was not so bright. The sun is still hidden behind the clouds that are starting to blacken. A cloudy morning with the weather is still cool, making most people lazy plus it happens to be a holiday. Everything is complete, the weather and the day are very supportive to resume his sleep, pull the blanket and start dreaming again.

But not for Jeni. That morning I knew if there was any wind that he was awake. His face was cheerful, he looked very excited. Different from the previous Jeni who looks cute and ugly.

“Build…. Wake up.. friends.. let's wake up, we goro yuks........” cried Jeni rather strongly who automatically caught also in the ears of his boarding friends who are still lying in their respective beds.

“Udah how long try we ngak net2 with nech? Dusty shrimp all ne..” he added still with a loud voice.

“He said.. right.. cleanliness is part of faith…. If ngak net means doubtful tuch his faith” quipnya addressed to his fellow boarding who are all proselytizing activists in their respective campuses.

Cici opened the door of her room while rubbing her eyes. Drowsiness was still clearly drawn from her face but curiosity overcame that drowsiness, she could not believe what she heard, Jeni the arrogant woman woke them up that morning to clean up.

“Tumben... any wind what ne Jen?” cici asked when she found Jeni who was ready with a broom, mop and komoceng in her hand.

“Why? Just don't ask too many questions, quickly donk help me! Bangunin also others”

Not long after, Hamidah and Mila came out of the room while Raisya was already in the kitchen preparing breakfast because it happened that day he was picket and cooking for his friends.

“Loh... Where's rania?” jeni asked when she did not see Rania coming out of the room.

“He's sick again Jen. High fever” shouted Raisya from the kitchen.

Jeni sneers. She knew that Rania was not just sick, there was something she was hiding. It's time to take down Rania, Jeni thought.

“Alah.. What pain hurts? I know how. Rania is upset again, right? It turns out.. it could also be a Rania who was almost perfect was carried by a virus upset......” said Jeni who deliberately hardened her voice to be heard by Rania who was in her room.

“Do not know Jen. Rania benRran fever, the temperature has reached 39 degrees Celsius” said Raisya still defending Rania.

“Iya.. her turmoil that made her fever..” said Jeni .

“Other people are sick and even suspected that various sech” Mila participated in defending Rania. Because he knew there was no way Rania who he knew had been infected with the virus.

“What do you mean?” Hamith asked.

“Iya.. that is the figure of Rania you know. If he advises... pamphanya lecturing... panda forbid this it is.... but, what try after the problem comes to himself can he do as he did to you? Counseling himself? There was even worse with the problem. Like a candle..” explains Jeni who again with a loud voice. From inside Rania's room she heard what was being thrown from Jeni's mouth. Rania can only stroke the chest. In her heart she asked why Jeni hated her so much? What harm?

“Esya if not ready to bond with religious teachings do not be pretentious ready, it will be like that”

“You why sech Jen? Why is it even associated with religion?” tanya Cici disagreed with Jeni's carefree speech.

“Iya donk's. Actually life is simple Ci, if we live it like running water for what it is. ngak will there be a burden.. you know what makes the burden of life what? Because they feel attached to the rules that bind.the rules that prohibit this, it must be this way, it must be so, otherwise it will be this way... that's why most people are worried about which way? Moreover, people who have continued to feel bound... ouch... plis dech.. just enjoy this life what it is, do not sulk yourself..”.

Rania took a long breath. Jeni's words just now were outrageous. But, because of the current chaos of his mind somehow Rania sedkit justified Jeni's speech.is it true that he was confused to take steps because he felt attached to His law? Try if he is like Jeni who is said to live without burden because he does not feel bound by any law that makes him free to choose which path he wants. Is it really like that? Many times Rania said, Satan has poisoned her mind. He should not have such thoughts, it is not appropriate that he justifies the words of Jeni that are clearly contrary to the belief that has been held.

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The next day Sarah came to see Rania. It had been 3 days that Rania was sick and lying weakly in her room.

You have a problem Wa?” ask Sister Sarah who saw the look on Rania's face that was not as usual. The change in Rania's face was easy to guess that something had happened to her.

Rania can't hide from Sarah's sister. He could not have made up any more new lies and said that nothing had happened. He had already brought his feelings back to the pit of sin. The same mistake was repeated again, it made him sick, sick from fear and shame of His Lord.

“Iya brother.. Nazwa is indeed again hit by trouble”

“So can't know what problem it is?” ask Sarah slowly.

“Kak” feeling problem answered Rania while looking down. The tears that were almost spilled were still being held back. Brother Sarah was shocked to hear, in disbelief because she knew what kind of feeling problem this Rania meant.

“Who is Nazwa ? Which makes you like this? Weak like this?”

Rania told everything to Sister Sarah. He told me a long story, from beginning to end. Sarah listened to him carefully. Many times Brother Sarah said and moaned the sign of disbelief but Rania continued the story of her past.

“Yes Allah Nazwa, brother did not expect you ever experienced this straggish thing”

“Iya sis... This is what Nazwa has kept for a long time.2 years Nazwa has been able to defend against this feeling, but... Nazwa visited him through a dream and in the end he really came back..”.

“Is.... this the strongest reason you rejected ustad Fory's proposal?” search Sarah suspiciously.

“Iya sis... Ustad Foury's proposal came together with his arrival sis...”

“What do you expect of him who has no clarity is Nazwa? You... You want to repeat your past? Try to think with your logic Nazwa.. he already dumped you once... and now it's delicious he again harasses your feelings until it is made confused like this..”.

“Nazwa doesn't want to be like this either. But ... Nazwa what else can you do, brother? Nazwa's feelings are weak... Nazwa can not avoid it.. but Nazwa also can not expect it... because the problem is that...it is very difficult for us to unite.”.

“What's the problem? Who can vouch for Nazwa? If true...the problem is that it is difficult to keep you united, what else is there to defend? When do you want to be like this? You have to be strict Nazwa. You said to him, he should be able to make a choice. Stay with you or marry you, instead of hanging you like this...”.

“Nazwa has tried to tegass and say that to him, but again... this heart is broken... this heart can not be lied to that Nazwa also still hopes for him.”.

“You love him so much Nazwa?”

“For the sake of Allah.. The last 2 years Nazwa no longer harbors any taste for him, but somehow since...The dream and his arrival suddenly made the love appear again brother? Nazwa did not understand...why did God bring him back in our position like this?”

“This is a test for you Nazwa. Faith testing. Test feelings. And the test of lust.is not a man not said to be a believer before he is tested? So, consider this a test. You have to be able to fight your feelings. Because your feelings are Nazwa's fault. It is wrong to submit to him. Think again Nazwa.. fear and shame on Him. Brother please. think again, do not let you step wrong. enough Once...” Firm Sarah.

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