The Forbidden Desire of the CEO
A cry full of wounds

“What should I do now?”

In the silence of the night, which was in her bedroom, Tsamara sat in her wheelchair staring at the son who was sleeping comfortably in bed.

One by one the tears began to fall until they slowly formed a stream on both cheeks.

It had been ten minutes since his last conversation with Zafer in front of the room earlier.

At first he did not want to think too much about what the man said because he also thought that parting was the most appropriate way for them both to choose.

From the beginning Tsamara did not like it and also could not maintain a marriage that would only make her hurt.

At least, that's how it was thought earlier, so it also does not matter when he said that he must immediately pack to leave this house.

However, as she was struck by a very painful reality, when she opened her bedroom door to calm her mind, she saw Keanu sleeping on the bed with his innocent face.

The face seemed to show that there was not a single burden that the little boy was carrying, his life was still free as a child who had no problems in the slightest.

However, when Tsamara saw him, so thought that the reality would not be as smooth as he thought.

Tsamara had forgotten for a moment that she already had Keanu in her life, a son who would always be united in her priority list.

His desire is only one, making Keanu always happy in his life.

Then the question is, how can the son be happy when he later grows up he actually sees his mother can only sit on a wheelchair and can not do everything normally?

‘I certainly should not be selfish by thinking about my own feelings because now there is Keanu living with me.'

'I must also be able to understand his feelings and not make him hurt in the future,’ Tsamara said in her heart.

Tsamara felt that her son would be ashamed if he had a disabled mother, even though Keanu could understand, even though there was Tsamara herself who was embarrassed.

So far, he has always tried to raise Keanu well. Trying to open his view wider on this world, so that later when it is big, so can understand about many problems that occur in this world, including with their problems.

However, as a mother, she could not help her own feelings. He would feel guilty towards Keanu in the future. When his son learned that there were many flaws in his family and most of them were in his mother's life.

Just imagine what his reaction will be when he already understands about a divorce, infidelity, disability and about being an orphan.

In his adult age, Keanu must get all the facts for his family life which is even very far from perfect.

Tsamara felt like she had just been hit by a big rock in her heart that made her feelings instantly become tight as her eyes focused on looking at Keanu on the bed.

Tsamara may not be able to explain how she feels right now, but she really can't accept any of this.

If he had thought that divorcing Zafer was the only thing they had to do, he would have suddenly changed his mind.

He became afraid that he would have to actually divorce the man, given that his main purpose in accepting this marriage offer from Adam was because of Keanu.

She thought that someone who would become her husband would be able to accept her well and treat Keanu well.

But who would have thought that his thoughts were inversely proportional?

Maybe Adam Dirgantara has promised that he will bear all the cost of living Keanu to adulthood. Because Tsamara can't work normally anymore now due to both legs, but all that would be easier if supported by the presence of a good father for his own son.

Unfortunately, Tsamara could not get his wish that one because Zafer was completely different to what he expected.

Never mind being a good father, Zafer never even accepted the presence of the two of them at home.

“If I am really divorced with Mr Zafer, then what will happen to Keanu's future? Mr. Adam will surely withdraw all the help he gave me if he finds out about my dark past, ” she cried.

“I was a sinful woman in the past. I know that the traces from the past won't be able to just disappear, but what I don't know is that everything will be quickly uncovered like this.'

'I can't even provide a defense for myself because I was guilty in the past.'

I feel very ashamed if I have to do a defense in a thing that was not at all good to do in the past.

“If this is the case, what should I do for Keanu's future? I can't even work normally anymore because of the condition of my feet that can't be used anymore.'

"I don't have the money to self-medicate. My God, what should I do if it's like this?”

Unable to look at her son in front of her, Tsamara finally lowered her head and covered her entire face.

Shedding all the cries that felt so painful for her to feel.

In his heart, he wondered, does the karma obtained really have to be this severe? Tsamara could not even think about the next step that could be taken for her future as well as the future of her son.

It felt, all of this had already become chaotic and he was completely overwhelmed right now.

Everything that has happened cannot be repaired. So, he could only accept it if they all found out about his past.

As a human being who does not have any power to resist those in power, all Tsamara can do is resign himself and try to survive to live his days again.

If indeed all of that would be exposed and give a bad ending to her marriage, there was nothing Tsamara could do but accept.

Just for tonight, let the woman cry. Let him spill all his feelings that have been withheld since yesterday.

Tsamara is not a strong woman who can accept all the problems in her life. However, there will be a time when he wants to give up because he is unable to undergo all these problems.

Perhaps ... Today is one of the best days for him to give up on the world and shed it all in the form of a cry filled with wounds and heartache.

To be continued...