The Smell of Love Imriyah
An Answer
Be tonight, a tough night for Amra. God was so kind to him that he brought in a Hafidz who suddenly proposed to him so seriously that his mind was distracted from the grief that had befallen him. He did not see any doubt in Hafidz's eyes, nor did he see the shyness that Hafidz showed when Joko came to his rented house a few days ago.
As a woman, lie if she is not touched by Hafidz's bold attitude. He could not even forget every word Hafidz had said. But... Amra felt it was very hard to make a decision.
Moreover, a few days ago, Amra got the news that Shireen's mother died on the same day as the mother. Hope that was buried back up, alright! Amra did feel very cheap now, how could she wish for a man who had just been abandoned by his wife?
Amra, who had originally looked at the star-filled sky tonight, looked down again while breathing slowly, one side in her blaming her if all the expectations were not worth feeling, she said, but on the other hand in him justifies. It doesn't matter if he has such hope. There was nothing wrong with one's feelings, he could wait until Fatih could forget his wife perhaps? However Fatih is still the first love he still loves very much. Amra sighed back loudly
"You why Ra..?" Amra was surprised to hear Yumni's voice, she did not know since when Yumni was sitting next to her. He was too late in his mind
"It's okay Yum..." Yumni
"Don't be a strong ass! You think you can think of everything? You are not alone, you know..! Although maybe I can't help, at least I can be your trash can right...?" Yumni smiled at the end of the sentence, making Amra smile as well
"Big bad! Must be a dumpster?"
"Keep what else? I have not seen any other parable at all..." Amra laughed as well as Yumni.
Amra sighed again and lowered her head. Yumni was right, he couldn't think of everything alone. It's too heavy that he doesn't know what to decide
"So Hafidz came here..." Yumni still maintained her smile as Amra started telling stories
"Then?" He asked, acting as if he did not know about the arrival of Hafidz, although accidentally, he knew everything
"Hafidz proposed to me Yum..."
"really? Thank goodness...." Yumni reacted very brightly, and it was sincere from within his heart. Inversely, Amra actually looked at him with cloudiness
"That's happy you're Yum?"
"Of course, I'm very.very happy Amra, Hafidz is not a random person, he also sincerely loves you... And most importantly, he'll never make you feel alone..." Amra sighed softly and lowered her head, everything Yumni said was probably true
"But...."
"But what is Ra? What makes you doubt?" Amra was still speechless, not daring to say her unrest. She felt ashamed that she had positioned herself as a "cheap" woman"
"I can't help you Ra, but if you need advice, maybe I can.."
"I'm so ashamed of Yum, I feel so low..." Yumni frowned and approached
"Why do you think like that Ra?"
"I still love him Yum." said Amra Pilu, back Yumni frowned, for a moment he did not understand who Amra meant
"Trainer..." As if understanding Yumni's confusion, Amra clarified her sentence earlier, Yumni sighed hearing that
"Indeed, too, the first love is too memorable to forget... But Ra, not
Fatih already has a wife, already has one child too! You don't think you want to be an actor, do you, Ra?"
"Astaghfirullah's... Yes, it's Yum..." Yumni chuckled at Amra's reaction
"Lantas, what do you want? Why do you maintain the unclear while there is already a clear before your eyes Ra...!"
"I felt very low when my hopes of being with Fatih came back when Fatih had just lost his wife... I don't know Yum. Shireen's face is now in my mind.. I don't know why? But..."
"Udah... No need to muter! I cannot judge your feelings... But the answers and the decisions are in your hands, and the same is true of God..." Yumni smiled and embraced her best friend
"I used to feel whirled with love, dizzy, but thanks to Ra, you've freed me from this mess..." This time alternating Yumni who seemed excited to tell a story, Amra who was still in the embrace of Yumni, could only glance at her
"Free how do you mean Yum?"
"I've broken up.." short Yumni calmly while releasing his embrace, well.is actually not an easy matter for Yumni when it comes to ending his love story with the lover. So why is it this calm? Since he had gone through his weight, he had spent his tears weeping over all of this
"Why?" Ask Amra, still typical with the softness of her voice
"Yes... It's not in line anymore.." Amra was silent and lowered
"So my best friend is now heartbroken, I am sorry Yum... May God soon meet you with the right soul mate.." Yumni laughed crisply at the words of his best friend, Amra... He's really very innocent
"Bec... Would you help me?"
"What help?"
"Later, if you've found the answer to Hafidz's proposal.."
"Now Yum?"
"It's not that important, solve your problems first.."
***
The next day, the sky was clear and the air this morning was very cool. It is something that will rarely be felt when in Jakarta. Yumni, just came from a morning jog, alone. He felt it was very hard to leave Amra's hometown. But there was no choice, he still had a dependant job.
Today, he will return to Jakarta. By yourself anyway. He packed his things last night before going to bed. And this morning he will be home.
Amra smiled at him as she was going to the bathroom, Yumni returned the smile cheerfully. He knew his best friend's lips were smiling. However, there was a lot of worry in his heart at this moment. Would he be able to accompany Amra?
"Sir..your friend wants to go home now?"
"Yes bulhek.."
"So you want to take him?" Amra nodded slowly
"Yumni don't want to be delivered..."
"Oh... Later if he wants to leave, you love this yes. make provisions on the journey.." Amra smiled and nodded
"Yes bulhek wants to go to the store, sir, yes.." Amra smiled wider.
The existence of the bulhek really helps Amra recover her feelings. The voice and face are almost similar to the mother
"Amra is not alone buk..." Mumbled.
It was time for Yumni to return, bringing the provisions prepared by the Amra Bulhek. Only a few days he was there, but the sense of kinship had been awakened so tightly. Making the rare Yumni feel the warmth of the family, feel increasingly heavy to go. Yeah, but this is life.
"Be careful on the road, Yum... I keep telling you.." Yumni smiled
"Ready.ready...!! I wait for the good news from you too, I go first huh..."
"Bulhek, thank you so much for the supplies.."
"Yes nduk..."
"Assynoltom..." Yumni waved his hand and left.
Leaving Amra with her worries. Amra sighed and went in once Yumni was out of sight. Bulhek followed, he will also soon return to Surabaya
The call stopped Amra who was going to the kitchen, he turned and smiled at the bulhek
"What's bulhek?"
"Here, sit! Chat for a minute!"
Without protest, Amra approached Bulhek and sat down beside him. The warm gaze he got, and gently bulhek stroked Amra's head
"Remember that..! You are never alone, there is still bulhek in place of your mother..." Amra smiled and nodded
"Bulhek saw you so moody from yesterday.."
"It's okay bulhek, Amra's fine"
"Tell?" Amra nodded
"Tomorrow, bulhek come home, you're okay alone?"
"Tomorrow? Can't it be delayed anymore?"
"Sorry nduk... Bulhek can't stay any longer.." Amra sighed softly and lowered her head. Should he make a decision alone? Actually, he still wants to ask for an opinion from Bulhek about the proposal from Hafidz yesterday
"Bulheck... Actually, Amra wants to negotiate something." said Amra finally honest
"About what?"
"The future of Amra... Amra had no parents anymore, Amra was afraid of making a wrong decision.." bulhek did not say much, he kept quiet and watched Amra, Amra, and she was afraid of making a mistake, he did not want to guess what his nephew was worrying about
"Hafidz, Mr. Joko's second child, proposed to Amra yesterday, and Amra was worried, would accept it or not"
"What worries you?" Amra lowered her head and sighed again, choosing silence not to answer, she was ashamed if she had to be too honest with her feelings
"Sir.is he a good man?" Amra nodded
"He prayed?" Amra nodded back
"In charge?"
"InshaaAllah.."
"Worthy of consideration what else worries you? You don't love her?" Amra was silent and still nodded
"Love comes from the lust of God, as well as a soul mate... The soul mate and love is already a package, if God sets him your soul mate, want you not love him, long time will also grow a sense as well..! If the advice of the bulhek, you should be istikharah, pasrahlan the same God! It looks like nduk... Only good men would come to get you married..."
***
Tonight, it's quiet....
Amra woke up alone, it was difficult for her to fall asleep. Hafidz's application really made it gamang.
"Yes Allah... I leave all this to You, may this decision that I have taken be good for my servant, and also good for Hafidz... May this servant's decision not hurt anyone, especially not hurt the servant himself... May this decision be my dedication to my mother.."
Amra picked up her old cell phone, typed something in there, and it looked like she was going to send someone a short message. The hour hand showed at 10:30 p.m., there was no way he would disturb someone by calling. So he chose to send a short message.
***
Not much different than Amra. Ever since he dared to propose to Amra yesterday, Hafidz really couldn't sleep well. His feelings are mixed up. Tonight, he is awake alone
"Yes Allah... May the servant give strength, may what the servant has done be good for the servant and also Amra, may what the servant has done not hurt his feelings.."
Hafidz was surprised when he heard the shakes from his phone, for some reason his chest shook even though he had not taken his phone.he slowly opened his phone to see who had sent the message. The rumble in his chest grew stronger as he saw Amra's name written on the screen, he exhaled softly to calm down
'Assalamualaikum mas Hafidz... Sorry to interrupt those nights.. Amra just wanted to tell you, if Amra will give an answer to the application mas Hafidz, come home with the family tomorrow afternoon ba'da assyar'
"Is this 3 days? How fast is it?" Worry again disturbed Hafidz's heart. It doesn't seem like good news
'Waalaikumussalam... Yes Ra, may Allah make it easy to return with a raging heart
***
The next day, for some reason the weather became hostile. There was no greeting of warm sunlight from this morning because it was covered in cloudy clouds. Hafidz had expressed Amra's wish last night to her family, and they welcomed it with great enthusiasm. Contrary to her who hopes anxious, let alone cloudy as if not supporting her. They are getting ready to go to Amra's house, Joko, Syifa and her mother will be accompanying Hafidz this afternoon.
Meanwhile, at his home, Amra was preparing a treat for the family of Mr. Joko, assisted by the bulhek who canceled his return to Surabaya today
"Sorry to bother bulhek..."
"It's okay Ra, it's also a bulhek's obligation as your mother's replacement..." Amra smiled
"Thank you very much..."
Shortly after, a car stopped in the courtyard of Amra's modest home. Seeing that Amra hurriedly entered her room, while bulhek came out to greet the guests. Yes, he was alone, because the husband had returned to Surabaya first to accompany the children.
Mr. Joko who first got out of the car, smiled at the bulhek as well as the bulhek who greeted the guest with a friendly
"Assynoltom..." Said Mr. Joko walking side by side with his wife, while Hafidz walked behind with Syifa
"Vaalaikumussalam... Monggo.. monggo pinarak (please enter)!!"
They all entered together and made a brief acquaintance, before the Bulhek went to call Amra. In contrast to the whole family who looked so anti-sias, Hafidz could only look down lethargic. He felt defeated before the war
"Mas.mbok do not be lethargic anyway..! Reassure yourself, this must be good news, otherwise Amra may ask the whole family to come" Whispered Syifa who sat beside him, Hafidz only sighed, as far as he knew, as he did, Amra is an honest girl, never pretending much less about her feelings
"Mas.mas.mak Amra.." whispered Syifa back.
Hafidz raised his head and was fixated on looking at Amra who looked so beautiful this afternoon, even though there was no makeup at all on her face. Joko smiled at Amra
"Father was very happy when Hafidz gave the news that you invited us to come" said Mr. Joko, Amra smiled, then glanced at Hafidz for a moment
"So, do you have a decision yet?" Ask Mr. Joko does not want to linger
"I am very grateful to Hafidz and my family for taking the time..." Amra gave a moment of pause to this sentence
"I am not as good as Hafidz and his family imagined... I'm just a human being, a lot of my outcry is invisible, I don't want Hafidz and my family to have high expectations of me..." Amra lowered her head as she said that
"We understand..." Said Mr. Joko, Amra took a deep breath and raised her head
"Mas Hafida... Thank you very much for your sincerity in loving me. "hafidz just nodded with a wistful nod, his bad premonition getting stronger.
"I don't want to lie to anyone, honestly for now, there is no feeling of love in my heart, but God willing... I'm ready to be a good wife to Hafidz mas.."
The cloudiness on Hafidz's face slowly disappeared hearing this statement from Amra, There is an indescribable disbelief in his face, did he not mishear? Amra accepted the proposal? Is that true? Hafidz looked at Amra.
***