Trapped BI*Crazy Widow
I how without you
Yash had not let out his voice at all since earlier after seeing Rick's doctor leave from his presence, he chose to sit right next to his wife's left slowly, slowly, trying to lean his body on a stainless chair in the corner of the mattress.
The man did not display his facial expression at all, looking flat and so limp, as if due to his wife's illness, ½ of his soul flew into the air.
His body was there with his wife, but his soul was somewhere, went wandering around looking for something he didn't know where it was.
Yash sat on the chair with his knees holding his left and right hands, then slowly let his face into his palms for some time.
The man momentarily scooped his face violently, after which Yash instantly submerged his face in his palm for quite a long time.
Yash raised his head for some time, then he looked at his wife for a moment.
"Don't you want to serve this old man until the children get married and we see our cute, sweet grandchildren?"
Yash asked slowly, the man started to grab his wife's palm.
"You lupakah? you ever promised to be a devoted wife and accompany me to old age? but now why lie to me and intend to leave myself hmmm?"
Yash continued, the man now left his wife's palm on his left cheek.
"Don't go too fast"
Suddenly the voice of the man began to change.
"There are many things that we have not passed both, the agenda book that we have written together has not been fully run everything because of the busy schedule of my work"
This time the man tried to hold back his tears that might break, but Yash was definitely not likely to do so, men always have to look strong in many ways and even have to be able to withstand their feelings and sorrows, they were forced to be strong when in fact they were so weak and helpless at certain times just like today.
This time Yash's tears were completely spilled, His sobs sounded so soft.
"Tell me, I how to live without you Hana?"
After saying that, he tried to hastily release the grasp of his hand from his wife and directly tried to slightly move away from the presence of his wife so that Hana would not hear the sound of her crying.
the man repeatedly tried to catch his breath, the pain hit his chest at this moment, if he were not ashamed of the atmosphere there maybe he had shouted as loudly as possible while crying for his fate.
or even he had complained to God for the tremendous trials he had to pass.
he repeatedly said in his prayer, God may test him on matter but not life and death, but what is the best governing power of life and death is Allah SWT and he can what.
Is not the journey of human life sometimes not always what is expected? sometimes a human being has to pass through a steep road after some time enjoying a sloping road.
His days are colorful, sometimes happy but at times he is approached with sadness, sorrow and grief, this is the habit of life. No one can escape this reality.
God says:
لَقَدْ خَلَقْنَا الْإِنْسَانَ فِي كَبَدٍ
“Verily We have created man to be in difficulty.” (QS. Al-Reg: 4).
Yash slowly wiped away his tears, then the man turned his back and looked at his wife who was still asleep in her sleep.