Two Eyes One Glasses
The Shadow of the Past

He said the world was wide but it felt narrow to me when I saw someone who had filled my days, who gave me laughter and happiness in those days. The time when I had to get hung up on the rules that I didn't really like, I was free to be myself, to determine how I would express myself through what I was wearing, not the uniformity that was intentionally created.

Yesterday was a nice day but it felt a little bit laugh when I saw her beautiful smile again which has been disappearing for some time for no reason. I need an explanation that he hasn't been able to reveal.

I just want to know what plan God has prepared for me, I also want to ask why I have to meet him again when things are going better without him. I know this was not a meeting that was either purposely or made and on set in such a way, all this was the same as my first meeting with him at the time.

In a room called the teacher's room, that's the place where she and I were both following through, we were both not one class but we were taught by the same teacher who required us to be in the same room for a while.

His smile at that time was enough to give a good first impression for me, after getting to know him I also fell more and more in love with him even though it eventually became something that left a wound both for me and for him. I don't blame everything that happened to our relationship entirely on her fault, maybe it's all my fault that sometimes puts a friend on her appeal.

Last night I couldn't sleep well, all about him was just interrupting my rest. Especially when he texted me and asked me to have dinner together because he was on vacation in Jakarta. I still can't answer the message just think all night and stay up all night. The annoyance may still be there but I can't afford to hate him, even if he wants to be friends again it could happen.

This morning I took the time to buy breakfast for me and for Niken, my feelings were getting mixed, it was getting harder to just be able to live a quiet life and create happiness.

I was in Niken's room, because we both just finished breakfast. I looked at him and he returned my gaze coupled with his smile that would make all men could be charmed and fall in love with him.

"Why are we Ken today?" I said,

"Just rest at the Bar boarding house, after all yesterday we're just walking" answered Niken, replied,

"Capek yeah?" my tofu, my,

"It takes a break just Bar, tomorrow we still have to test" said Niken, said,

"Yes, I like to be bosen if only diem" I said,

"Yaudah lo jump just let's not be bored" said Niken, said,

"You mean sports?" I said,

"If you want to" said Niken,

"Got tired, I'm watching a movie" I said,

"If that I also want, but you buy a snack first" said Niken, said,

"Yes later I buy, besides there is still some food in my room" I said,

"Gw want nori Bar, buyin yes" said Niken,

"Surely I'll buy it" I said,

"The same chocolate bar" said Niken,

"It's been a long time" I said,

"Yaudah gausah deh" said Niken, the,

"That's how Ken feels, kidding me" I said,

"Lagian lo becandain gw mulu" said Niken,

"Let ageless, if serious continue to be stressed, there will be time to be serious" I said, I said,

"When can you get serious Bar?" ask Niken, please,

"Let's think about hahaha" I said, laughing,

"Well, where can you seriously bar" said Niken, said,

"How come if it's time" I said,

"Here you are, how you are" said Niken,

"Yaudah I'm buying a snack first, you'll come down" I said,

"Yes Bar, I'll go down" said Niken,

I went from Niken's room to my room to get my motorcycle keys and went to the mini market to buy snacks and chocolates according to Niken's request and wishes. Finished buying a few snacks I went back to the hostel and waited for Niken to come down while turning on my laptop and looking for movies on the internet.

I found some movie titles that caught my attention, but I wanted to watch a movie that featured animation or cartoons, I was interested in a movie that boasted how to train your dragon. Niken hasn't come down from her room yet so I decided to call her.

"Tuuuuttt".tuuutttt,

"Yes Bar" Niken said in a phone call,

"Gw it's downstairs, you come down" I said in a phone conversation,

"Yes Bar I'm down now" Niken replied in a phone conversation,

"Yes, wait" I said, hanging up the phone,

After a while, Niken arrived at my room.

"This is Ken nori as brown, oia want to not watch the movie how to train your dragon" I said, saying,

"Yes Bar, thank you, what's the movie about?" said Niken,

"The dragon animation is Ken" I said,

"Yaudah can, occasionally watch an animated film, then have seen a rather serious film" said Niken, who was not involved in the film,

"It's exciting" I said,

"Hopefully not boring" said Niken,

"If you change movies" I said,

"Yes too" said Niken,

"Something is easy not to make complicated" I said,

"I mean quip if I like complicated" said Niken, said,

"No Ken, you're so sensitive again" I said,

"Girls are very sensitive" said Niken,

"It's nothing just don't be possessive" I said,

"If possessive why?" said Niken,

"It's hard if you hold a possessive person" I said,

"Possessive is a sign of attention" said Niken,

"Consideration doesn't have to be possessive and nagging" I said,

"Ngapain is also possessive, tired of its own that exists" said Niken, said,

"Thank God you're aware of that" I said,

"It doesn't feel good, especially if the guy is banned from playing the same friends it's really nice for the guy" I said,

"If the problem is I understand the bar" said Niken,

"It's good that you understand that Ken" I said,

"Chickens are also the worst bars if they have a possessive guy" said Niken,

"Yes Ken, just focus on watching" I said,

"Yes Bar come on" said Niken,

I soon played how to train your dragon, a young viking who defies tradition when he befriends a dragon named tothless, what he found with an injured tail that makes the dragon unable to fly perfectly even can hardly fly. I think this movie is fun enough to watch.

After watching the movie I felt like enjoying coffee, I immediately made it,

"To the front of the room first I want to smoke" I said,

"It's a habit, smoking mulu" said Niken,

"Where dong, it's hard to stop" I said,

"The intention is not to stop, it is difficult" said Niken,

"Start getting better" I said,

"Close" said Niken pouting,

I came out of my room and then immediately lit my cigarette enjoying coffee while thinking about my invitation to meet and have dinner. I was worried about accepting the invitation or ignoring it, I went back into my room and looked at Niken.

"Apasih Bar ggeliatin gw" said Niken,

"Can't you?" I said,

"Any thing, I sleepy deh Bar" said Niken,

"Lo strange time, you sleep" I said,

"Gw sleeps here yeah" said Niken who immediately relaxes his body,

"Yes, I can" I replied,

Niken began to close his eyes then after a while he fell asleep, I then took one of my book collections and started reading it, but I could not focus because my thoughts about the past were quite disturbing my concentration. I opened my body and began to close my eyes for a moment.

A few hours passed unknowingly I fell asleep, when I woke up I saw Niken was still asleep, I went to the bathroom to just wash my face a little fresher then I came out of my room and lit my cigarette. I already seemed to be receiving an invitation from Dinda to meet tonight, I also returned a message from him and he immediately determined the meeting place of the two of us. I wasn't asked to pick her up because she wanted to meet at the place we had discussed.

I went back into my room and I saw that Niken was awake.

"Bar laper deh" said Niken,

"Well, what do you want to eat, what?" my tofu, my,

"Eat the baso" answered Niken,

"Jaudah, I'm talking about buying it" I said,

"Would juice not?" said Niken,

"Can you, what juice?" I said,

"Avocado juice is like iced oranges" said Niken,

"Yes, wait a minute" I said,

I immediately got out of my room and bought what Niken wanted, after I bought all the Niken orders I immediately returned to my boarding house and gave all the orders.

"It's the same baso as the drink" I said as I handed it to him,

"Thank you Bar, you don't buy all of them" said Niken,

"Gw don't want to eat yet, I'll go" I said,

"Where? Don't you take it?" said Niken,

"Meet your High School friends" I replied,

"Oh yaudah, are you here?" said Niken,

"There's another holiday here, he's already off first" I said,

"Yaudah be careful, Bar, I'll eat to my room" said Niken,

"If you want to be here too, it's okay Ken" I said,

"Ga ah, I went to my room" said Niken,

"You are so good" I said,

"Yes" answered Niken.

Twenty minutes later Niken finished eating and he said goodbye to return to his room, after Niken left my room I immediately took a shower and got ready, I know this holiday has been made sure it will be a little crowded on the streets later.

Come on when I have to walk to my meeting place with Dinda, sure as I guess the road is a little crowded, after passing through traffic jam I finally arrived at the designated place, I came earlier than Dinda, then I ordered a drink while waiting for her. A few moments later Dinda arrived and immediately sat down before me, feeling a little awkward.

"How are you doing, Din?" my tofu, my,

"Good Bar, how are you?" said Dinda,

"Well, how can you vacation here?" my tofu, my,

"There are my college friends here, before going home to bandung I vacation here, replace my friends who come to bandung" said Dinda,

"Oh that way, your campus is Din's holiday first" I said,

"Yes, the first thing is to enter the lecture" said Dinda,

"Yes, yaudah Din pesen eat first" I said,

"Yes Bar" said Dinda,

Dinda and I immediately ordered a menu recommended by the waitress, and we both ate while Dinda explained her reasons for not being with me again at the time, he was deliberately close to other men so that the two of us separated because according to his family I who studied at the private campus would have difficulty giving the best future for Dinda's life.

Wrong thinking in my opinion but everything has happened and I have accepted everything. Basically, our relationship will not work if we do not get the blessing of parents.

The meeting between the two of us ended just like that, Dinda did not want me to come home because she was afraid of bothering me, I obeyed and we separated to go home to each other's goals, I wish he had found someone better than me.

All the way home I played a few heartbroken songs, so take again how the words he used to when deciding on me, I just tried to hold back tears even though they eventually fell too. Arriving at the boarding house I was a little moody and there was a feeling of annoyance that was enveloped in a strong desire to prove to the Dinda family someday that their thoughts were wrong about the private campus. Wherever we study all depends on ourselves, which determines the success or failure of a person is his own business, but behind all I am grateful to be able to be found with my friends now, he said, it was very dark and I was ready to rest because tomorrow the test was waiting for me.