Two Princes One Love
All That I Need

I was lost and alone, trying to get used to it.

Made my way down that long winding road.

No excuses, no rhymes, like a song running out of time.

And you were there, standing before my eyes.

How could I be such a fool?

To let go of love and break all the rules.

Girl, when you walked out that door.

Leaving a hole in my heart.

And now I know for sure...

I searched in vain.

Playing a game.

I have no one else but me left to blame.

You came into my world.

Not a jewel or a pearl.

Who could ever replace what you've given me, girl.

Just like the sand castle.

Girl, I almost let love fall out of my hands.

Just like a flower needs rain.

I will stand by your side through joy and pain.

You are the air I breathe.

You are everything I need.

You are the words I read.

You are the light I see.

And your love is everything I need.

You are the song I sing.

Girl, you're everything to me.

And I want to thank you, Miss.

...

The sky was clear, and white clouds were driving me home. The sun today does not fade the burning spirit. I am still standing here, waiting for the miracle of my love story.

"Thank you, Baim."

Baim drove me home until I got to the front of the house using his favorite Vespa motorbike. This friend of mine has never changed in the past. His curly hair was left alone, his appearance was classic once. I remember the first time I met him.

When I got home, I immediately prepared to move to a new house. We finally got a dream house. From my work, I bought a house measuring 45/90 in a housing in the city. I paid cash by selling gold from Cloud.

When I wanted to pack my clothes, I saw my blue dress hanging on the wall. I took the blue dress. And it turns out, I found a small piece of rolled up paper. I opened the paper.

...

Ara...

The moment you read this message may have reached your world.

There's not much I can say until I try to write it down on a piece of paper.

Ara...

Many things that we have been through together, from the beginning of the meeting to this parting that tormented my mind.

You're still a part of me. The words I always see in my busy life, the light in my dark, the humming I sing.

You led me in solitude, struggling through the winding road.

Ara...

You gave me the fear of losing. You are like the air I breathe. You are my breath, my light. Everything I need is on you. And now I realize that I really need you.

Ara...

I'll wait for you here. Wait until the time comes for us to anchor the ark together. And you need to know one thing for sure.

Ilove you...

...

"Cloud?"

After reading the contents of that piece of paper, my heart was filled. My chest feels so tight. I don't know why it's like the air is disappearing from me. Clear crystal grains came out of hiding, dripping down my cheeks.

If only I had a second chance, I'd like to spend time with him. Loving without the need for awkwardness anymore.

Now I sit alone. Beautiful days usually accompany us. It's not that I don't accept this fate. However, this feeling cannot be lied to. I feel so lost. My heart feels empty, unbidden.

Cloud ....

I cried while hugging the letter from her. Hope in prayer, may there be a second chance for me to be with him. It feels so painful. If only I could choose, it would be better if this did not happen to me at all.

The day after...

Our family is ready to move to a new house in the city. The old house we deliberately left empty, but we will still visit every two days to pick up garden results.

Before leaving for the new house, I took myself to the waterfront, where Cloud and I met. Kudayung sampanku up to a few meters from the edge. I enjoy the little waves that hit my sampan.

I can still feel his presence.

I tried to wait, the portal opened again and drove me back there. Even though I know this can't happen.

"Bright..."

I calmed myself while breathing fresh air. For some reason how many minutes on the waves, my subconscious again opened up good memories with them. Memories I will never forget in my entire life.

This miss is killing me. I'd love to meet them. But I don't know how to break through the time portal. I let my mind go with the wind that blows. I hope to convey this feeling of my longing. A longing that echoes throughout the cavity of my heart.

...

After feeling a little relieved, I returned home. Arriving in the yard, I saw my mother sitting on the porch waiting. Looks like Mom is waiting for the pickup car that will carry our last things. I saw some baskets beside him.

"Mom, didn't you come with me?" ask me when I walk closer.

"No, I let Anggi come with me."

Anggi is my youngest brother. She's a very agile little girl. She looks a lot like my mother.

"Pregnant?"

"Yes, Mom."

"Come here, son."

Mother called me and took me to sit together on the porch of my house made of boards.

"When you come home from abroad, I feel like there's something you're hiding."

I was shocked to hear Mom's words. It seems like I want to hear the real story from you.

"Huh? No, Madam. I'm fine." I reasoned.

"Pregnant?"

This is called a mother's instinct. What I felt, my mother felt it too. However, it felt impossible if I had to tell her the real thing happened. It's gonna get complicated. Besides, I don't want to add to my mother's mind burden. I'm the first kid, I need to be strong and tough. On my shoulders lies the future of my two sisters.

"Ara, try to be honest with your own heart."

"I-mom, I-I ...,"

I felt overwhelmed by mother's words. It was as if mom knew what I was thinking and asked me to be honest with her.

"You like Nak Cloud, don't you?"

"Well?!"

I also felt more and more confused to hear that question. My face turned red and my heart seemed to want to hide from mother's questions.

"Pregnant?"

"I-mom. I-I .. I don't know," I replied stiffly.

Mom then rubbed my head. He gives her his affection. I feel a warmth that can ease this longing a little. Shortly after, my mother hugged me.

"Mom knows this must be hard for you. Love is tested when it is far away. But I pray that you meet soon."

Aamiins.

I can't say anything more. I can only keep it in my heart.

"Trust me, Son. A mother's prayer is more mustajab than anything else. Now be happy with your achievements. You have proved your noble resolve to us, your parents. You've bought us a more decent home in town. May your kindness lead you to what you want."

"Thank you, Mom."

I cried at my mother's words, and I cried in her arms. All my life this time I cried in my mother's arms. All this time I always tried hard in front of my parents. But when the heart has spoken, I can no longer tolerate it.

Now I realize that I love him. I love Cloud and I love Rain. I want both. I'm greedy. Yeah, I'm greedy of my own will. This longing was so intense, it made me unable to resist the rumbling in my heart.

Oh God. Allow me to meet them again...

Mother still hugged me, rubbing my back. I felt the warmth in the silence of this heart. Until our car arrived, we were ready to celebrate a new day in the city.

"Keep praying, son. Never stop. For only prayer is capable of piercing the heavens and knocking on the door of HIS heart."

My mother told me before we got in the car. I will also follow my mother's message. I will continue to pray until the Creator grants my prayers.

The spirit!!!

...

The First Part is finished