Will You Marry Me?
The Part 39

(pov ARGA)

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He has taken away ...

Half of the heart ...

Also my soul ...

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A long wicker chair next to the house. Overlooking a small garden filled with tropical flowers.

That night, I became a four-year-old child again. I put my head on his lap. I enjoyed her warm hands that kept gently stroking my head. I really miss this sense of calm, this sense of comfort.

Mama, I really want to always be your little son.

"Why, Mama hasn't slept?" my many.

"Because you haven't come home yet" he replied as he continued to gently rub my head.

"Mama's worried about me?"

"He'em," he nodded.

"Why?" my many.

"Because you are sad" he replied.

I immediately got up and sat looking at him. "Where do you know I'm sad?"

"From here." Mama smiled as she patted her left chest. "When your child is sad, your heart hurts."

What am I? From the morning, I kept crying non-stop. I kept thinking about the story about my mother that my grandmother told me. Every time I see the face of the woman who gave birth to me, my heart continues to feel so painful and make my tears never stop flowing.

"Arga, mama really doesn't want to interfere in your life. You're all grown up. You can decide your own life. It's just, about Luna, mama's still very-"

"I know," I said. "I never wanted to see my mom cry because of me."

If only you knew how complicated my mind is right now. In a way, there is a girl that I love so much and she desperately needs my support. But on the other hand, I also do not want to hurt my mother by scraping back the wounds that have been hard-earned to bury.

***

CAMPUSES

My motorcycle stalled when a black car braked suddenly in front of me. I opened my helmet and observed two women coming out of the car.

I know them. A girl who always comes to my mind and a fashionable woman with long hair. He threw a glance at me by flicking a hair shaft on his shoulder. I got off my bike and walked past them.

"From your attitude, it seems you already know everything about us, huh?" Aunt Clara's voice sounded aimed at me. "What do you think? Is my story, your mother and your father very interesting?"

I looked back at the woman in front of me. A cynical smile she gave me. In my head directly crossed my mother's face with her tears.

So furious. It felt like I wanted to get angry but was held back because the girl next to him who was staring was astonished at me.

"Did your mother tell you to leave Luna?" tanyakanya. "It looks like it, huh?"

"A-what ... does that mean?" Alternately, Luna collected answers from me and her mother.

"How, Arga?" ask aunt Clara. "Are you going to tell the real Luna or am I the one who has to tell her?"

Goddamnit! This woman really has no heart.

Whatever! I don't care about the talk. I turned around and stepped away from them.

"Should I tell Luna that I was once Dirga's wife?" said aunt Clara with half a shout.

"What?! Mama said what?!" cry Luna.

It really cannot be silenced. My heart is hot to hear his words.

"Should Auntie say it in front of Luna?" I went back to him.

"Why indeed? That's the truth" he replied without guilt. "I'm just like your mother. I will not be willing to deal with the Mahesa family, let alone with Rhesa. He took everything from me and ruined my life."

"Enough!" my yelling. "It should have been those words .. My mother said it. It's the daughter who ruined my mother's life and Aunt's own."

"Bad!" snarl. "I won't let you near Luna."

"Whatever," I said. "I don't want any more contact with him."

"Arga?" lirih Luna's.

The girl looked at me in wonder. Sayu's eyes. A bruise on his left cheek still looks new.

Luna. I-i'm sorry! I really don't want to hurt you. But right now, my heart is still unsettled. My feelings are still broken because of our parents' past.

Sorry, Luna! I had to force myself to stay away from you.

The news of my and Luna's break-up spread quickly across campus. Same with papa and Aunt Clara's past.

That didn't really affect me that much. Most of them did not dare to offend the news in front of me. But something different happened to the girl I dumped. Our situation is completely inversely proportional.

"Ga, look at that!" Reyhan pointed to the group of girls standing in front of the psychology class.

"How dare you not list my name in our group tasks. You want to get beat up, huh?" shouted a student.

"You don't do the job, why do I have to write your name?" luna Sahut.

"Damn it!"

"Aragh!"

The girl seemed to pull Luna's hair while continuing to babble in annoyance.

"Come, Rey!"

I stepped out of Reyhan who was still observing Luna who was sitting in front of her classroom.

So nauseating! I hate it when I see her fingers wiping the corners of her eyes.

I hate it when I see him become weak and helpless.

I hate my stupidity that can't do anything.

***

"Deliver!"

"Hey, why is selling so expensive?"

"Don't touch me, goddamn it!"

"What?! How dare you be like me?"

I stopped my bike when Dony and his friends were in a fuss in front of the campus gate. There was the sound of a woman shouting among the crowd of rioting students.

"Hey, Luna!" exclaim Dony. "If you want Arga, why am I not the same? How much did you get paid for him? How many times has he touched you?"

That jerk!

"Damn it!" Dony was inflamed as Luna's palm landed hard on her cheek. "How dare a despicable girl like you slap me."

"You are the one who is despicable!" shouted Luna. "Arga never treated me that badly. He's a good man. He's not an********like you."

"Wild girl!" Dony clutched Luna's arm with a reddened face in anger.

"Take me off! Off!" shouted Luna.

People like them should be thrown away.

Enough already! I can't bear to see that******* it's acting like a prank.

"Take him off!"

"Discount?!" exclaim Dony.

"Well! How many bad records have you got, Dony? Once again caught, you will definitely be in DO," said Gilang. "Go and don't repeat it again or I'll take the CCTV footage at the corner of that gate as proof!"

"Be careful if you dare" threatened Dony. "Come, guys!"

"Campus thugs don't have brains" grumbled Gilang. "What are you doing, Luna?"

"Yes. Thank you" said Luna.

"You want to go home? Looks like we're in the same direction."

"No need. I'm going to work, "push down Luna.

"That bakery shop? Good that way, I also want to eat cake. Come on, I'll get anther!"

"Ta-but ...."

"Come on!"

Gilang Mahendra's.

Thank goodness! The seventh semester student of accounting and Assistant Lecturer came at the right time.

Stop, Arga!

I have to stop thinking about it. I've chosen to end everything about him. I need to erase it from my memory.

***

21.30 WIB

BAKERY

The rain suddenly fell. Instead, I came to this place. Stupidly, I hid on the side of that cake-scented building.

I'm worried. He must not have brought an umbrella or raincoat. He would definitely break through the rain without thinking about his circumstances. My mind was filled with him again.

Nauseate!

"See you." Luna's voice came out of the bakery.

He seemed to be standing looking up at the sky.

"Hard," he murmured.

I put my foot closer to him.

"Kneel!"

"OK," said Luna, as she tucked her body under the umbrella the man was holding beside her. "Thankfully there is you, Gilang. If not, I can go home wet, nih!"

"Hahaha .. You think I'm a rain handler?" gigawa Gilang's.

"not handler. The god of rain. Haha ...!"

I stared at the silhouette that was moving further away.

He looks so small and skinny. But he was laughing. I heard her laugh.

Luna .. I hope you are okay.

Luna .. I hope you soon forget everything.

Good bye, Luna!

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