Will You Marry Me?
The Part 41
(pov ARGA)
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The day when the wind blows ...
Destiny told me ...
Go ... go .. and keep going ...
That's my life line ...
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"Stop it!" papa exclaimed while turning off the treadmill machine I was wearing.
"When do you want to keep running up there? You've been like this for more than three hours. Wanna pass out, you?"
I got off the machine and grabbed a 500 ml bottle of mineral water. I sipped a few and let the rest flood my neck.
"Damn!" I growled while slamming the bottle that still contained half of the water onto the floor.
"If you want to be angry .. be angry! Don't torture yourself like this!" said papa.
Angry said? If I want to be angry, who should I be?
"Arga, we need to talk!"
"Arga doesn't want to talk, Pa."
"That's!"
I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to share my feelings with anyone. I want to be alone. I just want to be alone without anyone bothering me.
"Loooooooooo!"
The sound of my screams collided with the rustling of the air shower fluttering all over my body.
How can it be this complicated?
We who do not do it, why do we get the impact?
That sickening past, why should we be forced to endure all the consequences?
I threw my body on the bed. I closed my eyes and tried to find peace.
At times like this, it is he who always comes to my mind. My heart continues to be scratched, maybe the same as her. Something even more painful, I can't even be by her side, in these sad times.
"Mas."
"What's wrong?"
I saw Jesika stepping unsteadily towards me. His face looks sad looking at me.
"Did Mas Arga break up with Mbak Luna?"
"I don't want to talk about it." I switched to back him.
"Yesterday I came from the bakery where Mama Luna worked and she gave me this."
I immediately got up and grabbed a small object that was in the palm of Jesika's hand.
"Apples?" muttered.
A small red apple-shaped keychain.
"Luna gave you this?" my many.
"He'em," he nodded.
"Did he say something?" manya curious.
"Yes." Yeah."
"Say what?" I'm getting impatient.
"He said the apple was rotten and had to be thrown away. Arga can't take that apple anymore! That's what he said."
"I'm going for a minute, Jesi."
"Mas, where are you going these nights? Arga ma'am!"
Fuck all this stuff. I'm fed up. I can't take it anymore. I have a desire too. No one wants to understand, let alone ask.
Luna .. I don't want to lose her. Luna and I have nothing to do with their past. We don't have to sacrifice. There is no need to make futile sacrifices and hurt our hearts.
The luna! I always want to hold her hand.
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21.15 WIB
My steps came to a halt as the long-haired girl was seen coming out from inside the bakery. He walked while rubbing his palms together.
That night the air was pretty cold. The leaves seem to be moving against each other. I quickened my steps and grabbed his hand.
"The arga?!" yells.
What's wrong with her?
Why do his eyes look so deep?
His wrist felt smaller in my hand.
"Why did you give this back to me?" I put the apple keychain in his palm. "What does that mean?"
The girl looked at me. He looked at me with his eyes.
"I don't have the right to have it anymore" he replied, gripping the little thing at me. "The apple is rotten and must be thrown away."
"Not the apple, but your heart" I said. "Shall I throw you out of my heart? Shall?"
Try to answer, Luna! I will determine my attitude.
"Down!"
"What?!" my peek.
"Arga, there's another story besides Cinderella. It was Snow White. When the witch gives the princess an apple, she dies. From the beginning, the apple was indeed given to the princess to kill her. That's the truth, Arga."
"Stop talking nonsense!" my yelling. "Cinderella ... White Snow! I don't care. All I care about is--"
"But I care!" exclaim Luna. "A dark past will remain a bermuda triangle that will sink if we force it to pass. You know who's gonna drown?"
Luna looked at me sharply. His black pupils trembled with the embrace of eyes that began to dew.
"Bu Rhesa," he continued. "Your mama will drown if we keep forcing her to cross."
The corner of his eye started to emit a clear grain. I pulled that little hand out of my hand.
"My mama has made your taumu drown to the bottom, Arga. I don't want to do the same. I'm his daughter, but I don't want to be like him."
"Then me? How's me?"
"Back off! Go back to a time where you haven't met this Cinderella yet!"
An eye that looked at me without the slightest hesitation. It was as if he was saying that he was fine without me. However, I was the one who felt so devastated every time I saw her.
"Better, our ship is wrecked than our parents are sinking. Goodbye, Arga."
In the silence of that night, as his shadow grew farther away, he looked like a fortress so solid.
The wind blowing hard around it .. as if free. He stepped without even looking at me once. He made his wounds an army that guarded his pride.
The luna! I can't even reach it anymore.
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06.30 WIB
The atmosphere in my house is still the same. The house between mom and dad is not over. Their attitude made me feel overwhelmed.
"Please stop acting like this!" I stirred my spoon and plate until there was a loud enough sound. "When will you keep quiet? Until when is the atmosphere of this house so dark like this? You're not kids anymore. If you can't see me, then look at my sister! This attitude of yours makes him sad. What's the matter with you guys? So outrageous!"
"Arga, watch your talk!" snapped mom.
"Otherwise, Ma?" shirihku. "Arga has tried to maintain the attitude. Arga had also refrained from speaking. Arga has thrown away Arga's love for you. Now especially? What else do you want to ask of me?"
"That's!" shouting mama.
"Rhes!" Papa pulls mom's arm.
"At least, try to act as if nothing happened! I'll also pretend nothing ever happened."
Damnit damnit! My eyes feel hot. The corner of my eye began to water.
"I'm sacrificing my feelings, because I don't want to see mom and dad like this. So, I beg ... don't waste my sacrifice!"
I let go and left everything behind. I hope, after this there will be a new story that will not hurt anyone.
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