Yellow Flags
Only Desire

🌻 Winona

Of jealousy?

Instead I felt jealous if Jacob closed the door, then he told me not to go out. He'll be honest with me, saying there's a soft-spoken woman coming to visit him.

Then I'll keep quiet, hide like a cheat!

I heard Jacob's question, and the girl innocently replied that she got an access card from Jacob's mother.

Hmm, interesting. I think, because of the man's irritating intonation, he doesn't like it when anyone accesses his apartment. If he doesn't like the girl getting an access card, that's a sign Jacob still leaves a privacy room!

While me? In here! In his apartment! If I'm a bad girl like Sepia, I guess...

Oho! Maybe last night, it was the end of my virginity!

I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling someone was hugging my waist. Slowly consciousness entered my mind, as I heard the roar of breath above the top of the head.

I didn't know how I could sleep on that couch at first, which was obvious, I realized I had fallen asleep next to Jacob. And I let it!

Ah, this must be because the hug felt warm and comfortable. And I was too naive to move. Although I regret my decision, it seems Jacob tried to make last night's incident into a ‘ mishap’. He said nothing, as if it had never happened!

Highlight those eyes still looked annoyed, Jacob's forehead was still frowning. Although I was curious about the figure of the girl who gave me breakfast, I was not prepared to feel disappointed by reality.

The fact that Jacob had another lover.

And if it's true..then what is my position? I don't want to be an intermediary between Jacob and the girl! I don't want to be the cause of a broken relationship.

“If true Echo who sent the chat, surely Sepia does not know!”

Jacob's words made me shake my head slowly, bringing awareness back to the man before me.

His mouth was still chewing on the salad, while his gaze looked unfocused. It was as if a cloud of assumptions was fully clouded within his mind.

Did he think about my problem with Echoes? Because I thought, Jacob was still upset by the breakfast girl's visit.

“Sepia knows, she can what?” slowly say. I exhaled a breath of fear. “His days are busy being baby sitters. Yura is still six years old, but she's been in tutoring here and there.”

“Yura?” ask Jacob.

I grieved softly, his “ children echoed with his first wife. The woman died in an accident.”

“Oh...” those lips are rounded, “so she already has a child?”

I nodded, “gue was initially close because it felt sympathy. He's very good at telling stories. I think he's a great guy. Single parent is tough, because his son is very smart.”

“Trus, why don't you be a mother? What's the problem?” the question was thrown with annoyed intonation.

I thought about Jacob's question for a moment. Why did I reject the Echoes?

Two years ago I met him, I should have let Jacob go. But why can't I feel?

I shook my head slowly, “gue did not know why I did not want.” I took a deep breath, then looked at those two beautiful eyes. A small smile played at the corner of his lips. “Gue no longer thinking of dating! I'm tired, I'm tired of hoping that if the edges, what I already hold I can't have.”

Jacob lowered his head. The smile on the corner of his lips slowly faded away. “What because of me, you.”.

“Ngot too!” as fast. “Gue amazed the same lo, but do I love the same lo? Maybe if our relationship continues, that sense will take root in my heart. But in fact, you left. Unplug any flavors that start to grow.”

What I did last night was just a passion! I feel comfortable with that touch. Because before, I had never felt how warm it was being hugged like that. I don't want to repeat it. Fearful...

I'm afraid to play with passion. I'm afraid of getting lost. Bring a thrilling and exciting hot spin.

We are both adults.

And I think men's desires are more dangerous. Camila Cabello's song, Shameless, was spinning in my head.

I took a deep breath, then returned back to Jacob's confused gaze. “Lo also has a problem. So now the cake..” His choking laugh made me stop the word.

“Aleia, you know who she is.”

Aleia? Oh, Jacob's cousin, the medical boy? Well, now of course he's already a young doctor!

“I'm betrothed to her.”

“Ndon't know. I just don't want to..” Jacob breathed a heavy sigh.

I laughed softly, “what because of me, you.” I repeated Jacob's words.

The man looked back at me quickly. Smile is getting wider, “can be!” his little laugh sounded.

I laughed and felt like a roller coaster. A moment of annoyance, a moment of anger, a moment of disappointment, a moment of humor...

Only the man before me can make me feel this way!

“Today, I'll see Sepia! I'm upset he didn't give you that letter!”

Another letter? I rolled my eyeballs. “Indeed, fill in the letter what?” I took another sip of the latte that was getting cold.

“Oh..” Jacob remained silent. His mind was busy processing words.

I gave it time to think. While my hand was busy moving the salad into the bowl.

“That, those words..” he scratched his head.

“Not remember his words?”

“Remember!” answer Jacob quickly. “Cuman yes, I think..” Jacob stopped his words again. He nodded slowly, looking nervous.

I heard her heavy breathing. Then Jacob grabbed the mineral bottle located on top of the cabinet.

“You love the series that girl keeps a letter to the guy she loves..”.

I frowned, remembering the title of the movie. “To All the Boys... that I...” I shook my head quickly. “Gue forgot!” grunting.

“That's the point!” Jacob swung his index finger, “I think you will save the last letter from me.”

I chuckled softly, with a hand that stopped stirring the salad. “People keep love letters, I even keep a break up letter! How anyway.

“His words are not cruel..”.

Ah, now I'm curious! Curse Sepia! But... “kok Sepia not give to me?”

Jacob flicked next to shoulder, “he still likes maybe the same I.”

Do you like Jacob? Huh! How I never thought! But, I won't blame Sepia! And any woman who falls in love with this handsome man before me!

“So he saved the letter make..” I shook his head quickly. “Sepia is my friend! Although she does bummer sometimes..

“He's two faces! Maybe in front of you he didn't show it!”

I shook my head fast, “no! No way! He often gave me loans. Back at the end of the month, she used to teething me..”.

“Emang y'all ever been in the office?”

I shook my head quickly to answer Jacob's question.

“Why? Is there no vacancy? Or does he want you to have an office with him?”

I'm speechless. I've never been so bad with Sepia. Because to me, he's my only friend. Our from High School! I-i know him. Then we went to college, entered the same school.

Can't Sepia be two-faced? After all, all this time, none of his behavior had hurt me!

“Terasu! Obviously, today I will meet with Sepia. I told him, what a lukewarm attitude.”.

“Do not!” cut me quick. “Sepia pregnant! Poor him..”.

Jacob exhaled a heavy breath. He closed his eyes for a moment, before he nodded slowly.

“How are you? Are you here today?”

I shook my head quickly. “Yes back to kos! Why me... I'm here!”

I subconsciously started speaking in my usual tone with Jacob. And it's unsettling!