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Failed Move On

🌻 Winona

My mind wanders, trying to find meaning. Behind his attitude of attention that always makes me fall asleep. I don't want to anymore, make my heart languish again.

“There's me here. So please tell me..”

I gulped the saliva rough. I wish I hadn't heard wrong.

For a moment, I allowed myself to sink into a frenzy of thought. Why, so warm as this is his embrace? Makes me want to melt all my sorrows and tears. Because I no longer feel it now.

Before the abyss in my mind again dragged me into expectations, I withdrew. I ventured, looking at those two beautiful eyes.

To me, those eyes are full of false promises!

“Lo know, you most jerk after Echo!” I said with a furious tone.

Jacob lowered his face. Lips vibrate. I heard her long breaths, before both eyes opened and looked back at my eyes.

“I know, but..”

“The more jerk echoes! Rather, you know what your mistake is.” I stepped onto the sofa, then sat on it. “Gue don't understand, what do you want that crocodile guy!”

Jacob sat in a round chair, his body straight, facing me. “How can you know with Gema?”

“It does not matter how I know, which is clear.” I exhale riled. I rubbed my face rough. “Gue no longer wants to be in touch with him! I thought, after he got married, that jerk won't bother me anymore!”

“Whose name is a crocodile guy, it's hard to repent! Obviously he's obsessed with you!” Jacob looked furious. I could even see his jaw being pulled tight when he said a sentence.

“Peace Sepia. He already..”.

Jacob laughed softly, “she knows that her husband likes you?”

I frowned, thinking about Jacob's question.

I recalled the contents of the chat this morning with Sepia. If I think about it, since Sepia got married, she just called me today!

“So morning he said that they moved again to Jakarta. Keep on meeting me. He asked, how do I work!” my eyes opened wide, when I realized something was strange. “Sepia never has any details. I think, maybe we have rarely communication so he just like that..”.

“Yes, it must be the land crocodile that chatted you.” Jacob held his sitting position. “Can I see the contents of the message?”

I took a deep breath, then searched around for where I put my phone.

Jacob stood up, he stepped towards the kitchen located two meters from my right side.

I opened my phone password, then searched for Sepia. There have been nine missed calls since I turned off the phone.

Then there's a message there.

|Where are you?

Jacob snatched the phone from my hand. The moment he read the message, his scornful laughter sounded. His finger shifted the message on the screen. Maybe read my message from above.

I took my phone back. Staring at Jacob was annoyed, as the two eyes were still twitching with laughter. “That funny man is my life? Lo amused by my suffering?”

The smile disappeared immediately. His eyes, too, were dim. “Wio, i.” Jacob exhaled deeply. “I don't want you. The crocodile! You..”

Even though I was upset, I didn't feel angry with Jacob. One word that makes me unable to be free from it. Comfortable!

That word bothers me so much. Because comfort is troubling. It's getting me to stay.

“So you need a job?”

Does Jacob have job openings?

I exhaled a breath of fear. If I were to meet again consistently with this man before me, it would not be impossible for this heart to return to him!

He's so handsome! So established! And I'm so full of hope not to be single again.

He's my guy's ideal standard! And...

Huh! I can't believe it's this hard to move on from Jacob, just to get back to Jacob?

Is my love story like a repeating circle? And there's only one name in that circle that plays a role!

My phone is back vibrating. I saw some other messages.

| There are brawls on your boarding road

| 😡

I laughed reading that message. I didn't open the message, just read it from the notification bar.

“She chat you again?”

I nodded in response to Jacob's question. “At first, I was good with him. Keep going, that jerk is baper. Yes I rejected him, after he gave me various kinds of gifts. I got that gift back to him. It is the only thing that makes it!”

“He doesn't accept you refusing him constantly. He thinks he can buy you with all those gifts!” Jacob also looked furious. “Emang she chat what else?”

I gave you my phone back. “Do not open, read from notifications!”

Jacob nodded. His forehead frowned in reading the message on the screen. Then he took a deep breath, and he stood up to sit next to me.

I shifted my seat, giving as much distance as possible so as not to touch.

“I have an idea,” he said with a small smile on the corner of the lips. Next to his hand turn on the TV screen, “kamu my photo. Tell him, if we reverse it..”

“Lo crazy what!” hysterical!

Jacob sighed softly, “anya wanted to be free from land crocodiles. I'm showing you how not to?”

I laughed softly. Before Jacob's plan slowly came into my mind. If Gema assumes I'm back with Jacob, she'll definitely leave me alone. Don't they?

Jacob pulled my hand, “ayo try! Reply to message.”

There is no harm in trying.

I opened the message, and immediately photographed Jacob from the side. My breath was stolen again, as I stared at the picture on my screen. Then glanced at that charming face with my own eyes!

The effect was even more to make my heart pound incoherently.

Why did I end up here? With this absurd plan?

“Udah?” jacob asked, turning away.

I nodded quickly, then lowered my hand. I sent the message, which was read by the recipient.

“Keep you with Sepia how?”

“What is it?”

“If your husband is like that, you better avoid.”

“If only I could go wherever I wanted. Not tied to the need to finance my sister's college.”.

I'm leaving this town.

The pain of the reality of life again made me feel bitter. “Tadi when Sepia said if there are vacancies and salary is good, of course I immediately want to meet. I think the Echoes have changed..”

I remembered the collection of photos that Sepia posted on her Instagram. “Sepia is pregnant, and I think..”.

“Who can turn away from you?” jacob said slowly. That wry smile was again drawn at the corner of his lips.

I haven't had a chance to say anything yet, Jacob took a sharp breath. “If you need a job, I can ask my Brother.”

Knowing Jacob, he was not just asking, he would force his brother to find a job for me.

Am I going to turn down this opportunity?

I want to say no! But the reality is, finding a job without a connection is very difficult.

“Do not refuse yes. I would love to give you money, but surely you refuse.”

I laughed softly at that sentence. Indeed I will reject it, “gue is not your wife who must loawahi.”

His smile returned wide. “If you want, we marry tomorrow,” he said with a small laugh.

I laughed, because to me, her words just now were a joke.

“Easy to fall in love again with you..”.

Why did Jacob keep seducing me?

Oh, don't let Wio down! Remember that! Jacob the Red Flag guy!