You Sweet Memories In My Suffering
CHAPTER 15: A Piece of the Past

...Will there be happiness, if lara becomes part of his life story that repeats itself. ...

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Kinanti was now sitting languidly in the hospital corridor.

A moment ago after he got permission from Bu Indira-guardi of his class Kinanti immediately headed for the hospital which, fortunately, was close to his home.

It is not difficult for Kinanti to find her Grandmother, it turns out that her father's aunt has been there first.

"Kinanti," called out softly The woman who was almost in her 30s was hugging a warm Kinanti.

He looked at his grandmother who was in the room with his hand attached to the infusion.

"Grandma how's Aunt?" Ask later.

"Grandmother has improved, was shocked because of the high blood relapse finally fainted," explained Auntie look laughable.

"Can't you?"

The woman who is often called Aunt Eva by Kinanti then sits in the hospital corridor chair, "Gara aunty Ki."

"I mean Auntie?" Kinanti really did not understand, all this time the Tantenya was living out of town with her husband.

"Auntie in Yogyakarta met your father's wife, aunt's intention is to know your father. Why has he not heard at all, not even responsible for making a wish for you."

Kinanti now could not give an answer, the talk about the man, who was called his father, always made Kinanti hurt.

"Your father now has three children from his young wife" continued Auntie.

"That's what shocked Grandma?" Ask Kinanti instead of asking her father.

"No," said Aunt Eva, silent for a moment.

Rani was equally silent, petting whether she should reveal the truth that she had known all along.

"Auntie please tell me, whatever it is. It's enough that I've been confused by Grandma's attitude that has suddenly changed since I left. I can't be quiet, I'm old enough to know what the real problem is."

Staring at Kinanti with pity, Eva finally decided to tell the truth.

"Your father's in Ki's prison, it's been a month. He's been caught as a drug dealer."

Kinanti then choked, he could no longer hold himself all this time to be fine. His legs were limp, he dropped himself on the cold floor of the hospital.

"During this attitude of the rich grandmother to you, because your father used to bring home women and one small child, not only that even the woman was pregnant."

I can't stand her chest feeling so tight. True what all this time his grandmother said, that he was an illegitimate child.

This time Eva no longer calls the name Prabu with the frills of her sister again, her patience also runs out to see Prabu's behavior.

"She still likes gambling, getting drunk. Then your biological mother couldn't stand it and chose to leave you. Before we knew the truth, we were very angry at your mother Kinanti, who had heartily abandoned her children. No matter what mistakes your child makes, no parent can hate their child, so your father's messy grandmother decides to accept you at home. In order for you to go to school, and also your father does not suffer too much on his own to take care of his children," explained Eva Long, while Rani increasingly felt the air around her was exhausted, his chest was so painful it received information in a row.

Not until then, Eva continued, "But again Prabu make a tantrum, he went so never as a transfer of money for the purposes of your life and Nana. He even made the same mistake, impregnating people's children and must be responsible, until forced to marry your stepmother. Whether until when his life will always be like that, whether God will be kind enough to accept Prabu's repentance later."

Do not ask the situation of Kinanti at this time, during hearing a long explanation from Eva, he closed his mouth tightly so that others did not hear his cry.

His heart was so sick, so angry, he wanted so much to hate his father, to hate his cruel life.

What should he do? This truth made him understand, it was not wrong for his grandmother to be so cruel towards Kinanti and her sister.

Eva now turned to Kinanti, her heart also hurt looking at her nephew. He gently stroked Kinanti's shoulder, "Ki, it's not your fault. Aunty asks you not to blame yourself, but Aunt also asks you to understand why Grandma can behave like that towards you."

Kinanti could only nod in the middle of her sobs, she could no longer just talk.

"Tante knows very well what Grandma did all this time was wrong, but Aunty can't do anything."

Kinanti nodded back, but for all the things she had just known Kinanti needed time to really accept it.

"You better go home, calm down. Let Aunty here take care of grandma," Eva added gently patting her nephew's head.

"But Tan," said Kinanti who still wanted to meet first, the woman who had been taking care of it.

"If you meet grandma now, Aunt instead worried that grandma will vent her emotions with you."

The aunt was right, Kinanti could not imagine how her grandmother would react when she saw Kinanti.

Although he did not matter but still, seeing Grandma's current condition that could anytime get worse, Kinanti chose to agree with Eva.

Kinanti finally chose to return home, with steps so heavy she walked away from the hospital.

In his mind it was thought what Rani had said, why her father was that evil. Did Kinanti and her sister mean nothing to that man?

His chest was again crowded, was the presence of Kinanti in this world worthless to his parents?

It felt as though Kinanti's body was numb, she was unable to continue in her footsteps. He was banging his chest, trying to breathe in as much oxygen as he could, but unfortunately it was all in vain when all he could do was cry.

When his legs were completely unable to stand up straight anymore, someone grabbed his body out of nowhere.

"Want, are you okay?"

Instead of making Kinanti feel better, the question made her cry even more - so no matter if she was currently a spectacle of many people.

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