You Sweet Memories In My Suffering
CHAPTER 36: The Complete Past

"Win!"

The goddess is trying to catch up with Kinanti.

"Winning to forgive Mom."

But Kinanti tried to catch his ear.

Not only the Goddess of the three men was chasing after Kinanti.

"Win!" Raka tried to pull Kinanti's hand.

Kinanti did not try to look at them one bit, she still turned her back to them.

"Winat you have to listen to Mother's explanation first, then you can make a decision," said Raka trying to suppress her voice.

Faisal who still did not understand just followed the plot, but he had managed to read the situation. Mother Raka is also the Mother of Kinanti, but in her mind there is a big question, how can you?

"Please forgive me Mother, help you understand first Mother's explanation," said the Goddess trying to reach Kinanti despite being rejected again.

With a face filled with tears Kinanti looked at the wounded Goddess.

"What else do you want to clear? You're married again with the heart to leave me with Nana? And now I'm living a good life with Mom's husband and Mom's son, isn't this all enough for Mom? why else would I be with Nana."

The goddess tried to clutch her son's trembling hand.

"Yes I'm sorry, but there are many things you don't know yet. Can you give me a chance, Mother?"

Kinanti's shoulder shook even more, but she did not try to throw her mother's hand.

Raka stared at the end of her shoes, everything ended up not as she expected. It turned out that Kinanti kept a wound that was too great after being left by her mother.

Burhan this time forward, he also persuaded Kinanti.

"Son, please give your mother a chance. He's not wrong" said Burhan gently, wiping the top of Kinanti's head.

But Kinanti's defense was not that strong, his legs felt numb he then fell on the ground with a cry on his lips.

Dewi did not want to waste time, he embraced Kinanti as if he did not want to release his son again.

For a while they let Kinanti take out all her load all this time, giving time for Kinanti to be completely satisfied crying until Kinanti calmed down.

So did the Goddess, her son grew up without her. He has missed a lot of things.

"We're in?"

Burhan patted Dewi on the shoulder, then he turned to Kinanti who began to calm down.

"Want to go in first, huh?"

Although he did not refuse, but Kinanti did not protest much when Dewi led him to enter the house.

Although his heart had rumbled angrily, but in the depths of his heart Kinanti missed his mother.

Faisal was still there, he was silent watching every moment of this family. Want to take a step home but it does not feel good permission at a time like this, let alone this concerns Kinanti. The girl Faisal loved.

"What's your hand?" The Goddess stroked quietly Kinanti's hand after they sat in the living room.

"Grandmother," answered Kinanti briefly.

Then Kinanti looked at Raka who was also staring at him, "You've known for a long time?"

Raka nodded, "Take Mommy and Dad to get married."

Kinanti sighed, it was only fitting that Raka had been good to her all this time.

"Mother also knew everything from Raka. You're just as adept at being tortured by Grandma, right?"

"Before that, Kinanti wanted to ask, why did you leave me and Nana? Nana's still very small, Mom, how come you?"

The goddess could feel anger in the sentence that her daughter blurted out. But it's time for his son to know what really happened.

"When Mom was just in college, I was dating Om Burhan, Raka's father," said Dewi opened the story of their past.

"Om Burhan and your father, Prabu are close friends. But they were so different, Burhan focused on his education whereas Prabu never entered the classroom, the campus thugs were his label at the time."

Dewi tried to capture Kinanti's expression, making sure her daughter listened to each story.

"When it's a college birthday, there's a night out that I can't turn down because of Mom's boyfriend, Om Burhan. And that night also Prabu harassed Mother."

The goddess brushed her tears, her chest always felt squeezed in memory of that dark time.

"Mom's pregnant, but Om Burhan doesn't know. Mother hid the fact from him, until I asked to break up for no apparent reason. Once the stomach gets bigger Mother is kicked out of the house, and dropped out of college as well as Prabu. But Prabu promises to marry Mom, and takes responsibility.

From there we finally lived together. But with financial conditions that rise and fall. During your pregnancy, you often have to endure hunger because Prabu work odd jobs. Until you are finally born, Mother slowly begins to accept Prabu. Our lives improved a little, Mother also tried to work in the stall, whatever Mom tried to do at that time.

But Prabu's drunken habits and women's play have not changed. Until Nana's pregnant mother, Prabu still does that. Until finally, Prabu just brought Mom to meet your Grandma.

Grandma didn't accept Mom and you, nor Nana who was still in Mom's belly. We were kicked out of his house. I had no choice, neither did your father. Until the peak Prabu bring home other women who are also pregnant.

I can't take it anymore, Prabu is getting worse. Rarely come home, and always come home drunk.

In those difficult times somehow the workings of the universe, Mother is reunited with Om Burhan.

It turns out that after she heard Mom married Prabu, Om Burhan did the same. She married Suci, her classmate. Unfortunately it turns out that Suci did not live long, Suci died when Raka was ten years old.

We told each other our grief, son, but there was no affair. We met like old friends. Although then Om Burhan said that all that time he still loved Mom."

Dewi told her story at length, silent for a moment she stroked Kinanti's hair.

Kinanti seemed to be beginning to discover the common thread, why all this happened to her parents, as well as her life.

"Mom can't take it anymore, Your father doesn't care about us anymore. Even being rude to Mom. I decided to get divorced and leave the house. If it's your problem and Nana's,,,,,,," the Goddess was silent for a moment.

"Mother is so sorry. Mother was very sinful when she left you. I'm just an ordinary woman who's not that strong. I think that in order for Prabu to know the taste, I love you both to Prabu so that he realizes that there is a responsibility that he must think about.

I really don't think that you guys are also in Grandma's place. For this, you deserve to be angry with Kinanti. You have every right to be angry with Mom. Mother is selfish and selfish, just running away." The voice of the raucous Goddess as it held tightness, there was a lot of regret in her.

Burhan cleared his throat, "Sorry Om is also Kinanti, it should be before we get married Om should ask your permission. But Om didn't do it. After that incident, your mother was severely depressed, there was a deep trauma that she felt. Five years ago, when you thought your mother left you and Nana, your mother was struggling to restore her soul."

Hearing Burhan's explanation, Kinanti's tears broke again.

His hand now returned the hand of the Goddess.

"Sorry Mom, Kinanti doesn't know that you're suffering from it."

Dewi shook her head, "You're not wrong son, all this is wrong Mother and Prabu who can't take care of you. Can't be a good parent to you."

Kinanti hugged his mother, he drowned his head in the chest of his mother whom he had longed for all this time. He breathed deeply into the scent of the woman who had given birth to him.

"You guys live here, right?" Said the Goddess after breaking her embrace.

"grandmother-in"

"You don't think Grandma Son, she's too mean to be with you. Om wants you to stay with us, let everything Om take care of. Where is your father now?"

Burhan is not kidding, he really wants Kinanti and Nana to live under the same roof as them being a whole family.

Kinanti squeezed her skirt, embarrassed by her own father's actions, "Dad in jail Om."

The goddess was choked, but she was not surprised.

"From the beginning it was outrageous!"

"But if Kinanti lives here, is that okay?" Kinanti looked at Raka who had been listening in silence.

"I don't care about Kinanti, we can stay together" Raka replied quickly.

"Don't I disturb the happiness you already have?" Kinanti was still hesitant, she did not want Raka to be depressed by her later existence.

Raka crouched down in front of Kinanti, "No. Not at all, instead I am happy, you can gather with Mother. And are we a brother maybe?"

"That means you can't like Kinanti!" Faisal who had been silent followed Raka.

Raka rolled her eyes lazily, realizing the cecurot was still in her house.

"Dissipated! just disturb you! go there!"

Then Kinanti laughed at the follow-up of Dewi and Burhan together.

Somehow now, does Kinanti have to be happy even though her father is in prison. Not to mention Grandma, how did her Grandma react knowing this?

But Kinanti shook her head quickly, she would only enjoy the moment now.

The gentle touch on her shoulder felt made Kinanti turn her head, the woman who had given birth to her smiled warmly as if everything would be fine.

"Mother, and Burhan's father, I'm allowed to be Kinanti's girlfriend, right?"

Faisal's strange question arises making Raka throw him with a sofa pillow, while the other three people laugh again together.

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