You Sweet Memories In My Suffering
CHAPTER 16: Difficult to Achieve

Do not ask why Faisal is currently in front of the white building that reads Harapan Hospital.

Because all that flashed through his brain back then was this hospital, the most location with the Kinanti home. He had to patiently persuade Sarah to tell him.

After his quarrel with Raka, Faisal rushes for an early home permit to his homeroom teacher on the grounds that there is family business.

It can be ascertained only the story of the essay, the worry of Kinanti is greater than anything at this time.

Faisal realized that, although he had not known his classmate for long, but I had no idea from the beginning Kinanti was able to take his attention.

Either the look of the face is always sad, avoid every crowd and just choose to sleep on his stool. All of these things have always been a concern for Faisal, even some women expressed feelings of not being touched by him.

Sarah neighbors it is worth a thumbs up because it is able to melt the walls of Kinanti, so they can make friends.

When Faisal was about to enter the fence, he saw Kinanti who had been the object of his concern stepping gontai just came out.

Faisal initially decided not to appear, he chose to follow Kinanti from behind. It could be bad if Kinanti knew of his whereabouts, surely the girl would be very angry.

However Faisal started to worry about seeing Kinanti who was somehow bending over, plus her back was shaking.

The girl hit her own chest, she didn't press some people started to notice her.

Now there is no other choice let it be if indeed Kinanti will be angry.

Faisal then began to approach Kinanti, his feelings immediately also hurt to see the current state of Kinanti.

The girl's tears poured out, even her usual pale-looking face was now flushed with puffy eyes. Kinanti was still lashing out at his chest.

"Want, are you okay?" Foolish inner Faisal, clearly Kinanti does not look okay, but only the word that comes across.

Faisal further cursed himself as Kinanti grew weeping, he was afraid to do what in the end was only holding onto Kinanti's shoulder which looked weaker.

There was nothing else that Kinanti was able to cover up, in front of Faisal she cried increasingly uncontrollably Kinanti finally dropped her head on Faisal's chest.

Faisal immediately froze, hoping only that Kinanti would not hear his heartbeat at this moment. Kinanti now rested her head completely on Faisal's chest.

Their current position certainly makes people who pass by assume the quarrel of two young people who are in love.

Faisal did not care about it, at this time he was trying to calm Kinanti by stroking the girl's shoulders gently.

A while later Kinanti began to calm down, she then came to a realization by quickly wiping her face wet with tears.

"I'm sorry, yes" he said later, after feeling better.

"Is it calm now?" Faisal slightly lowered his head so that his position was aligned with Kinanti.

Kinanti just nodded, she tidied the rest of her tears and hair that had fallen apart.

Faisal then embraces Kinanti's shoulder to ask him to find a nearby seat, which he does because more and more people seem curious about what is happening.

"We're looking for a drink?"

Kinanti did not refuse, only remaining silent as Faisal told him to sit in the front seat of Indomaret.

Faisal went inside to look for something that might make Kinanti better, he ended up taking the chocolate-flavored milk box in the refrigerator.

When Faisal queues to pay from the glass door he can see the dreamy Kinanti, what did you just experience? Faisal took a breath.

After the payment was completed, he sat right next to Kinanti.

"Drink first," tell him to extend the milk box.

Faisal only nodded as he watched each of Kinanti's movements beside him at this moment, "Don't be too strong Ki, you can be too weak once in a while."

Kinanti stared at the crowded street in front of her which was starting to get crowded, "Have I not been weak all this time huh? that's why my friends at school feel sorry for me, including you, maybe."

"You don't have to pretend to be strong, but you're not that strong. You can find the focus, you can tell your friends so that not everything you bear alone."

Kinanti took a sip of her milk, "I'm used to it, all things I take care of myself."

"That's why I don't want you to always be alone, Ki. You can share with me." Faisal said very gently, so that he did not seem pushy.

"Why did you suddenly appear?" Kinanti was now staring at Faisal completely.

Can no longer avoid Faisal choosing to be honest even though a little misbehaved, "Yes, I'm worried. If our classmates have parents who enter the hospital, you must be worried too, right?"

Kinanti was a little strange to see Faisal's behavior, although it was usually annoying but at this time why Faisal looked wrong.

But he just nodded, "Thank you."

Faisal realized that Kinanti had only avoided the previous discussion, or maybe he could not make Kinanti feel comfortable, so it took time for Kinanti to tell what was going on.

"Kinanti, even though we are not close, I do not care if you someday ask for help. In fact, I really want to be one of the people who have a role in your life. That's also if you don't mind," said Faisal honestly, although then he turned to wait for the reaction of the girl next to him.

Kinanti was instantly filled, he never expected that someone would say such a thing. What was more shocked him the most was that person Faisal, who had always approached him in an irritating manner.

"Faisal, are you being rich because you feel sorry for me?"

Faisal was surprised by the question, but he answered confidently, "No, Ki. I-"

"I'm very grateful, but please if you just pity or even just out of curiosity just don't be too good with me."

"Lho, why? I really care about you, not out of pity or curiosity. I'm that bad, huh, in your eyes?"

Kinanti now rose from her seat, "Faisal, I'm so sorry. I want to go home there's a lot I have to do at home."

Kinanti immediately ran over regardless of Faisal's call.

It's nothing Kinanti not easy to tell the problem of his life is so dark it was on others, especially the fact he was a child out of wedlock.

Not to mention his parents who chose to leave him, it was enough to make Kinanti feel not as valuable in this world.

Kinanti did not want to feel dependent on others, one of them Faisal.

The young man was definitely someone whose life was very colorful, harmonious family, had many friends, handsome, popular.

Kinanti rubbed her face rough after she realized her tears were dripping back. Surely after knowing how his life was, Faisal would just leave him like his parents.

Even Sarah and Farah, Kinanti did not want to get too close and feel comfortable with them. Again Kinanti felt inappropriate, he did not want to feel abandoned again by people who mean in his life.

As Kinanti was busy sharing the bad scenario in her mind, the place she had left a while ago Faisal was still unmoved.

Faisal squeezed his head, "I'm so selfish, so big of Faisal! What you're doing is making Kinanti stay away."

Faisal cursed himself for urging Kinanti too much, he should not force Kinanti whatever the girl's decision was.

"Ck! Foolish, if gini how would he be comfortable try deket same me!" Faisal's grouse, to himself.

But then Faisal took a breath to calm himself, Kinanti was now a mess, he just needed time, do not give up Faisal, his mind later.

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