Actually Love
Chapter 188_The Problem Is Again
"Emmm, I'm sorry to go inside first" Yuna said. He took off his hand on Leo's fingers. Then, he stood up and turned his body to step inside. Huffff. He leaned his back on the sofa and picked up a jar filled with roasted coffee. Before long, Neva caught up with him, and sat down beside him.
"Sir Yuna ate what?" ask Neva.
"Sangrai coffee," Yuna replied while showing the jar that was on her lap.
"Good stuff? Isn't it bitter?"
"Don't you want to try?"
"Hahaaa ngak..," Neva refused, she moved both her palms. Yuna looked back at the television. "Sir Yuna..," call Neva slowly.
"Yes?" Yuna turned to her direction.
"Don't you like Spongebob cartoons?" ask Neva.
Yuna nodded, "Yes, the cartoon is very funny," Yuna replied, "Why?" tanyakanya.
"Ah, not just asking. It seems... Kak Vano also likes that one cartoon,"
Yuna remained silent. His eyes looked at Neva, he waited for Neva to continue.
"It looks like you two have a match" Neva said. Yuna was slightly jolted at Neva's words, Neva seemed to know something, her inner self.
"Mmm, aren't there a lot of people who like that one funny cartoon?" yuna replied after being silent for a while.
"Hmmm, right. I'm sorry if I have any strange thoughts," Neva slightly scratched her head.
"Is there anything you want to ask Neva?" ask Yuna. He's sure Neva knows something.
"Nothing" answered Neva.
_In the living room.
"Congratulations on Yuna's pregnancy, Leo...,"
"Don't say his name" Leo interrupted Vano's speech. His voice was cold and cynical. At first, he could still hold back his jealousy but seeing the two of them talking to each other and laughing at each other, made his heart so hurt. That night's scene, Yuna coming to him that morning, Vano's challenge, Vano's declaration of war on her. Yep... Vano was so outspoken at the time with his love for Yuna.
"Leo. we're both adults, you know it's the past,"
"How's your relationship with him? How do you get through the days? You even know his favorite cartoon. Looks like you also know his success band and even his favorite movie," Leo asked with a deep stabbing taste in his heart. "You laugh like I'm not here. Does he know what your favorite is too? Your favorite food, your favorite drink, your favorite movie, your hobbies. What kind of relationship are you creating?"
"The relationship is past and past, Leo. Like what and how, it has also passed. I'm sorry to you, for what I've been through and all my mistakes. I admit I was wrong for ever wanting her."
"And you're approaching my sister right now? So you can get back close to my wife?"
"You're too bad to think of me, Leo. I know I was wrong, and I'm sorry. I hope you will forgive me. About Neva.. This has nothing to do with Yuna..."
When the lips mentioned the name of the woman, her heart felt scratched and very painful. Just saying her name alone can make her so jealous. Is he still sane at the moment? He questioned his own sanity.
"Vano..." Leo looked. He tried to hold everything he felt. He always remembered Yuna's words. "Never blame him, blame me for coming to him." So he would not blame anyone but himself. Yuna came to Vano because of her. At present... Neva likes men she doesn't like, but she has promised to give her blessing. Promise to Yuna and promise to Neva. She loves her sister, if Neva's happiness is with Vano, as much as possible, she will hold back and harbor all the fighting emotions within her.
"To be honest I don't like you, I really don't like it but I lost because my sister likes you so much."
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"Be careful, sister." Neva waved her hand and noticed Vano's car slowly moving away.
Then he went back inside. There was no Leo in the middle room, but there was Yuna in the kitchen. He was filling the glass with warm water.
Neva watched him from behind silently. Sponge..bob recites the name of the cartoon with a pronunciation that emphasizes his lips. That one box cartoon he saw was lying on Vano's desk that afternoon.
"So.. the friend she was referring to was Yuna?" inner Neva. He then turned his body and headed for the room. He threw himself down and closed his eyes. Yuna Laughter. Vano laughter....
"Sister Lee.., I really gave up and quit. You no longer need to keep and hold what you feel. The four of us won't be easy."
_Yuna opened the door of the room slowly and she did not find Leo. He put his glass on the table.
"Darling, are you inside?" tanyakanya. He knocked on the bathroom door slowly.
"Yes" Leo answered briefly. Yuna's hand held the doorknob and tried to open it, ah shit. He stood waiting for Leo at the bathroom door. A few minutes later, the door opened and Leo walked out in a towel robe, his hair in a mess with a clean face. The moment of messy hair after a shower is one of the moments of his blanketing face. Yuna's eyes melted, she wanted to immediately shatter that cute face but she held it back. It seems... The handsome master was angry at him.
"Well, is it standing here?" leo asked as he stepped past Yuna. He only caught a glimpse of Yuna's face. And he immediately changed his clothes.
"Hmm," Leo replied briefly without opening his mouth, nor did he turn his head towards Yuna.
"Darling, are you angry?" ask her in a still soft voice. Leo gave no answer, he turned his body and looked at Yuna but said nothing. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to...,"
"It's night, go to sleep" said Leo. He rubbed Yuna's stomach for a moment and walked away. He's out of the room. Yuna followed him with slow steps. He knows where Leo is going... Study room. Leo disappeared behind the door.
"Darling, can I come in?" tanyakanya. He knocked on the door slowly. There's no answer. He knocked again and repeated the question, still no answer. Repeat again and again.
Leo stood behind the door. He closed his eyes. The laughter of Yuna and Vano in the dark of her eyes. He can't be so gookil like Vano, he can't make Yuna be as funny as Vano does, he's a stiff and cold guy. Just make the woman laugh, she can't. In fact... Yuna did not even feel happy with the flowers she had earned with great difficulty. Perih.
"Honey..," Yuna's voice still called out to her. "I'll keep standing here if you don't open the door" Yuna said. Leo always loses out to this threat. And slowly, the door opened. Their eyes stared at each other with a glare. "I'm sorry" said Yuna. Leo just looked at her and said nothing. Then, he took Yuna to the room.
He hugged Yuna with mixed emotions.
"Darling," call Yuna. He looked up and looked at Leo. "I'm sorry, I said. Leo lowered his head and forced his smile.
"Sleep..," he said. He rubbed Yuna's hair gently.
"Darling, please don't misunderstand me, I...,"
"I said sleep..." Leo looked at him sharply, his voice high. Yuna bit her lips.
"I'm sorry and you haven't answered yet" he said slowly and then lowered his head.
"At this time you're apologizing to me? You'll be like this again tomorrow and tomorrow after meeting him. You chatter, tell stories and laugh with her like I'm not beside you, your eyes don't look at me, your mind seems to forget me." Leo let go of his embrace and shifted his body to slightly move away from Yuna.
"I, I don't mean to, baby. Really," Yuna looked at Leo sadly.
"Then what do you mean?"
"I was just trying to melt the awkward atmosphere back then," Yuna replied softly.
"Good intention.and it lets me know if he knows much about you, do you know much about him, too? Hm? Really compact."
Yuna was silent, she just looked at Leo and bit her lips firmly. His eyes were hot but he kept on seducing her not to let out a single tear. He was wrong. he was wrong.
"Why silence? Hhmm? You don't intend to tell me? It seems like your togetherness is so beautiful. Tell me. I'm ready to hear it. About the cartoon.... about the cuteness you made, about your cooking that she really likes, or about what?"
"I'm..."
"Shut up and sleep, Yuna. I've been holding him back a lot" Leo's voice was high and even it was like snapping at him. Yuna nodded and slowly got out of the bed. He looked up for a moment and immediately opened the door.
"Where are you going?" Leo stood up immediately. Yuna did not reply and directly stepped out by running. Leo slammed everything on the table next to his bed. He soon followed Yuna. He went downstairs and there was no Yuna anywhere, he went back up and went to Yuna's room first. He grabbed the door and tried to open it. Locked up. That meant... Yuna is inside. Leo walked back to the room and immediately returned to open the locked door.
It was the first time he caught it in his eyes. He immediately turned on the lights. He took a deep breath after seeing Yuna sitting on the floor bending her legs beside the bed.
Slowly, he stepped towards Yuna and sat down in front of her. Yuna lowered her head, she did not dare to stare at that face at this moment. She hid her face so tightly, she still bit her lips so tightly.
Leo took his breath many times, calming his heart many times. This is not the first time they fought because of Vano, not the first time they quarreled because of a story that has gone past, not the first time they hurt each other because of something that became a shadow.
That's what Neva said. We are not looking to the past but it will continue to be a shadow that follows. It will probably continue to happen again and again, will repeat again and again, the same problem again and again.
It turned out that they could not handle it, it turned out that they were unable to withstand something that was raging in each other's hearts.
'They? They... or is it just me?' inner Leo. He approached and grabbed Yuna's body.
"I'm sorry" he said. "I'm sorry" he repeated in a whisper. Yuna shook her head.
"Don't apologize to me. I was wrong." Yuna replied, still hiding her face.
"I'm sorry I yelled at you,"
"It's nothing and I'm fine. You can even hit me, if you want."
"What are you saying,"
"It doesn't matter if it makes you no longer suspect me. I'm silent you're accusing me, I'm talking you're yelling at me. I know I I was wrong, I had a relationship with him. And no matter how many times I apologize you'll always be suspicious of me if I talk to him."
"Now I'm even afraid to love you Yuna."