Actually Love
Chapter 328_Deliver 6
They sat on a bench under a tree on the edge of the lake. Neva rests her head on Vano's shoulder. Inhaling the scent of Vano's body deeply. Looking at the leaves that swayed from the wind. The deeper he loved, the more jealousy he mastered. That selfishness chained him up. Jealous, selfish, or there was still a hole of disbelief in his heart.
"Why are you crying?" Vano asked with attention. His hand was holding Neva's shoulder. This is the third time that Neva has been reluctant to answer.
Neva took her breath in.
"Did Brother Yuna come to your office often?" he did not answer Vano's question but asked back. The question that made Vano furrow his brows.
"Hmm?? why ask that all of a sudden?" vano asked astonished at Neva's question.
"I heard the two of you talking this afternoon. It looks like you two have more to do than I imagined" Neva replied.
"Why not join and instead just listen to my and Yuna's talk."
"I just don't want to bother you guys," Neva raised her head and sat down properly.
"Disturb how? We just talk normally. He was with me as a guest, and I was waiting for you who were leaving. I want to take you for a walk, so I wait and don't go home right away. If you see Spongebob in his hand, it's not from me. It was from someone who also liked the cartoon." replied and clearly Vano. "So that's what makes you cry? Seeing me talking to Yuna."
"No," Neva shook her head slowly.
"Not that? Then?"
"I cried because I thought of what I said to Brother Yuna. Moments after my emotions exploded, I realized it. Realizing that my words were outrageous, I hurt him."
"Hurt Yuna?"
Neva nodded, "Yes," he replied.
"What did you say to him?" ask Vano. Slowly Neva brought her gaze to Vano.
"You worried about him?" neva asked with the pain in her heart.
"Don't be so bad" replied Vano. He returned Neva's eyes.
"You haven't answered me yet" Neva said.
Vano nodded slowly, he shifted his gaze. Then, open his mouth to answer.
"Yes. If you ask, if Yuna used to come to my office a lot, the answer is yes" replied Vano. Neva swallowed his saliva and looked up for a while then lowered her head. Grumpily. How can someone who has been married often come to the office of another man. Neva raised her face again, she turned her head back towards Vano. Look at the man's eyes.
"Because of that ... last afternoon, I told her she was a disgusting cheap woman" Neva admitted to what she had said earlier this afternoon. Vano was flabbergasted in disbelief at what Neva had just said. His eyes were staring at Neva. A disgusting cheap woman? Vano was petrified hearing that sentence.
"A-what?" Vano is closer to Neva. He hoped if he heard wrong. The words that Neva didn't deserve to say to Yuna.
Vano breathed heavily. If there was to be blamed and scolded, it should not be Yuna but herself. He who shamelessly still approached the woman he had owned. Inner Vano. Vano averted his gaze, he stared at the lotus leaves clutched with the lake water.
"Don't blame him" he said. Vano took a long breath. "I was wrong. I asked him to come to my office often. That's why I was able to meet him. Because with the reason to bring lunch, he wants to come to my office," explained Vano. "I'll tell you everything. So, you no longer have negative thoughts on him. It's not that I'm defending him but that you understand and no longer look at him with that kind of view" he continued. Vano turned towards Neva and looked into the girl's eyes.
"You told me once that you didn't like someone looking at me with hatred, and that view was from your own brother. I hope, you don't look at Yuna with hatred either. I was wrong" said Vano. Neva silent. He did not respond, nor did he nod. He wanted to hear Vano's explanation.
"First jiang at that time, he came to my office .. he brought a rice box. Lunch he had brought to Leo but in the end he brought it to me. Do you know why? Your brother rejected it" Vano said beginning his story. She also gets sick when she finds out Yuna is being scolded as a disgusting cheap woman. Yuna, the woman who was once so beautiful in her heart.
Neva blinked slowly, her eyes began to glaze over. She remembered her brother's words a few hours ago. Yuna was abandoned and abandoned.
"We were originally friends. I just don't want him to be sad. Every time I saw her, her eyes held sadness. A sadness that he tried to enjoy and I wanted to comfort him. How can one enjoy sadness? I just intend to be a little bit able to erase his sadness. And no matter when that feeling existed, I never realized it. That feeling had suddenly taken hold of my heart. Shackling my soul. I tried to fight him because I knew he had. Yet I lost every time I thought of his smiling face but it held a wound. The sad message that afternoon, his hand being scratched, his cry as Leo was with Kiara in the cinema. I can't let him enjoy and drown in grief. I want him to be happy, so I once challenged Leo to take Yuna away from him. Leo keeps hurting him and I don't want him to get hurt. I appreciate every sincere smile from his face but with a flash Leo broke it," Vano said regularly and still looked at Neva's face. "I've even found her crying on the side of the road in desperation. In the bow of his face he harbored tears and wounds in his heart. Leo hurt her again and again. Then, after that night, he disappeared," continued Vano.
Neva looked down, her tears dripping. As it turns out, it hurts Yuna's journey to get her brother's love. Neva only knows the end, when Yuna has managed to have her brother's heart. For a moment he forgot that Yuna had once given up and returned to the city of K. Neva feels increasingly outrageous to Yuna. Didn't he himself encourage Yuna. Didn't she have an idea for her brother. Until Leo finally finds Yuna and drags her to come into the heart problem that seems frozen.
"Yuna is not wrong. Don't blame him. He was stuck in a difficult situation back then and I used that instead to take it from Leo. I am the one who in my way keeps him present in my days. I wanted him to stay comfortable with me and hope he would leave Leo but I couldn't. He chose Leo and rejected me many times. Wasn't that enough to prove that she was a great and kind woman. He persisted despite a lot of pain in his heart" continued Vano. His hand took a handkerchief in the pocket of the jacket he was wearing. Then, raised Neva's face and wiped her tears.
"Why didn't you ask me directly? Or you could just get mad at me. Why are you even chiding him? He hurt her heart" asked Vano.
"I don't want to be mad at you" Neva replied softly in her sobbing.
Vano sighed. "But you hurt him, instead" Vano stared fixedly into Neva's eyes. "Honestly, I'm disappointed in you, Neva. You doubt Yuna's loyalty to Leo, you doubt our relationship. You're still suspicious of me and Yuna" Vano took a deep breath and continued. "Understand your heart Neva, how much you believe in me, in Yuna on the relationship of the four of us. You know your heart and yourself better. We ...." Vano's speech hangs. He took his breath again. "Maybe, we should break first. Not parted, no. I love you and I'm serious about you. Please understand first your heart with all my past, with the story that has happened" continued Vano carefully. His eyes pilar looking at Neva who immediately looked down in front of him. Neva's tears came back, her heart was wounded. Indeed this was his fault, holding doubts in his heart. Break it? What kind of relationship will he have. Neva was silent, covering her face with both palms.
"It's not your fault. It's my fault for not being able to look after and convince your heart. I'm sorry" Vano said again. "Let's understand each other's hearts. Your heart and mine."
The night wind is like a thousand knives. Sense and painful. Neva was still crying covering her face with both of her palms. In the end, this is what they decided. Break it? This is a subtle remark to be on the brink of farewell.
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A tired day of crying and crying as if still reluctant to leave. Neva bent her legs and cried as she pleased in her room. He looked up and looked up at the night sky. Feeling his painful heartbeat.
It felt like just yesterday she felt the sweetness of falling in love. It felt like just yesterday she was so happy with the love speech and the happy days of whether to dim down so quickly. The beautiful flowers bloomed, it should be this fast falling. Neva shook her head, not .. not dead. Vano said, this is not a breakup but only a break in their relationship. Understand each other's hearts.
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