Ai, Love Me
Eps 17, A Plan for a Pilgrimage

“and now, is the news of how your mother came to the hospital with me. So, last night, it was the night that I told my friend to send your papah's body to Engkobappe village. Therefore, when my friend sent the body, me and all my friends from the police will give a notification letter to the wife of the victim of the accident. When we are inside the house, we wait for the presence of the victim's wife. After the victim's wife came, we gave her the sad news. At that time we can understand that the health of the wife is being disrupted, even when she is in a state of true face really pale. We also brought the wife to see the husband's funeral in the village of Engkobappe. However, in the middle of the journey, I as a driver of the police car was really surprised by the presence of a wild deer that arrived just crossed the road. Seeing that, I immediately slammed the steering wheel and in the end our car hit a big tree. At that time, the mother survived very safely because the mother fell in a place that was not hit hard. But my police friend and I had really bad injuries. All three of my friends were completely helpless and squeezed inside the car while I was the only one who could move freely. I decided to save your mother first and then save my friend. However, after I saved your mother, I also intend to save my friend. Unfortunately, perhaps due to a fuel leak and being hit by a hot engine, the car exploded and caught fire there. In the end, I as the senior of the three junior friends really feel guilty until now. I also do not know for sure whether my three junior friends can still be saved or not, which I certainly pray that my friend is still alive. Otherwise, I will curse my own life for feeling guilty” explained the solar uncle by bowing his head throughout the story.

Hearing that, the Emilia also walked up to the uncle Surya and then held the palm of the uncle Surya while stroking him slowly. Emilia stroked the palm of Uncle Surya who was shaking so fiercely. Seeing that, the uncle Surya also saw a smooth white hand with a long finger with peace of heart. The uncle Surya raised his head and then looked into Emilia's eyes with patches of tears.

However, by lowering his head and shedding his tears, Johan snapped at Emilia at that place as well. Johan's snapping was so shocking to Emilia and Surya's uncle at the place.

“don't touch him!” snapped Johan.

“uncle Surya innocent” replied Emilia.

“he is guilty and very guilty. He was careless and very careless. He's a cop who doesn't know how to drive a car properly” Johan snapped with an outpouring of emotion so great.

In fact, at that time Johan really could not control the emotions and sadness of the heart. As if the sadness of the heart needs to be ventured with emotion, until Johan can not distinguish between the two. In the end, Johan was really drowning in heart sorrow because of the departure of the papah but he still considers uncle Surya as a person who really is not good at guarding someone's life.

“dirty and contemptible hands like yours won't be worth touching by anyone!” shouted Johan.

“ma-forgive me, I have indeed gone too far. I really need to be in legal” said the uncle Surya.

Surya's uncle was completely overcome by guilt and fear. He was immersed in a curse he made himself to punish himself for not being at all good at looking after others.

“i did need to be punished for letting my friend die in the car. If only last night my friend drove the car, none of this would have happened” said the uncle Surya.

“iya, you really are a stupid person, not stupid, irresponsible, not understanding, do not understand the feelings of others. You must be in law” shouted Johan really angry.

“ma-forgive me, I'm really sorry. I'm so sorry. I really feel guilty” shouted Uncle Surya.

However, shortly after, simultaneously, Emilia slapped Johan's cheek hard while the mother slapped Surya's uncle's cheek hard. They slapped hard simultaneously to save the consciousness of the person in his slap so as not to drown and get swept away into the momentary emotion between anger and guilt.

“realize you” cried Emilia and mother to Johan and uncle Surya.

Johan and his uncle stopped and calmed down. Johan immediately shed tears along with his uncle Johan who shed tears as well. At the same time, Emilia hugged Johan's body tightly along with her mother who hugged Surya's uncle's body tightly.

“you are innocent, again I say clearly, you are innocent. It was only a hundred percent pure accident. Don't make you weak for blaming yourself” said the mother in her arms.

“what's the matter with you, he's innocent. Controlling your emotions is stupid. We should thank him for helping Papah in evacuating your papah's body. And also you should thank him for his service in saving your mother's life. If there is no uncle Surya, maybe your mother will also die there” said Emilia in her close embrace.

“finally mamah know the reason why I hid grandfather's death, because I also do not want mamah and papah to feel sad.I am sure, surely mamah tried to hide papah's death because I did not want Johan to be sad. Is that really mah?” johan asked, bowing her head and with a glare of her eyes towards the floor.

“iya, mamah does that just like you. Honestly, hiding it is an action that according to mamah right then” replied the mother.

“in the end, we do the same thing.but we have differences. The difference between mamah and me is, if mamah would rather delay to tell him, if I prefer to hide it and forget it” said Johan.

“mamah can not delay any longer, mamah apologi” said the mother.

“why did you even apologize? Mama is not wrong. We're not all wrong. I apologize to Uncle Surya because I have denounced with words that are not good in the heart” said Johan nodded his head.

“iya, I'm sorry too. However, this blind morning is the funeral day for your papah. Because your mother is in rehabilitation and soul-seeking, your mother is still not allowed to visit the cemetery in her hometown in Engkobappe”, said uncle Surya.

“so today is the day of his funeral? Can you come to him?” ask Johan.

“iya, as one of his family relatives, you must come to your papah funeral. Maybe the funeral will be finished at 10 am this” said uncle Surya.

“then, after this you will be picked up by some people to take you to the village of Engkobappe to see your papah cemetery. You better get ready from now on. But don't forget after that, you should go back to the hospital immediately. However, in the village there has been a really terrible forest fire, so there is still a lot of dust and burning leftovers there. Therefore, you must immediately return to the hospital” explained uncle Surya.

“ka-in that case, I'd better say pulan-“ said Emilia stopped.

“wait a minute Emilia” said the mother cut off Emilia's words.

“ada what aunt?” ask Emilia.

“tante ask you to come with Johan there. And also invite your friend who was last night to go with Johan” said the mother.

“ehh? Mean aunt, Nyoman, Farel and Jehian?” emilia asked in surprise.

“iya, take the three of them there. Aunty really feels bad if Johan himself who left” said the mother.

‘ba-well aunt, the four of us will take care and join Johan” said Emilia.

At that time Johan also immediately get permission to go home while just to prepare. In a state of limp body, Johan returned home as well as Emilia.