Ai, Love Me
Eps 32, Consciousness Control

“excuse me, mamah entered” said the mother while pedaling her wheelchair.

“please enter” said Johan slightly shouted.

Hearing that, all the people who were there felt haru and were shocked. Their hearts trembled with the burning of the voice of Johan who had been smelling and roaring for approximately 3 days and 3 nights. Johan's innocent and wet hoarse voice sounded and made their hearts really full of warm welcome from a most loved one.

They all walked to Johan, who was lying weakly on the bed, where his left hand was filled with bandages wrapped in the wound of his left hand. There was only silence surrounding Johan's room. And in the end, the silence was removed by the people Johan longed for.

“ada mama, there's uncle Surya, there's Lia, there's a stinky mouth, there's Jehian, and there's Farel. Everything is here, thanks a lot”, said Johan as he shed tears.

“why am I the one nicknamed bau” asked Nyoman so annoyed and then followed by the laughter of everyone there.

“because you always sandpaper ceplos and can not set you” replied Jehian.

“what is Johan doing?” ask uncle Surya.

“uncle, it's better. But still a bit dizzy and lemes” explained Johan.

“do you stay here?” ask Emilia.

“no, I just woke up this morning, so I either fell asleep how long” explained Johan.

“you have slept three days” replied uncle Surya.

“heh!? Three days? Which actually?” Johan asked in surprise.

“iya three days” said Farel.

“then, now what day?” ask Johan.

“now saturday” replied Nyoman.

“hmm, maybe that's the reason why[a Greisha and I chatted for so long” Johan thought to himself

“ohh, yes. I remembered that Odessa must have been waiting for me in the village. I promised that I'd see him back” thought Johan in heart.

“nak Johan? Are you feeling better? Why are you daydreaming?” ask the mother.

“i felt that my time with the goddess of nature was so long that I thought that I would really change the world. I was scared there because I kind of assumed that I'd been dreaming for weeks” thought Johan inwardly.

“ohh, yes. I still remember what the goddess of nature said about my tattoo that” thought Johan in heart.

“heh Johan? Are you aware? Johan!!” emilia shouted out very loudly.

But Emilia's shout could not interfere with Johan's mind, which was filled with questions that terrorized his brain all along. Johan was thinking hard and trying to recall the events of the dream that Johan had just experienced. They all began to feel sad because of Johan who was daydreaming with a blank look.

“if it's not wrong, Greisha said that when I bit my own hand and I met Odessa, it wasn't a dream. But when I look at my left hand, why isn't there a tattoo on it?” thought Johan asked.

“why I didn't see my tattoo there when I wasn't dreaming. I'm so afraid how would my meeting with Odessa be a dream?” thought Johan asked.

“what happened to Johan? Why is his gaze empty?” jehian asked.

“if I bite my own hand, it will definitely hurt a lot. And I'm sure it's not a dream. My head is really dizzy thinking about how to dream and not. Both are the same” thought Johan.

“ohh yes, I just remembered. Greisha once said that the tattoo can be lost because our hands are cut off or because Greisha himself took it. But since when did Greisha take it?” think Johan.

“ohhh yes, I remember. If not wrong Greisha once said that he took it directly through a sleep intermediary. It could be that Greisha took it while I slept in the building at Engkobappe just after I was unconscious under an Odessa tree. Greisha confessed that Greisha took it while I was asleep. I am a little calm because my meeting with Odessa was not a dream but an event that did happen in the world” Johan thought in his heart.

“great, I can remember all my conversations with Greisha in a dream. My brain is getting sharpened” thinks Johan is proud of himself.

“and I also remember what Greisha said if only he had returned the tattoo to me as before. So, when I bit my own hand in the car, I wasn't dreaming. The reason why I bit my own hand was because of Greisha saying that my tattoo would not be visible in the dream world. My tattoo disappeared because Greisha claimed to have taken it again. And just now, I had a chat with Greisha, and she said that my tattoo had been restored. So I have to check it out myself. But how can I see if my left hand is really covered in bandages?” think Johan in your heart.

“Johan awake!!!” farel and Nyoman shouted so loudly.

In a truly strange atmosphere, they were as if they were going to talk to a living puppet. They saw Johan's eyes were completely blank, with the situation so strange, they decided to call the nurse there until finally, in the end, uncle Surya's last shout made Johan a little aware of the thoughts that terrorized him. Johan glanced so sharply at Uncle Surya with his two eyes that were still soft and sharp.

Seeing that, they were really frightened by what happened to Johan. They think that Johan is really possessed. A moment after that, Johan sat down properly bowed. Johan looked them all in the eye with a gaze that was so empty and not focused on one object. A moment after that, Johan crawled a little and then walked towards the table rack beside his bed.

Seeing this, no one dared to go after Johan for fear that Johan might attack him. Johan crawled up and extended his right arm towards the drawer. Shortly after, Johan pulled the drawer on the shelf and then felt the palpable of the whole drawer.

After feeling the palpable, Johan managed to take the scissors in the drawer and then bring it on the mattress. Seeing that, they all assumed that Johan would attack them. They were so worried because under such circumstances, Johan could have hurt anyone nearby.

“a-what will Johan do with those scissors?” ask the mother.

At that time, Johan was already inundated with questions and proofs. Johan really wants to prove whether his tattoo will be back on his left hand. Johan wanted to prove that what happened in his dream was true. Therefore, Johan was really very thirsty for this proof.

“this time, I'll see if it's true the word from Greisha” thought Johan in heart.

Slowly, Johan raised his left arm and then eroded the length of his left sleeve. After that, Johan also cut slowly wrapped in the bandage with a thirsty answer. Everyone had no idea what Johan was doing back then and why Johan cut his own bandages.

“a-what will he do? And has the wound on his left hand healed? why is he even cutting his bandages?” emilia asked in a panic.

“where? Where's nurse? Why didn't the nurse come here so quickly?” asked her mother so worried.

With drool flooded with thirst for the question, Johan was really very blinded by the answer he wanted to get. Johan really really no matter around and lost his mind. Basically, Johan really wants to prove the existence of the Goddess of Nature in his dream. Whether the goddess of nature is a character in a dream or indeed there really is a reality.

“now, I will see my own tattoos” thought Johan by cutting one by one the bandages.

Until the last bandage level, where the thin bandage can penetrate the color behind it. Seen if the bandage is a thin and smooth bandage. Johan's clothesline began to appear from the penetration of one strand of the bandage.

Just as Johan was about to cut the last bandage, Emilia carelessly stopped the movement of Johan's right hand and would not allow Johan to cut it. Because at that time, Emilia realized that the wound on Johan's left hand was still not healed and was really still wet with wounds and blood.

Emilia carelessly stopped Johan's right hand in an extreme way. Emilia forced her left hand to hold the iron part of the scissors forcibly and would not give Johan a chance to close both blades of the scissors.

In the end, Johan was not able to both blades of the scissor eyes because there is a palm that is in between the two blades. If Johan closed it, Emilia's finger would be injured. At that time, Emilia spontaneously slapped Johan's cheek with a super duper very amazingly capable until Johan's face was thrown so hard.

At that time, Johan was again aware of the situation and conditions around him. Emilia immediately shook her right palm because she slapped Johan's cheek too hard. On the other hand, Johan with his head thrown was already aware of the negative thoughts that blinded him too much.

Everyone there listened to the sound of a slap that was so crispy and crispy as if they would be really relieved to see Emilia slap Johan's face hard.

“aww sick sick sick” said Emilia while shaking her right hand.

“hey what are you doing? It hurts tau” screamed Johan carried away with emotion.

Seeing Johan react like that, instantly everyone who was standing there was so confused by the power of Emilia's slap. When they saw Johan's consciousness returning from Emilia's violent slap, they were so relieved that Johan had regained consciousness from his lower realm.

“Johan is back just because of that woman's slap? not because of the doctor's medication? Is it possible that Johan is just daydreaming and thinking about something that is troubling his mind?” think uncle Surya in the heart.

“I don't care, I yelled but you were daydreaming. What's up?” ask Emilia.

“ehh? Me? I'm daydreaming?” johan asked in surprise.

“do you not realize that you are daydreaming?” asked her mother so worried.

“ti-no, a-anu. That's sorry before. I just like hearing papah at the end of the room” Johan said with a fake laugh.

“you're not at all good at lying, Johan” thinks uncle Surya is at heart.

“now, remove these scissors or you or I slap again” threatened Emilia to Johan.

“ehh? I-iya yes, sorry” said Johan while removing both fingers from the scissors.

Immediately Emilia took the scissors and then put them back into the shelf next to Johan's bed. That way, the bandage wrapped in Johan's left hand began to relax and at that time also could not close Johan's wound so tightly. As a result, the blood stopped from the wound covered by the bandage began to open again and began to drip on Johan's clothes.

“sial, my blood came out again” said loudly Johan.

“how can you call a nurse for me? My blood started to come out again from my left palm. You better hurry because this slowly starts to hurt” said Johan while enduring the pain from his left hand.

“i-iya, I'll call them” replied Nyoman spontaneously running out of the room.

Slowly, the pain that struck Johan's left palm began to spiral out of control. Johan was really no longer able to withstand the pain of his left palm. Johan was right to shake his head because of the pain and horror of the wound on the left hand.

However, Johan still remembered about the tattoo on his left palm. Johan recalls opening up his own bandage just to check if the nature goddess's speech was as it was.

“before my left hand is wrapped in bandages, at least you should force to twist my left hand so I can see my own tattoo” thought Johan inwardly.