Ai, Love Me
Eps 28, Loss of tattoos and Worsening of Johan's mental state

On the way, at half-nine in the morning, in fact their stomachs were completely empty and rumbling. They did not eat breakfast or drink water in the morning. Therefore, Emilia also asked the driver to temporarily move to the nearest supermarket. They waited a little until they found the rest area.

At ten in the morning, in fact they just entered the toll and stopped at the rest area there. They really want to eat and drink in that place. In the end, Johan and everyone got out of the car and bought the food they wanted at the supermarket.

After they bought food, drinks and snacks at the supermarket, the driver continued his journey. On the other hand, Johan and all his friends were having breakfast. In the end, their heavy breakfast food was exhausted after the four of them spent more than a hundred thousand just for breakfast in the supermarket.

“heh, Johan. I asked for water” said Nyoman.

“tuh take aja in white crackle deket tas” replied Johan while playing games on his mobile phone.

“mana? Gaada” said Nyoman while looking around.

“ada, on the edge of tas” replied Johan who was playing the game.

“ohh, this met” said Nyoman while taking the bottle of drinking water.

“ehh, I also want, I also ask” Emilia told Nyoman who was sipping water.

“hmmmpp pmhmp” murmured Nyoman murmured while sipping water.

“ohh yes, I just remembered. Do not spend the water, I still have not taken medicine” stressed Johan.

“iya yes, I just kok” little bit said Emilia.

Shortly after, Johan took the drugs in a small bag in his bag and then opened them one by one. In total there are four medicinal pills that are so large that will be taken by Johan at that time. Johan put all four drugs in his mouth at once and then sipped as much water as possible.

“what is not excessive?” ask Farel.

“not, this is already in doctor” dosage Johan said.

“even though you already know that you are still sick, but last night you even wanted to run away. Stupid” is clearly Jehian.

“iya tuh, make everyone panic” said Nyoman.

“let alone the Emilia who shouted calling the name Johan in the middle of the forest even though Johan was beside the lake” said Farel.

“heh, don't say that, I'm ashamed” whispered Emilia to Farel.

“hahahahaha, why are you looking for me at night like that?” ask Johan while laughing.

“that's because you yourself arrived lost, you stupid” replied Jehian with a little shout.

“not that I don't want to come back here, it's just that I want a little longer to be under that tree. somehow I want to always be alone in that place” said Johan with a sincere smile while lowering his head.

“hah? whack? How can you remember where you fainted?” emilia asked in surprise.

“iya also, how can you know where you fainted when the person who fainted should not remember some events before he fainted” said Farel.

“Emilia who told me I fainted under the tree” replied Johan.

“we all don't care if you want to be alone or not. Besides in the wild like that, you could be in danger. It's not that we don't let you go out alone, it's just that we know your body's weak. We think that you really want to run away from home” explained Jehian put on a little emotional facial expression.

“ti-impossible is. I couldn't have done it. Why do I have to do it anyway?” johan said while holding back his laughter.

“we all think that way because we're afraid that you'll change your personality. Maybe it's a little funny to think about, but with all the things that's happened to you so far, it doesn't close the possibility that you'll change your personality in just a moment. We're afraid that you're not okay. We think like that because we have heard everything from your late papah before your papah died” explained Nyoman.

“heh? Ma-mean?” ask Johan.

“you have told Emilia everything and Emilia has told us everything. The reason why your personality changed three months ago. Do you remember?” ask Jehian.

“mak-meaning? The personality? A trait? What changed?” johan asked completely confused.

“if you don't remember your former personality, we still remember it very clearly. Three months ago, you always came to school very early. You always answer the questions thrown by the teacher in front, and at that time we were very grateful because we did not answer them. You study every night and remind us to do the same. You always picket on time. You're always laughing when we get together at the same table. You used to even tell us that you had liked Emilia, but I don't know what you feel now for Emilia. You who used to be very jolly, easy to laugh, always smiling, always looking into the eyes of people who invite you to talk, always smiling when other people smile, always singing cheerfully and even shouting screams in the classroom, even you were once thrown using a blackboard eraser by the teacher next class because you were so noisy. All that warmth is what we all love about Johan's nature. However, since three months ago, in a day and a night, your nature and character have suddenly changed greatly. You arrive often late to enter the school, even your clothes at that time are not very neat. You always keep your head down and shake it when the teacher throws you a question. You've never studied the night and never reminded us to do that, either. You've always truant pickets. You're also very quiet when we chat together. And even you are slowly starting to move away from Emilia. You suddenly become quiet, always put on a fake laugh, put on a fake smile, he said, the look in your eyes at the person asking you to talk is very empty and we even think that we are chatting with a dreamy person. You're not so happy to see others smiling happily, you're also really quiet. And after all, you've been very rare to go to school. We miss the figure of Johan who always warms us when we are together. But at that time, we really think somehow Johan has really changed. We were wondering if he might be sick. In the end, a few days ago, you entered school while you were about to take your midterms. But even when you came to school, you didn't change either. You even put on a fake smile. You even stayed away from Emilia. And you don't even care if we're okay if you act like that. However, yesterday the day after, before your papah died, he told Emilia everything about what happened three months ago. He said that you had a mental attack because of the divorce between your papah and mam-“, Jehian said.

“stop that, you are no longer entitled to bring it up again. I've decided to forget it. I want to forget all that” said Johan while lowering his head.

“what is bena-“ tanya jehian stopped.

“ma-sorry, you don't have to be that angry” Jehian said a little scared.

“already, do not get carried away with emotions” said Emilia while holding the left palm of Johan.

Seeing that, Johan immediately cut his left hand from the grasp of Emilia's hand so hard. At that time Johan also remembered the look of Odessa who was holding Johan's left hand. Thinking about it, Johan immediately looked at the hand of his left palm.

But something surprising happened. In fact, the tattoo on Johan's palm suddenly disappeared. Johan was a little panicked but he was still able to control his mind. Johan thought about what happened and how it all happened. Johan thinks it's just a dream world and thinks he's going to meet the goddess of nature, Greisha.

“Gerisha, yes her name is Greisha!” shouted Johan.

“hah a-what did you say?” ask Farel.

“Greisha! Greisha! Help me? where am I?” yelled Johan so loudly.

“already stop it, Johan” said Emilia while holding both shoulders Johan.

“Greisha, where's my tattoo? Where's you?” yelled Johan while facing the sky of the car sky and spread out his hands.

At that time, Emilia and all her friends were so scared because Johan was really acting very strange. They really saw the face of Johan who was so scared. They saw Johan sweating so hard, holding his head with both hands.

In fact, at that time Johan was really so confused and really sad. Because at that time, Johan thought that this dream world took place when he was still not awake from fainting under the tree.

“how is this? am I still not awake from my sleep? Since when did I dream this? since when do I fall asleep?” thought Johan while looking at his palms.

“ohh, yes. Greisha once told me if only if we wanted to wake up from a dream, we should bite our own left hand” Johan thought to himself.

Saati also, Johan immediately saw his own left palm. With eyes that were so frightened when he saw Johan, friends of Johan's friend at that time were really scared of what Johan did. Instantly, Johan bit his own hand with full force until the blood on his palm was pouring everywhere.

“ahh sick” shouted Johan so loudly.

“wait a minute, why am I still not awake from my sleep? Don't don't I still haven't bit my hand properly” thought Johan in heart.

Therefore, Johan was very strongly forced himself to bite his left palm. Many times Johan did, in fact, the blood that poured out had filled the nose, cheeks, and both arms of Johan. At that time Johan was really wrapped in his own fresh blood.

Seeing that, Emilia was really scared as well as her friends. They all shouted so loudly because of Johan's fear of eating his own limbs. Seeing that, the driver immediately stopped by the side of the highway and then got down from there.

With so rough, Johan was forced to lie on his stomach with both hands behind the puggung., both hands were in handcuffs as well as both feet. After that, the driver bent Johan's legs until both legs touched Johan's hands behind his back.

At that time, the driver put together the handcuffs that tie both hands and both feet into one. In other words, Johan really can't do anything else. His hands and feet locked onto each other. Johan was helpless.

“for now, we assume that son Johan has been affected by mental disorders. Even if you ask her to speak, you will never be able to understand what Johan means. Now, for safety's sake, please Emilia to move to sit in the front seat beside me while Johan's friends Nyoman, Farel and Jehian will remain in the back seat. I will justify the shape of this chair to be truly a chair facing each other just like from the beginning you enter” said the driver.

The driver immediately returned the back seat while Emilia decided to sit in front. Before that, the driver took the alcohol in one large bottle and then poured it into Johan's wound. This is done so that Johan's hands do not get infected. Moreover, the wound occurs due to a tooth bite.

Johan was in real pain. Johan shouted loudly in pain as the driver poured alcohol on his left hand. The shout made Emilia shed tears upon hearing it while pity and concern enveloped Nyoman, Jehian and Farel.

“saakiittt, that's perihh, stop thatuu” screamed Johan with tears streaming down.

“calm Johan, you must be strong. This dream is so real. I felt tremendous pain in this dream. Relax, this is just a dream! It's just a dream!” think Johan in your heart.

After doing so, the driver closed the back door again and then returned to the driver's seat again. The driver also wear a seat belt as well as Emilia who was sitting there. On the other hand, Nyoman, Farel and Jehian who were sitting in the back seat just watching the body of Johan who at that time was really rebellious and shouted by shouting the name Greisha many times.

“i think he really has a mental disorder” said Farel.

“i'm sorry why I should say it, should be as friends, we help in the rehabilitation process from the trauma and depression that he is going through at this time. However, Johan who currently may not consider us as friends” said Jehian.

“it's okay, you've been trying to improve Johan's mentality by asking how to calm himself” asserted the driver in the front seat.

“what sir driver knows Johan's condition?” ask Emilia.

“the nurses from the hospital told me that Johan could lose control of himself. I am not a psychologist, so I do not understand how Johan is currently” replied the driver.

They were still stunned and did not even talk and talk about something in the car throughout the trip. The driver also felt a little pity for friends Johan friends because of the change in character Johan so significant. In the end, they did not even talk or face to face there during the trip.

On the other hand, Johan who was then affected by the drugs he drank before had an impact on the effects of Johan's body which over time began to weaken on its own. In the end, Johan finally fell asleep there with such a sad state and condition. Johan stopped fighting or rebelling.