Anesta And Mahesa
Missing Yourself

Meeting and talking to her became like an opium to me.

She, the woman who seemed to bewitch me to submit to her charms.

The woman whose shadow is now always present dances in my eyes.

Anesta, that woman made me fall in love.

When we met, I felt something different.

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It may be true of love at first sight, because after the meeting that night I kept thinking about it.

I can't wait to see him tomorrow.

Before, I never did this. It took me a long time to finally fall in love with a woman.

I had a boyfriend once, long ago during High School . Our relationship lasted only a few months. When we became her boyfriend, we were not suitable. We finally split up at the end of High School.

She, that woman also made me like this until I told myself how I felt. Being a lover is not easy. Finally we gave up, it was better to part.

With different Anesta, there was never any friendship there. The first meeting made me fall in love, even though I tried to deny it. "It can't be that fast".

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"Where is Anesta?"

"Just eat lesehan, eat fried rice"

"Other times if dating Dea don't have to take me anymore. I'm not good with Anesta"

"Lho, is he angry with you?. I think it was mediocre, even the smiles continued. Nothing is wrong, right?"

"He's not mad at me, but next time go alone. If finally found out Maya, yes already consider a risk of the struggle. Ahaha!"

"Huh, semprul!. I'll go home first. It's night"

"Normally also nginep here yon"

"When I go, tomorrow morning I promise my sister the morning walk"

Dion came home from my house that night and I couldn't sleep. I keep remembering the moments with Anesta.

Tomorrow I have to see him, make sure about my feelings. Is it true that I miss him.

You know, I'm getting bored

Meet with the shadows

Help me find myself

Welcoming morning throw away deserted

I strummed my guitar for the night, trying to kill the shadow in my eyes.

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"Where are you going? Same friend's appointment?"

"No ma'am, no promises. Go to a friend's house. Are you also ready to go?"

"Yes, go with me. There was a thanksgiving event at the home of his friend. Yes be careful, do not go home too late. The danger!"

"Yes ma'am, say goodbye ma'am", as I kissed my mother's hand.

I can't wait to see him. I called him earlier. Make sure he's at the boarding house and we can meet him. I know from her tone, she wants to meet me.

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There was a different feeling when he met her, when he said my name, I knew it was true that I missed him.

That night I was quite surprised by the news that Dion took Dea to his house. I know that Dion never invited his girlfriends, including Maya, to his house to meet his family. Dion once said that his mother did not like Dion to have a girlfriend before his college was finished.

His mother did not want to go to college Dion was disturbed by love affairs.

Maybe this time Dion was serious about his feelings for Dea. I'm just waiting for the next news from Dion. I'm sure he'll come to me for a story.

That night, we talked about a lot of things. I always like to look him in the eye when I talk. His eyes seemed to tell me. Or I overvalue it.

"Fortunately, my friends did not come. I can race. We won't be able to talk like this"

"And I called first, made sure you were docked and I could see you"

"Yes, but my friends if they come like not to make a deal. Except for this, for example, we want to watch or go somewhere"

"Indeed, if it comes always rame-rame yes nes?"

"There are those who come alone, usually if you want to tell a story about him deketin the A or a story about his family or about his college. Sometimes people prefer to talk to someone who is considered appropriate. Often if the same my friends there is a story about him again approach to girls, which there is even teased, meledekin. Although it will be supported as well, but it will pity"

"Sometimes they tell us, we don't have to give them solutions. Horrified by it. He said so"

"You also like the story of your personal problems?"

"If that's never the case, only women understand about hahahaha women"

"Who ever made you fall in love?"

"Who? My friends?"

"Never, from the beginning knew them my feelings were really just friends"

"If I knew me from the beginning?", I wanted to know the feelings of his heart. I wonder if he has the same taste as me.

I saw him misbehaving, I looked him in the eye looking for answers there. I know he has the same taste.

"From the beginning of knowing you, I knew you were a fun and comfortable person".

He did not want to answer her yet, perhaps he should steady his heart. The important thing is that I know my feelings will be answered someday.

Finally saying goodbye to go home, I saw his face again before I left. I'll miss him again tonight.

I just laid my body on the bed, I heard my mother's voice calling me.

"Sa, there's Dion outside looking for you"

I hurried to the porch, and I saw Dion sitting on the floor behind me.

"Hi Yon, what's wrong? Tumben's been here tonight"

"There's something I want to tell you about me and Dea"

"Oh yes, I met Anesta. Said you took Dea home. Dare you take your girlfriend home?", I tried to tease her.

"That's what I want to tell you tonight. I'm confused Sa"

"The feeling of my love for Dea is so great, I really love her. This time is not the same as my old girlfriends. That's why I told my mom. I want to really get serious about my relationship with Dea. No need to hide as usual"

I just kept listening to Dion tell me.

"When you said you wanted to get to know Dea. It feels so good. I feel like I have new hope and new spirit"

"I called Dea immediately to tell her about my mother's desire to see her"

Dion took a breath, as if trying to remember back then. There was a pause for a moment before he started talking.

"I know Dea is very enthusiastic to meet mom and nervous. Maybe too soon"

"I just thought, the sooner you get to know Dea the better for our relationship"

"Mama welcomes Dea, says many things about me. And then my mother conveyed her hopes. What my mother wants from me. After that it was like a nuclear bomb mama expressed her disagreement about the closeness of our relationship. Mama doesn't want my college to be distracted with romance".

"I'm surprised, I guess from the way you greet Dea and say things, you'll agree. Apparently not".

I kept quiet listening to Dion talk. Don't want to interrupt it with my opinion.

"I knew Dea was uncomfortable, and then I drove home. We stopped by somewhere to talk"

"My heart ached when I saw Dea cry, it seemed like she was just as broken as me. We expect too much. It turns out that our expectations were not met"

"We chose to part ways, if one day we meet again and indeed our feelings are still the same, maybe we will get back together"

Then Dion shut up, and looked at me.

"Ehm, if you think the two of you are the best way, yes, go"

"I know you still like to break down your mama's rules with backstreet"

"For Dea, I don't want to because I'm really serious about it"

"I'll go home first, Sa. I just want a story"

That night I had a hard time sleeping, hearing Dion's story kept me thinking. Not all relationships can be easy from the beginning. I remember Anesta. I took my guitar "Anesta, I miss"

Let it be, I kiss your forehead

Not just in the mind

Tomorrow morning, you open the window

You'll find a bunch of red flowers