Anesta And Mahesa
Dispart

I kept my promise to come to her house. Not only met her, but also met her mother and sisters. Her father died a few years ago. There was nothing special about the meeting that afternoon.

After the meeting that afternoon, then there were the next meetings.

I always felt like I wanted to meet him. Maybe it's true Emi said, I'm in love. But for this one woman, I dare not express my feelings.

I also picked him up at school, I saw him talking to a friend of his.

"Who's talking to Nes?"

"Friends, he's my same class"

"He likes you?"

"meaning?"

"I mean, is your friend feeling like you?"

"No, just a friend. Why the hell is it like that? "

"The message is familiar"

"Well, he's my classmate. I've been friends with him since first grade"

"Oh, I think he likes you the impression is very familiar"

"Not be too quick to judge others if you don't really know them. Because it could be that your judgment is wrong and you will regret it"

"I want to tell Ben. You know my mother was a widow. She was young when she became a widow"

I heard him breathe. "You know how those around you who don't really know you draw conclusions about you?"

"When you really make a living selling clothes. Those people still judge mama to make a living in a way that is not halal. Because my mom can meet our needs. In a sense we can still go to school and look fine"

I let him keep talking. He hasn't spoken to me this whole time. I am usually the one who keeps talking.

"I sometimes hear them talking when I go through to the shop. There were even those who dared to blatantly come to the house to inquire about mama's work. We know what people mean by asking with good intentions or not. And I drove that guy out of my house"

"So, I'm telling you again. Don't judge others too quickly before you really know them"

I nodded my head. I feel like I was jealous when I saw him talking to another man. But I can't possibly say it. I'm too proud to admit it.

"We're so, right, at a used bookstall? "

"Be"

"Kok, this way?"

"This is a faster road than the road you pass when taking Nes transport"

"Hahaha yes, I'm in the habit of taking the shuttles everywhere"

"What book are you looking for, Nes?"

"Books questions. Make exam preparation. If there is a sloping price compared to a large bookstore"

"Yes anyway. We'll go home and eat, Nes, I'll starve to death"

I never expressed my feelings to her. There is no need for a statement.

He never asked us what our relationship was. Maybe he understood, that there was no need for a declaration of love but from our closeness he knew we were lovers.

I play at her house more and more, talking to her mom and her sisters. Sometimes he walks with her and her sisters. That's how close our relationship is.

I'm more and more convinced that I love him and don't want to lose him.

Until sometime after we both took the entrance exam to college. I received word that he graduated from State University in Java. My heart hurts, I feel like I've lost her.

He never said where his choice was. He said it was a surprise for me.

And he really did give me a surprise.

I'll get my bike home soon. I just wanted to make sure.

"I'm graduating Ben, next week I'm leaving"

"Congratulations, Nes! "

Actually I don't know what to do. I have to be happy for him or I have to be sad because he's going far.

"This time we can go out, right?"

"Wait a minute, I'll ask your mom"

I have to convey my feelings to her now. And I can't possibly say it here.

"Come, let's go!. I already announced them. Mama said she didn't come home too late" I saw she had changed clothes.

***

"Nes, I love you and don't want to lose you"

He looked me in the bead, looking for honesty in my eyes.

"Why did you just say it now, Ben?"

"I think from our closeness, from the way I treat you it doesn't seem necessary words of love. I'm saying it now because you're going to go far away from me"

"If you think your declaration of love can stop me from leaving. You're wrong Ben. I'll keep going"

"Actually I don't know how to behave at this time Nes?. I'm happy you can make your wish come true but I don't want you to be away from me either"

"I'm still going to go, Ben"

"I know I won't be able to stop you. This time I just wanted to question your feelings for me"

I clasped his hand, I really don't want to let go. It turns out love can make me this sweet.

"I love you Ben. Even from the beginning we met on the carriage that afternoon. I'm hooked on your smile" her smile expands. She looks so pretty.

"You know, Nes, since we met in the transport a few days I took the transport just to be able to meet you"

"You know my house. Why not play at home?. The prestige?"

"No, I'm not sure yet"

"I'm waiting for you to come home, sometimes hoping you take the same transport as me"

That afternoon we spent time watching the cinema, taking a walk in the mall. I bought him a book from a writer he really liked.

Before parting, I kissed her forehead. Gently rubbed his cheeks "I love you Anesta"

There were further meetings before his departure. I know how she struggled to convince her mother to leave. I knew no one would be able to back off his steps.

"Tomorrow I'm not driving you, Nes, I don't think I'll be able to"

I actually hate being a whiny, but I have to say it. And he understands.

****

A week after he left, I received a letter from him. I was very surprised, the era has become more modern and he is still sending letters.

Emily felt this was the most romantic thing a lover could do.

"I also want to ah, send a letter kayak kak Nesta. Yes, yes, the words of Nesta. Let's have a memory"

I receive a letter once every two weeks from him. Stories about his college, his friends, his activities. I like to read his letters. The way he wrote it, made me never get tired of reading it.

He also sent me birthday cards, valentine even to say he misses me through the card.

She's a very unique and attractive woman in my opinion. And I love her so much.

Until one day, it turned out that I betrayed our relationship.