Anesta And Mahesa
Suppose only

"Hi Mahesa, for me love is not that easy. Not just you and me. Suppose I had told you the answer so easily this afternoon"

"Hi Mahesa, you know our relationship is forbidden. There are differences that will make us have to fight"

"Time will test whether you are a man worthy of my love. Or the man who will eventually leave my side unable to fight with me".

I kept saying words in my heart. Until I finally feel tired.

"My mother will not agree with our love Mahesa", I cried and cried.

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We're different tribes, I don't think there's anything wrong with that. Look at the rainbow looking beautiful with its colors. But for my mom it was wrong. That can't be.

I have to find a man who is one tribe with me if I want to be someone special in my life.

I am from the Batak tribe and Mahesa is a pure Javanese. In my eyes, it complements each other. But not for my mom.

"You're the first girl in our family, you're also the biggest. You will guide your brothers in all things including our customs. Find a husband who is one tribe with us so you two can guide your sisters", that was one of my mom's messages when I returned home from vacation a year ago. In addition to the message to finish my college.

"Please relax, don't worry. I'm not interested in having a boyfriend right now, I'm focused on finishing my studies"

"Well, you just want to say far away, so if someone approaches you instead of a batak man, you already know you won't agree"

"Yes yes, I remember your mother's message. Pray I graduate quickly ma'am"

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"Nes, I'm in? Anesta!", I heard a knock on my door.

I didn't realize, I fell asleep. Turns out I'm exhausted.

"Nes, what else? It was called nyahut"

"Let's go De, the door's not locked"

"I thought you were gone, your room was dark but I saw your shoes at the door"

"Yes, I fell asleep until I didn't know it was so dark outside"

"When the plan this afternoon will do the task and continue to complete Chapter 1 thesis. Uh, even overslept"

"Have you eaten yet, Nes?"

"Yes not yet, my stomach has started to sound asking to be filled"

"Bandi first Nes, then we buy fried rice at the end of the alley. I want to eat with you. I don't think we've been out eating together for a long time"

"I took a shower, I smell good!"

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"Nes, order some fried rice too or something?"

"Kwetiau fried agent aja De, who usually do well".

"So, not to the library? See the book you're looking for?"

"So. So I went home late in the afternoon until the library closed. The book I mean there, instead get another book for reference"

"Tomorrow I'm also the local library, dead end. I think I was muter-muter there"

"But tomorrow I can't accompany you, I'm invited by Jo to find a gift for her mother"

"Yes, I know, I said that"

"Yes yes, I think it's important".

"So I came home to Mahesa on campus. He's waiting for me at the front door, where we used to go. How could he know that I was going through it. Why did I forget it?"

"Eh, we went to eat meatballs in the west, far away. I don't know where the meat is good. Trus, like we can talk and..."

"Stop Nes, get to the point. Which part matters?". Dea knew I was going to talk mutter-muter if what I wanted to say would make me wrong.

"The bottom line is, Mahesa expressed her feelings that she loved me. And I don't know how to"

"Cie cie, who's still grinning. Congratulations to you"

"What survives, I don't know if this will be safe until the end or it will be sinking soon"

"What the hell do you mean? Don't you look at him too? Don't you love him too? And as far as I know you're still single"

"Yes, I like him. I want to be his girlfriend. My mom would disagree. What to expect from an unresolved relationship from the beginning"

"That's why I haven't answered the question. I haven't steadied my heart De"

"If I think anyway, just go first now. If you really like it, accept it. About mama you think later, not necessarily you will get married"

"Our journey is still long nes to get to that stage. Do you want to get married in a month?"

"Oh, ngaco. Yes, it is not. Think of the same task as the thesis first"

"I know that having a relationship is serious De, if possible it must come to an end. Can't think about it later, how will it be"

"Well, the proof is that your boyfriend finally broke up too, right?. Yes, it means what it is going ahead Nes. Who knows after your mama you know Mahesa trus so crumbled. Trus so bless you both"

"That's the one who died, I'll keep trying to keep our relationship going as it is"

"Dibilangin, still ngeyel deh Nes. It's up to you. Now all decisions are in your hands. You know the best you can do. If I were you, I would love her"

"Yes, I thought again how good. Frankly I don't want to lose him for now De"

"Thank you, I want to be horrified. Thanks for the advice"

"It's not just thanks anyway, pay for the fried rice as well"

"Sumprul!, this is De's old date for me. When will my mom transfer money again. Tau own mama if the transfer is often late"

"Yes, I'm kidding Nes. Haha. Sensitive when talking about deals"

"When Nes came home, I was sleepy. It feels so tired today"

We walk to the kos. Usually while walking we still chat about anything. But this time we chose silence, dissolving with our respective minds. Perhaps because Dea was already exhausted and sleepy she was no longer interested in chatting.

I was playing with my mind. It all starts with the phrase 'assume'.

If I accepted his love, what would happen?.

If I refused his love, we could meet.

Suppose my mother refused at any time, what would I do.

I guess I'll just sleep. My college assignment was to get rid of first. I'm not interested in doing it anymore.

Maybe tomorrow morning, I have a new spirit of completing my task.

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