Anesta And Mahesa
I Want Him to Go

After afternoon I arrived at Mess. There were many voices inside. Maybe the residents of Mess from outside the city started to arrive. Most live in Bandung and West Java, so on Sunday afternoon they return to Mess.

"Thank you, Ben, for delivering to the office. Thank you for the walk too. I like it" I said sincerely.

"Yes, I'm also glad to take you for a walk. I can come tomorrow, right?"

"Would it be better if you wanted to come first, right? Maybe I'm overtime or there's another show. I don't want you to be disappointed"

"Okay Nes, I'll let you know"

"Bye Ben"

I looked at his back as he walked towards the car. He's a nice guy, the same guy I knew a few years ago. Nothing has changed from him. His heart is still for me.

I waited until he disappeared from sight. I can't possibly see you too often, Ben.

***

"Hallo Nes, have you seen Ben?" I heard my mom's voice very excited to ask about Ben.

"Had Ma, he called yesterday he said he got my number from mama, and then we met. He came again to Mess and took me for a walk. He said let me not be bored"

"Well, that's good. He still likes you Nes. Mama knows that"

"Keep, if so why?"

"With him. What is Mahesa?"

"But I love Mahesa the same"

"Ben is one tribe with us. It is no longer difficult to give a clan. If the same Mahesa still must be given a surname if you marry him. We still have to make a customary event of the giving of the clan"

"Mahesa doesn't know our customs. How did he teach you about customs?"

I just kept listening to my mom talk.

"Head of the household is important Nes know about custom. I'm afraid she can't guide you. It's the same Ben"

"It's one tribe, it's working. Especially?"

I want to end my conversation with Mom. I feel so tired.

"Ma, yes, yes. I'm going to bed, I'm still working tomorrow"

"Yes, rest up. But remember the words of mother yes Nes. Come back to Ben"

***

Outside of the drizzle, I opened my bedroom window. From the bedroom window, I could see a small garden near the terrace. Kuciumi smells like wet soil. I stared at the raindrops that fell touching the flowers in the yard.

My heart was broken by my mother's request.

I don't want to go back to Ben. It's not about the betrayal. Not at all. I just don't like the way I compare myself to that girl.

Maybe as time goes on I can forgive him. Ah, what the hell am I? As if wanting to go back to him.

I cannot remove the shadow of Mahesa from my eyes. That kalem guy. A man who doesn't talk much, who always makes me feel at peace by his side.

I just want him to accompany me whenever. Is it impossible to break customary norms?

Can't make things simple.

If I stick to my stance, do I have a lot of hearts that I like?

If I'm with Ben. I've hurt myself. Should I sacrifice myself?

I was tired of all that stuff. Let time be the one to answer it. It may take a long time, but I'll wait.

I was tired and finally fell asleep. I heard the sound of the rain getting louder. Mahesa, I miss you.

***

"Then we go to Nes' office" I heard Yose say hello. We were in different divisions, but we knew each other over the phone because I had to contact him several times about work.

"Yes, I finished breakfast first"

"Sigit, know Anesta. Hrd Division. Let's take him to the office"

"Sigit, I'm IT division"

"Anestas. Never known before, right? Do you ever hear his name?"

"Yes must have heard, if the laptop or cash register is damaged will often call me tuh the Boim"

Bang Boim, that's the name of the IT staff at our branch office. The guy's funny and nice. I love talking to him, Rame.

"Yes Nes, go. Later, the streets in Jakarta are not friendly. Frequently stuck"

I saw Ben's car stop in front. He's picking me up.

"Yose, go first. I'm with a friend"

"Yes, we go first!"

Ben came over to "Yuk, Nes together. We're in the same direction that I'm picking it up"

"Not saying anything to pick me up"

"Surprise Nes. I don't like it"

"Not that I don't like Ben, Yose offered me to the office. If you come, I'm leaving just as he'll pity you"

"Eat him Ben, next time the phone. I told you"

"Yes, sorry Nes"

Why do I feel so angry, I know he means well. But I don't like it. The more he does good this way, the harder it is to hate him and forget him.

Why should he come back in my life?

I never expected him to come back. Ah Ben, you've ruined my morning.

Along the way, I chose silence. I don't care what he thinks of me.

"Nes, is it breakfast?"

"Here, I ate fried rice"

"Buy it or cook it yourself?"

"It's like the cook the mother who guards Mess. Wh why? You haven't had breakfast?"

"Yet, will you accompany me to breakfast?"

I looked at my watch, it didn't seem like I could. I can't be late for the office.

"I don't think I could have done it, Ben. I'm gonna be late for the office"

"It's okay, I'll have my own breakfast"

"Is it really okay?"

"Yes, relax, Nes. Suddenly worried?"

He's starting to tease me."Not worried either, just I'm not good, it's been taken but still can not nemenin breakfast"

"Yes, it's okay. I'll come home from work, will I pick you up?"

"What time?"

"Hour 7?"

"Let me tell you later"

***

I headed straight for the second floor where the HRD division was located. From the outside I see the HRD room is starting to get crowded. There's still 15 minutes. Soon I entered the room and greeted some people I knew because they had been to the branch office.

"Hi mbak Vi! How are you?"

"Well Nes, you want some training?"

"Yes, will I be training together?"

"No, it'll be the same Mr. Zein"

"Let's just calm, Nes, the guy's good" Nita interjected. He seemed to be reading my worries.

"Where is there a fierce division of us"

"Nes, how are you? When's it?"

"Newly, want to train new products as well"

"No, I'm not in training. Uh, before coming here it's done not absenteeism, incentives, and others. We want to count payroll in two days?"

"Udah anyway, but do not know also yes if there is a sudden permit or illness. I asked you again there"

Payroll is the administrative system in the HRD division for employee salary calculation. Consisting of basic salary, there is also transportation money, food money and others. Each company usually has a different standard.

Usually I will send employee attendance data, overtime, leave and illness permits, incentive data to then be processed at the headquarters. If we are not careful it will affect the salary earned by employees.