
Consciously bowing my head before loved ones who love their children, I know clearly my current position is being cornered by behavior that is considered not good. Trying to stand up, I saw Bu Farrah walking up to me, my mind had gone where it was, even Serkan immediately tried to get up from his bed to stop his mother, he said, but what Bu Farrah did really surprised me and Serkan.. Suddenly hugged me? Wait a minute, what is the meaning of his current embrace? Wasn't he mad at me.. Shortly after Bu Farrah hugged me, Grandma came over to hug me and they both went to talk to the middle room.. Serkan and I, who were staring at each other at this moment, were confused by the reaction they gave..
Serkan who immediately walked out left me alone in his room, finally making me speechless like a statue listening to them argue. My heart was beating uncharacteristically, my hands suddenly felt cold to hear them arguing for reasons that I thought were true and also the consequences of what was caused.. Serkan rejected the advice put forward by his mother and grandmother firmly and also various reasons, but Bu Farrah and grandmother turned to scold Serkan even at the end sounding like the voice of Bu Farrah who held back her cries.. Before long the atmosphere became quiet and Serkan went into the room with his upset face.. After looking at me, he could only bow his head to me and I understood what he meant like that.. Leave a confused look and start fidgeting like back then, while he was still.....
“ I'll talk to Bu Farrah, grandma.. Then mama, papa.. Everything”
Said Almira who walked over to Serkan
“ Almira, don't tell me you..”.
Serkan stared at Almira questioningly
“ File.. You yourself.. Whaddya think? Perni.”
“ Now you're really lost your mind? Cool your head first, then we talk again.”
Hand over cut off Almira's conversation and walked towards the dressing room
“ Sorry, grandma is bothering you.. Almira, can you ask for your mom's phone number? There's a lot to talk about.. Faster is better, don't you think?”
“ GRANDMA!! Please stop.. No, not you... ALMIRA!! WHAT IS.”
Serkan who felt angry stretched Almira who finally gave her mother's number
“ File.. If Almira doesn't marry you, then your mother will find another woman worthy of your marriage. That's our decision. It's enough of you like this, and it's also time for you to get married”
Said the grandmother sitting on the chair staring at Serkan and Almira
“ File.. What will nek?”
“ If you refuse, then he will be betrothed to us. So consider..”
“ Sa.. I go home first.. Grannies.. Almira says.”.
Almira who bowed with greetings to grandma serkan
“ I'll drop you”
Leave him to walk into the locker room and take his car keys
Along the way Serkan said absolutely nothing.. All he did was focus on driving with a long sigh and again random shuffling of his hair.. He must be surprised just like me. Why did it end like this? Is it because I slept in.... Aharrghh!! Why did I fall asleep next to him?? As I remember last night I tried to check her temperature, and then I saw her for a second.. Didn't you realize I was asleep?? Look at the almira as a result of your actions without thinking! Then what am I supposed to do now? A wedding? Is that the only solution?
“ Stop. I know what's on your mind right now. It's not your fault”
Say a call that sees Almira fidgeting
“ I'm sorry.. Unknowingly I fell asleep at.”
“ I know. Relax, I'll try to find a way out.. You focus on working”
“ Why do you always bear all by yourself? Have you always been selfish like this?”
“ What?”
“ You determine something without asking my opinion! Makes me feel guilty!”
Almira who was feeling upset slightly raised her voice to Serkan
“ THEN WHAT SOLUTION DO YOU HAVE?? YOU WANT TO MARRY ME??”
Serkan who was also confused finally got carried away with emotion by yelling at Almira
" . . . . . . . . "
Almira was speechless hearing the Serkan Question
“ Forget. Sorry, I raised my voice to you.”
Why am I making him even more dizzy? Almira what's wrong with you? Throughout this journey we were completely silent.. I really didn't want this to happen.. And my choice now is just 2, marry her or see her get married.. What choice would you choose almira? How do you feel about him? Even finished with this ambiguous talk, Serkan went straight back to Turkey in the early hours with a pile of uneasiness fixed on me as if he was avoiding me..
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The rainy season compared to winter.. I think I'm still spinning in these 2 seasons.. Grey sky and day are always accompanied by erratic rain stubs.. It's been a week since that incident.. And tomorrow is the day of judgment where I have to give my decision on Serkan to Bu Farrah and also grandmother. Today is Papa's return home.. Doctor Arga strongly warned us all not to let something similar happen again because it would be fatal for Papa's heart.. Makes me want to scream or slam myself even more so that I can be invisible to anyone. Serkan still hasn't contacted me until now.. I heard from Lilian even Emre came to Indonesia.. Miss Farrah and Grandma gave me a red card.. What am I supposed to do?
In the afternoon towards dusk, Lilian again told me that a surprise would come to see me. Feeling very happy to hear it but still being professional at work, I again tried to stay focused in the examination of patients. But in the middle of the break, I can't lie that all this makes me feel more crowded.. Actually why am I like this, even everyone can see what I and Serkan feel.. I got back up and continued work, until finally my work hours were done and Lilian again told me to pick her up at one of the travel agents near the hospital, I immediately passed away to pick her up.. Lilian stayed at my house so I could talk to her very freely.
“ Hey Brother Lilian.. How are you?”
Said Andre greeting, watching Lilian climb the stairs to Almira's room
“ Good Andre.. You how?”
“ Me?? Getting better looking of course, brother..Congratulations on the engagement, brother.."
Andre said with a proud smile
" Ahaahaha.. You're still like this.. Thank you for saying, Dre.."
Lilian smiled at Andre
" Okay, I'm not gonna bother these old ladies talking.."
Andre who ran while laughing amusedly
" It's so annoying that kid! Enter Li.. I don't know if my room can make Miss comfortable. Emullers.."
Almira who was upset while opening the door then smiled ignorantly to Lilian
“ Stop cheating on me! I'm not married to Emre.. So, how's mir? Mama Farrah and Grandma about that choice.. What time is tomorrow to jakarta?”
Lilian put her suitcase and sat on the bed with Almira to talk
“ Me.. Don't know.. Bu Farrah told me to come at lunchtime.”
“ How are your parents?”
“ I haven't told them either. Papa has also just been discharged from the hospital, so.”
“ I understand what you're worried about mir.. Then, how did Serkan react back then?”
Lilian clasped Almira's hand and gave her a smile
" He looks angry and upset.."
Almira lowered her head
" Where do you know and are you sure about that?"
“ I recorded this video silently while Emre and Serkan were talking on the home page of time in Istanbul yesterday.. You look..”
Lilian gave a video recording of her phone and gave it to Almira
* Lillian will be fine.. Sister\, how? Have you made your decision?
* I know how hard Almira is working to get to the point right now. If I propose to her\, will she be ready like Lilian? I do not want to see Almira forced herself\, especially the condition of her family was unstable given the condition of her father.
* Yes\, with the father handing over all power in the company to you\, it looks like Almira will....
* I don't want to ruin his dreams and work because of me. But\, I don't want to see her with another man either. I'm really selfish! How humiliating.
“ Almira, Serkan had actually been thinking about this problem from afar.. For this reason it also seems to be what makes him come forward and suddenly retreat to you.. I didn't want to show you this video, Kirey thought the same. But it seems..”.
“ Thank you for showing this video.”
Almira returned the phone to Lilian and went back to contemplation
“ Almira, when Emre brought me back to Istanbul when our engagement was over here.. He introduced me to all the family.. Papa Faruk and others.. The point of my conversation is, the Emuler family is really a different family mir.. Starting from lifestyle, speech, thinking, and you no longer need to ask how they look.. Are you ready to mir if you take it?”
“ I don't know...”.
Almira finally lowered her head with a long sigh
“I accepted Emre because he could convince me. From what I've seen, take it much more seriously on you.. Especially when his father fell ill, all the responsibilities of the Emuler family handed Serkan. You know how his company, his job, his social environment, right? But despite all that, I'm sure Serkan won't hurt you mir.. He's a responsible and very serious man towards you, as well as your family here.”.
“ Yes.. Actually I can see that too.”
“ It's night, we have to rest because tomorrow to jakarta.. Good night.”
Lilian who tried to pull the blanket and fell asleep
“ Night Li.”
“ Mir..”
“Yaa?”
“ I want to see you happy. You're a good man.. Discover your happiness”
Lilian turned off the room lights and began to fall asleep
Find happiness? What is my happiness? Am I not happy now? My career, my family have no problem with it all and I am very grateful that it has been achieved.. What is happiness according to Lilian today? Why does hearing that make me so calm? What am I supposed to say tomorrow? How's this.. What am I supposed to do?
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Morning again welcomed, without thinking long I and Lilian were ready to go to Jakarta.. Mama and papa have started to move as usual, restaurants and cake shops also began to operate again.. Andre and Talita always helped beside them so I no longer need to worry. When everything was ready and we were going to start driving, a luxury car came to a stop on the front porch and it was Emre who picked us up to Jakarta..
" Nurma, Hey.. How you doing?"
Smiling Emre patted Almira's shoulder to say hello
" good.. You look more handsome.. Is it just my feelings?"
Said Almira who glanced mischievously at Lilian
" I won't be eaten up by your traps! So stop.."
Lilian with a flat expression passed through Almira and Emre
" Almira, brother apologized for not being able to pick you up at this time. Because in.."
" I got it.. We're leaving now?"
Almira cuts off Emre's conversation by getting in and sitting in the back car seat
Along the way I saw Lilian and Emre have more and more closeness than usual, they also look so harmonious.. That is when a person when finding a partner who is able to fill and accept the shortcomings of one another.. Lilian, I don't know why I'm so jealous of you, but why doesn't my heart feel the same for Serkan? I can't seem to marry him. Is this my answer? So I'd rather see him marry another woman? Is this really what I want....
When we arrived at the Bu Farrah family residence, we saw several cars parked neatly.. From the vehicles and clothes they were wearing really looked very different from how I looked.. Emre then told me and Lilian to go into a room to feel comfortable and also more free to change clothes or just take a break.. As Emre closed the door, Lilian suddenly called out to me in the dressing room.. I walked in there and saw a beautiful dress hanging with a pair of highheels that look very graceful in pink..
Beside her was a small box containing a pair of earrings with gemstones that matched the dress even more to make it look luxurious when someone wore it.. Did Serkan prepare all this for me? And this is also my favorite color, from which she knows this.. Lilian without a second thought immediately helped me to decorate, even my hair he arranged beautifully.. Until I didn't realize that the woman in the mirror was me.. Unaware someone entered the room and it turned out to be..
“ Almira?? You look so pretty.. Lilian, you are so son.”
Said Bu Farrah who smiled happily at Almira and Lilian
" I'll catch up with Emre and I'll leave you to talk.."
Lilian who looked at Almira and passed away went out of the room after the greeting and hugged Bu Farrah
“ Thank you bu farrah.. Ma'am.. Actually anyone wants me sam.”
“ Mother already knows. Leave everything to us yesterday.. Again we apologize for misunderstanding and distressing you.”
“ What?.... Leave me explain what to mom? But we are at all be.”
" I know son.. Therefore, suppose there is no pressure during today's engagement.."
" lady.. I mean, mother is..."
“ This is Yashinta.. He is the future fiance Serkan.. What say?”
Ms. Farrah showed a photo of a woman from her phone to Almira
“ Ca, can.tik.. A beautiful woman.. Very can. tik.."
“ Thank you you can finally persuade Serkan after all this time he was stubborn! You really are our helper.. Almira, consider us your family do not hesitate.”
“ Persuading.. Serkan?... Ms. Farrah, I'm sorry.. Am I allowed to talk to Serkan?”
“ Of course.. Looks like she's still in her room upstairs.”
Bu Farrah pointed one of his hands upward
“ I'm sorry bu..”
Almira who lowered her head and directly walked out of the room
Convicted her? An explanation? Tell her what to her family? Wait, isn't this all I'm going to say? That I'm still not ready to marry him.. Then why am I like this? As if I did not accept it and my feet moved faster towards Serkan's room, as if feeling shameless. As soon as I got to the door of his room, I tried to knock on his door and he let me in. As soon as I open the door Serkan so looks handsome more than usual.. From top to bottom like there is no shortage at all.. Stunned by what I saw in front of me, it dawned on me that I was standing like a lifeless statue in front of him looking at me right now.
I tried to step foot inside and get to him.. His eyes looked serious to me but seemed to have deep remorse on his face.. Is he unhappy? Why does my chest hurt to see it like this..I stepped up and stepped right in front of him.. Finally he gave his smile to me which implied coercion. Almira, what exactly do I want?!