
Quietly silent, the heartbeat seemed to stop when he saw what was in front of me.. This bowed my head by imagining what was supposed to happen, turned out to be very different from the reality I was about to face. The gaze of the eyes also led to me with the thoughts of their respective opinions without need to say. This time, what am I supposed to say?
“ Alright we start. Who would object to the presence of Doctor Almira here and who would agree that Doctor Almira still continues his service here. We start with who objected to the presence of Doctor Almira, please raise your hands.”
Turan spoke in Turkish, standing up from his seat and looking at the Doctors and Nurses
“. . . . . . . . .”
The silence of everyone in the room
“ What's up? Why is everyone silent and no one upholds their hands?”
Turan said back with a smile
“ Doctor Almira.. Although he did not help me right away, he did very well by helping me to calm the patient's family during and after the surgery.”.
“ Yes.. Likewise, when you are in the Emergency Room as you all hear.. If Dr. Almira had not informed the condition of the patient, I might have given him the wrong treatment. I thought such a patient was the result of the impact of his injured head, but for Doctor Almira it was easy to tell me even if he was looking from a distance.”
Some doctors explained
“ Alright, if so I continue with the question who does not mind Doctor Almira in continuing his service until it is finished, please raise your hands.”
Turan said back with himself raising his hand
“ ME ME ME OF COURSE. I'M ALSO #RIGHT, ALL OF US.”
Say to all the Doctors and Nurses who raised their hands a sign of approval
“ Really beyond estimate.. Doctor Almira, I think I should have to return you.. But ter.. Doctor Almira? You okay what?”
Turan said worriedly looking at Almira who lowered her head with a trembling body
“ Doctor Almira? Are you crying?”
Filiz to almira
“ Ti.. No. gabe.. There was dust that came up and made my eyes sting.. En.. I don't know why.. Made me.. So then... Crying out... Excuse me... I'm sorry.”
Almira was nervous as she spoke because she was unable to hide her cries
“ Looks like we owe to take Doctor Almira to dinner because it made her cry.”
Turan who smiled with utter ignorance on his face
“ What?.. Nope, no.. I'm fine.. No need, thank you very much.”
Almira who lowered her head while holding back her cries
“ Alright, it has been decided we will have dinner at Restaurant Saray Asiten tonight. I'll treat you all.. Doctor Almira, welcome back to work.”
Turan said back with a smile
Laughter and apologies and hugs were given to me as if they felt there was nothing wrong with me and forgot about their rejection of me some time ago. I who was still standing with this cry was finally stopped when they all had a funny conversation that made each other smile and even laugh.. Mercifully.. Thank goodness I was still given the opportunity to work in this field despite my condition..
Before long we all went out of the meeting room and returned to our activities.. As soon as I finished with my five patients, I helped one of the Doctors who could not do a Patient Visit because his son suddenly fell ill. With this busyness, I again forgot my lunch hour and just focused on working.. Now it seems to be a habit for me, since Turan asked me to serve in the Surgical Unit and Emergency Unit, I also came and saw the condition after I did a Patient Visit today..
Not felt the time passed until dusk began to be seen covering the light that changed the darkness of the night with a sprinkling of starlight which was also blocked by gray clouds at the beginning of this winter.. Taking my bag and hanging my medical white robe, I arrived for some reason my body felt a little feverish with pain all over my body accompanied by a little dizziness as if the world was spinning right before my eyes in a few moments.
#TOOKK TOOOK
“ Doctor Almira? Are you ready? We go now?”
Said one of the fellow Doctors who knocked on the door of the room and spoke to Almira
“ Sure.. We go now.”
Smiling Almira still felt dizzy by forcing herself to walk
Nah! My illness cannot recur right now! Almira.. You're fine! Remember, thoughts affect your heart. So strengthen your mind then you'll be fine.. Walking along with the Doctors and Nurses, when parked in the car for some reason Turan arrived to stop his car right in front of me and then went down and told me to get in the car.. The momentary shock caused an unnecessary stir until I felt ashamed and lowered my head.. My intention to resist seemed to be unsuccessful when they pushed my body into Turan and with a heavy heart I rode with him..
“ So, have you thought about what I said yesterday?”
Turan spoke in Turkish to Almira
“ Mr. Turan.. Stop joking with me.”
“ I'm not kidding. I'm serious about you.”
“ If so, sorry I have to reject you.”
Almira lowered her head because she felt dizzy
“ That fast? You reject me?”
“ I'm in no condition to.. No, I don't deserve a partner. So, don't bring this back to me sir.”
“ Why are you saying something like this? Didn't I tell you I can accept your condition?”
“ How about your family? And your future may have no offspring.. Think a thousand times before you say this to me.”
Almira who smiled at Turan while enduring her pain
“ Alright, but you promised to be my partner tomorrow to attend an event.”
“ When do I approve it?”
“ When you are silent hear me speak. Tomorrow I will pick up at 5 pm because the event is in the middle of istanbul.”
Silent and not returning his words, Turan also fell silent until we reached the destination. All very crowded and so pleasant with very delicious food and drinks. But right now I really want this event to end quickly and I can rest this body.. Somehow Turan's reaction at this time because I didn't notice it at all because of the pain in my chest area and it was so dizzy with this head..
My feelings alone or indeed at this time they turn around? Aaakkhh this head! Realize almira, you're in the middle of the show.. With a pause and taking my medicine back, I finally managed to slightly reduce the pain in my chest and my headache was slightly reduced until I was able to survive until the end of the event.. And back on the way home, Turan offered himself back to take me and right now I need his help to get to the inn as soon as possible..
. . . . . . . . . . . .
#BEEP BEEP BEEP
#CHRISINGG #KRING #KRIINGG
“ Yes? Hello?”
Said Almira who turned off the alarm on her Handphone and answered the call
“ Almira, today.. Today is the 20th anniversary of the Company's founding.. If we invite you, can you come?”
“ I'm sorry Lilian, but today I have an appointment with the Hospital Director to accompany her.”.
“ What? With that Turan?? Since when did you become close to her?”
“ Length of the story Li.. I'll tell you later if I meet you.”
“ Alright if so.. We meet another time.”
“ Okay, I'll call you back.”
The company's birthday? Isn't it clear that Serkan as CEO will be right there? It was impossible for me to come and be there.. What are they all thinking? Are they going to hide me like a handkerchief that can be folded at will and put in a shirt bag? But I also know clearly the intent of them inviting me this time. So what they did was wrong whether it was inviting or not inviting me.
Waking up from my bed, suddenly my chest feels so painful that sometimes it makes it difficult to breathe.. My fingernails look yellowing which makes me immediately run to see the glass to see if my eyeball is also yellow.. Thankfully my fear did not occur, but seeing the reaction and signs of this sign, did not stop this leg to immediately run and go straight to the hospital to check my condition on one of the doctors there..
“ Doctor Almira, is it better?”
Said Doctor Filiz in Turkish who examined Almira with a worried face
“ Yes, although it still hurts but not like before.. Thank you Doctor Filiz.”
“ Doctor Almira, if your condition worsens.. Sorry, I suggest you have a Liver Transplant.”
“ What? Apaa.. My condition.. That bad?”
“ Doctor Almira, as you know antiviral drugs can not eliminate Hepatitis B infection. But it only prevents the development of the virus.. If hepatitis B has caused liver damage until liver function is permanently disrupted, Liver Transplant must be done.”
“ Not possible.. I always take my medicine and treatment for the last 2 years my condition is fine.. Impossible.”
Almira who started to feel panic when she heard the verdict on her
“ Doctor Almira, your illness can suddenly recur without you knowing.. Therefore take care of your health condition.”
Walking out of the room with footsteps that felt so heavy, I no longer ignored how this heart cracked. Trying to survive with the energy left by breaking down the Ego, it really makes me ask myself why I survive to accept the situation that is not good enough so that everything is broken to pieces is not left. Bowing tightly to hold the white robe in my hand, it flashed in this memory of how I struggled to obtain this pure-impressed white robe.. Sitting back feeling there is nothing left, but the heart and mind do not want to give up on the situation.
I built a fresh heart with a stone wall just so I could survive and feel the happiness that I knew when I could feel.. With the presence of coworkers and some Nurses, I was finally able to finish the job today very well merski this heart still feels heavy to smile.
Awakening to the appointment with Turan, I immediately changed into the last Dress Serkan gave me on the day of his engagement and when I had a car accident. Decorating with the help of some Nurse who is adept at makeup, it turns me from a bad duck to a beautiful golden goose.. Turan who saw me was so amazed and praised my performance tonight, then we went to the event that Turan meant..
“ Mr. Turan, it looks like this event is so luxurious and formal impressed.”
Said Almira who saw the invited guests on her right and left side
“ Of course.. Are you willing to hold your hand on my arm?”
Said Turan who was smiling and extended his hand
Walking in and looking at all the invited guests who were dressed so fancy at least made me feel less exaggerated by wearing this Dress. Turan walked so gallantly with me who was in a declining condition but I tried to force myself because Turan had always been kind to me from the beginning of our meeting.. So, I'll take this as my only return to her..
“ A L M I R A . . . .?”
“ Li.. LILIAN..? EMRE?... Wait, where am I right now? Turan, what is this event?”
The surprised Almira released her hand from Turan's arm
“ Sorry I didn't explain to you before. This event is for me.”
“ Don't say this is an event.... Serkan?!”
Almira floated her mind and suddenly remembered with a face full of panic looking at Turan with a slight annoyance
“ Almira.. I..”
“ RELEASE!”
Almira who pulled her hand was very angry at Turan who was trying to explain
“ What's up Almira? Why are you angry? Did I make a mistake? Didn't I tell you we're going to an Aca... Almira's? Where are you going? ALMIRA WAIT!!”
Turan who was trying to chase after Almira who was trying to run towards the elevator door
#BRAAAKKK #PRAAANGGG
“ No..Missy? Are you okay?”
Said a hotel employee carrying a tray containing glasses that were hit by Almira until it fell and split
No. gabe.. No. gabe.. Why does this chest feel tight again even this time my head feels dizzy to see those who turn around in front of me.. It hurts so much that it is difficult to breathe.. The medicine! I need to take my medicine right away..
“ Almira? You why? Are you looking for something? Follow me!”
Turan pulled her hand away as she looked frantically looking for something in her bag to enter a room followed by Lilian and Emre behind her
“ Almira, what are you looking for?”
Said Lilian who immediately ran over to Almira who arrived prostrated on the floor
“ Ob.. Medications.. My medicine... L'm... Must me.. Drank it.. My medicine.”
“ Hold Almira, this drink.. Almira, take your medicine.”
Lilian who immediately got the medicine with Emre who brought a glass of drinking water to Almira
“ What are you guys doing gathered here? Al, mira? What's...”.
Say Serkan who was surprised to see the condition of the Almira sitting on the floor
“. . . . . . . . . “
Everyone who was speechless with Almira tried to regulate her breathing and endure the pain
“ Leave me alone with her. NOW!”
Hand over who was upset when Lilian and Turan tried to explain
“ Come on, we get out first.”
Emre pulled Lilian's hand and led Turan out of the room
The cold air that was released from the air conditioning was so piercing my skin.. But this view of Serkan was much more piercing into my heart, where I could not escape with sweat and this pain was so painful.. The footsteps that were getting closer to me made my breathing more irregular so I sweat more even though my body feels cold. Serkan, can't you leave me alone at this time? Please don't look at me like this...