
The foot that stepped stopped right in front of him, making me speechless and all the words or questions in my mind that I wanted to tell him so badly were deleted by itself made me look like a clown who did not know and understood what was going on and why I was right here. Serkan looked at me with his always charming face to see it.. Her appearance could render any woman powerless to resist. But what is it about me that still cannot accept the full presence that I really want?
“ As I thought, you will look beautiful wearing that dress.”
Hand over who started the conversation and looked at Almira softly
“ Why? I mean, why are you setting this up?”
“ Today my extended family came. And you must have prepared nothing. I only men.”
“ Trying not to look embarrassing myself?”
Almira who looked at Serkan with a smile
“ Sorry, did I offend you?”
“ No.. Not at all.. I didn't bring a dress.. Perhaps more precisely, I do not have a beautiful dress like this.”
Almira flicked the dress she was wearing in front of Serkan
“ Thank goodness if you like it.”
“ File.. You're... What did you explain to your family? Is this the solution to our problem? You. will...”.
“ Yes and no. I'm still considering it. But, I think this is the best solution to this problem.”
“ Then.. For me? Just for me, not for you.. Do you love that girl?”
" . . . . . . . ."
Serkan who was speechless heard Almira's question and just looked at her
" Why are you silent? Sorry, am I sa.."
“ Until this second there were only 1 woman I liked and it was right in front of me. However, my mother told me that love could not be happy if I forced my will on her."
Saying Serkan who cut off Almira's talk
" What? You're.. Said what?"
" I don't know since when and for what, but since the beginning saw you when we first met in Mr. Onur's room. I thought of you and the feeling continued to grow without me noticing."
Serkan who expressed his heart by looking at Almira so deeply
" Why are you telling me now?"
" Just a reason men in general.”
" It's like being afraid to hurt me or I'm losing my love for having to adjust your lifestyle and social environment.. And yourfamily.. Isn't that Serkan?"
“ I can easily resist all this. But as you know, I've caused a lot of trouble especially for my family for a long time. So..”
“ So... we will part like this?”
Almira who directly cut Serkan spoke and looked at him sharply
“ Although heavy, I always pray for your happiness. Almira, i.”
# TOK TOK TOK
The sound of the door knocking
“ Serkan? You ready yet? My granddaughter is so handsome.. And almira?? You look so beautiful.”
Said the grandmother who walked over to Serkan and Almira
“ I'm ready grandma. We're down now?”
Say Drag while taking a coat hanging and wearing it
“ Yes.. Everyone wants to see you so much. Ayoo we're down.. Almira ayoo son.”
The grandmother smiled at Almira
I bowed my head as if to allow Handkan and his grandmother to leave first.. I know my feet should be stepping out following them right now. But why is it like I can't move? L'm.. I don't want to see her with another woman! Then why are you like this Almira? It's too late, isn't it? Keep your heart and mind! Awake almira!.
Finally my feet could step back from this room and walk down the stairs to the bottom floor.. It looked all so very charming that even Lilian looked so pretty to be beside Emre at the moment. Conscious of my presence Lilian only gave a smile because our distance was a little far and blocked by the other Serkan family.. But why does Lilian's smile look so pitiful to me? Do I look pathetic right now?
Not long after the show started.. Just this time I saw firsthand Serkan's father, Mr. Faruk Emuler with Bu Farrah beside him, as usual looking very charming. It's a perfect couple.. I again listened to Mr. Faruk who spoke using a mixture of Turkish and Indonesian so as not to make jokes for those of us who heard him.. Then arrive at the moment of the core event, where Serkan was given full responsibility for the company and did early retirement dived his age which was not young anymore. Walking towards the middle right between them, Serkan courageously accepted the responsibility and they embraced each other like a father to his son..
Then arrive at another core event, the Serkan engagement event. I heard the name Yashinta called by Bu Farrah who made me wonder why my legs seemed to lose energy to support myself to stand. My chest became so tight that it was hard for me to breathe.. Until it looks Serkan and Yashinta standing face to face with staring at each other looks very harmonious with their current appearance. Why do they look happy, and not to me?
" Ma, I'm sorry.. Excuse me, forgive me for letting me through.."
Almira who turned her body walked towards the exit cut through the crowd of guests
" Almira's? Where are you going?"
Said Aunt Fira who tried to stop Almira who seemed to be in a hurry to leave the room
" I'm sorry Almira.. Arrive arrive... The hospital called me and it looks like...."
Almira who rolled both eyes tried to find the right reason
" You won't me.."
" I'm sorry aunt.. Give my regards to Serkan and all.."
" WHAT?? Almira, wait for Almira! ALMIRA!!"
Aunt Fira who raised the voice because she could not stop Almira
Somehow the memories of the first time he met her started with a cup of coffee.. Second winter where the snow looks beautiful.. The first time when it required us to act as lovers.. The time we spent, the time chatting in the beautiful Bosphorus Strait.. Conflict and dissent.. The spring we spent playing in the city recreation park with the others, when I woke up accompanying him when he was sick.. Last time I was hurt because of that. The memory of him taking care of me attentively.. Even here he has not changed at all even for his treatment of my family.. Almira.. You're....
" Sister, Almira came home. I just heard it from Aunt Fira.."
Said Emre with a gasp of breath after running in following Lilian behind her
" I'll catch up with him! I'm sure he hasn't gone yet.."
Said Serkan who lowered his head and passed away leaving Emre and Lilian
" What? But leave it if you don't stop now.."
" Shhhh.. Let it go."
Emre who pulled Lilian's hand tried to stop her
" But Emre. How will they be?"
" Let time answer. We help them if they need our help. As much as we can don't make the atmosphere more cloudy for both of them."
Emre who looked at Llilian with a serious look as if trying to warn Lilian
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# 2 Years Later
" ALMIRA, IF YOU CONTINUE LIKE THIS, THEN I WILL HAVE THE SECTION CHIEF GIVE YOU A DISCIPLINARY LETTER!"
Said Almira's co-worker, Doctor Jodi of Surgery
" As I said. I'm not asking for the schedule to be canceled! I only asked to step it down for 2 days until the patient's condition stabilized."
" ON WHAT BASIS DO YOU DARE TO BE LIKE THIS?!"
" The patient's condition is exhausted, can't you see it?. He was already too sick because he was undergoing therapy for the cancer he suffered. I only ask to give you a day if you insist. Please Doctor Jodi, if not then he will.."
" CANCER IN HIS BODY WILL SPREAD! AFTER ALL, HOW DARE YOU CROSS HERE OVER YOUR SENIORS, EVEN YOU FORGET WHO I AM IN THIS HOSPITAL!."
Doctor Jodi is increasingly looking full of anger
" The patient will die if he remains in surgery today. Trust me!"
" So you doubt my ability in the operating room? THAT MEAN?! WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING? TAKE THIS PATIENT TO THE OPERATING ROOM!!"
" GOOD."
Speak to some of the sisters who will accompany during the operation time
Hands clenched and hearts that held back anger became silent standing petrified helpless of a more powerful figure and felt priority. Drawing on the thought of another path in tenure and dirty play, it will definitely be found wherever I work. The operating room light was on and there was nothing else I could do right now, other than just waiting for news and praying for the safety of the patients who were counseling me for the past 3 months..
Silence and walking forward and backward would only make me feel more agitated. Realizing that time was going on, I could finally see the operating room lights dimming and the operating room door was open.. It was seen that the nurses who passed me were bowed as if they did not dare to look at me at this moment. What the hell's going on? The patient survived, right?. Impatiently, I am, finally I ventured myself into the operating room and it turned out that the prayer that was said turned into a humiliation that I really wanted to shout when I saw the condition of the patient who was lying stiffly covered in white cloth throughout body.
Standing staring intently at the figure of a man who also lowered his head as if he did not dare to look at me who was still inside the operating room, it made me lose my mind by breaking into the room and kicking him to fall on the floor.. Everyone screamed and shut their mouths as if they couldn't believe what I was doing right now, but I did not feel at all guilty for kicking a Doctor who did not carry out his vow while getting the title of Doctor he held, until finally I ended up in the Hospital Head Discipline Room.
" Doctor Almira.. We know you are only doing your duty, but we still do not allow your behavior to fellow Doctor Partners to feel embarrassed by you.."
Said the Chief to Almira who was standing before him
" I know it's Professor. What disciplinary action will I accept?"
" For a while your work will be given to your colleagues. Then you, look at this.."
The head of the section handed over a paper map to Almira on his desk
" Isik Mectup Hospital? The international hospital? Where is this hospital? Why haven't I heard of it?"
Said Almira who looked confused after reading the contents of the map
" Doctor Almira, that hospital was in town when you took your S2 education.."
" istanbul?.. Turkish?"
" yes. I heard there was a rebellion in the border area that has now been successfully resolved. But the Hospital gave a statement about the shortage of medical personnel and asked for help to the Hospital who worked together like this Hospital. Since we assume you're familiar with the language and some of the customs there, your job is to conduct therapy counseling to adults, especially children who are traumatized by this rebellion."
" Be, how long am I gonna be there?"
" As long as your disciplinary action is over, that is for 3 months."
Silence and thought drifted, why was I forced to be drawn back to the place I wanted to avoid? What is this destiny?.. But can only be silent and re-accept this destiny, Suratan, finally with a plane ticket that was placed with a period of a day for me to get ready and immediately fly back to a place that I thought was very unlikely I set foot there again.
Arriving at home, again giving news that is less soothing.. Looks Papa and Mama who objected but can only be silent and turned away leaving me into his room with the sound of moaning cries of Mama who is being soothed by Papa who also sounded full of worry to me.. Quietly by walking up the stairs and to the room to prepare all my needs, finally all was finished and just wait for the time tomorrow which is the time of my departure.
Andre and Talita who drove me to the airport looked so sad and hugged me tightly to make sure that all my needs were available until unconscious when we turned back and wave our hands together another with a smile full of worry that I myself do not know how will my condition when there later..
. . . . . . . . . . .
" Doctor Almira? Introduce me is Doctor Gulsen and this is Doctor Filiz who is none other than my wife.. We're representatives of the hospital who will be colleagues during your time working here.."
Dr Gulsen, who tried to explain using Turkish, took Almira's suitcase to put it in the trunk of the car
" Call us by name, Gulsen and Filiz. I know you need a real readjustment considering it's been a long time since I haven't been here.."
Said Doctor Filiz who smiled in Turkish and opened the car door for Almira
" Thank you, you're very understanding.."
Almira, who was embarrassed, smiled, lowered her head and got into the car
" Tell me, what happened and what should I do?"
Almira asked during the trip to the hospital in Turkish
" You take it easy, it's safe. But sometimes you do not feel surprised or afraid when there are hours of examination that cause you can not do activities outside.. It's just to keep the security.."
Gulsen tried to explain using Turkish
" You'll take us to a special inn in collaboration with the hospital. Relax, even though the inn is ordinary, but the facilities there are like a hotel so you do not need to worry, especially it only takes 10 minutes for you to walk to the hospital because the distance is not far.."
Filiz tried to explain back in Turkish
" Tomorrow you'll start work, because tonight rest, remember the length of your flight is not short.. We'll be waiting for you tomorrow at 08:00 in the morning in the main Lobby of the Hospital.."
" Alright, thank you very much Gulsen.. Philiz.."
3 month.. I hope everything goes well and nothing happens.. Silent gazing at the autumn scenery along the way with the cold air made forgotten memories perch for a moment in my mind saw the dried leaves brownish yellow after the drought and fall fall down like my memories of him which stopped this season.