Back To Me (Byun Baekhyun)
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It felt like Hana wanted to slap the face of the man in front of her who kept watching her eat. If this had happened first, Hana would have been smiling wrongly, but now she had to hold herself back.

"I've been gouging at your eyes for a long time, Baekhyun!" Hana glanced lazily.

Baekhyun laughed, "Hahaha... How funny is that?"

"I'm not joking."

"Indeed yes. But for me you're always funny."

"Stop being so sweet! You weren't like this! Cringe, you know what?"

Baekhyun laughed again, "It was my fault. I'm usually chased, then I survive. And now I'm chasing you, grabbing you to see me again."

"You're here with me, but I want the old Hana."

Hana was silent while looking down, she was shocked when Baekhyun's hand moved wiping his hair that was almost exposed to food.

"If you think letting me go is the best decision for me. Not at all. The woman I want is just you. Her mother's my children."

Hana grunts her head, "Kids? Our daughter is only 1!"

"Oh? Da? But in the future, who knows, right?"

"I'm not perfect" replied Hana again.

"You deserve better, Baek!"

"Free! Why do I get the perfect or the best if my happiness is only with you?"

"To have me walk away from you on the grounds that I'm happy, that doesn't make any sense at all."

"You've always said I know. You are! You're the one who knows Hana!"

Hana was silent until Baekhyun resumed his words.

"You know so well for my happiness! You think with other women I'll be happy, that's pretty damn pretentious! The reality is not like that!"

"Hana, listen and look at me!"

Baekhyun grabbed Hana's chin to make her return his gaze, "Maybe very difficult for you. But try to forgive yourself. Make peace with yourself. I know that wound hurts so bad, right? That jerk cut a wound you can't forget, I know! But it's not your fault, at all!" Said Baekhyun who was now grasping both hands of Hana tightly.

"I originally intended to follow your desire to find another woman, honestly because I was too hurt to be dumped like this by you. But I realize, it's not easy for you, is it?"

Hana nodded weakly along with her shedding tears.

"Stop hurting yourself. I swear by anything, I love you for who you are, Hana. Besides, it didn't damage you anyway, you're not disabled, that guy's brain is defective!"

"You may hate him as much as you can, even to death, but don't hate yourself."

Hearing Hana's last sentence sobbed just like that. Ja. Hana really hated herself. So much so that he did not want the man he loved was still with him.

Baekhyun who was in front of him immediately moved his seat so beside Hana to immediately grab the woman into his arms.

"I'm sorry..."

"I said you weren't wrong, baby."

"I hate myself and I hurt you indirectly. Sorry Baekhyun."

"Yes, I'll forgive you if you've forgiven yourself."

Hana did not answer, all she did was tighten her embrace of her husband.

***

"Dad... mother... I want to go home!!!" Hyuna whines at her father and mother who can finally come to see her simultaneously.

"In a moment, that's why you need to heal!" Hana says.

"I'm healed, see father and mother come with me happy."

"My pain is gone" Hyuna said, causing Baekhyun and Hana to meet face-to-face. The hearts of the two were melted with the words of their daughter.

"Certainly so?" Ask Baekhyun.

Hyuna nodded confidently.

"Then mom and dad have to continue to be together for Hyuna to heal?"

Hyuna nodded again. Then Baekhyun looked at Hana who was wiping away her tears.

"Hyuna promised to be healed, right?" Hana asked with a hoarse voice.

"Mother and father will do whatever Hyuna gets well."

"Whatever darling."

Hana spoke after kissing the princess' forehead. Baekhyun who saw the sight was trying not to let out his tears.

God, I love them both. Loved her so much. And I can't afford to lose them even if it's just one of them. Baekhyun pleaded with God in his heart.

***

Tonight, Baekhyun and Hana are still faithfully accompanying the princess. The situation is getting better, even if it improves, after the day Hyuna has been able to go home after 3 months in the hospital.

After chatting with Hyuna a lot, taking their daughter out for a while, meeting her grandparents, Hyuna was exhausted and finally fell asleep.

While their parents are busy with their own thoughts so that no one wants to open their voice even though they sit side by side on the sofa.

"Baek..," Hana finally became the first to open her voice.

"Yes?" Asked by Baekhyun, Hana fell silent.

"I'll go to the toilet for a while" said Hana.

Baekhyun nodded, "Be careful."

"I didn't go far."

"Just be careful."

"Ck! Overrated!"

Baekhyun chuckled, yes, Hana must be careful, Baekhyun did not want him to slip and harm the prospective baby in the stomach of Hana.

Hana soon returns from the toilet, "May you step aside a little? I'm going to sleep."

"At a moment," Baekhyun who was sitting held back Hana who was still standing.

"What?"

"Sit here for a while" Baekhyun's pinta patted his thigh.

"Huh? Wh-wh-what for? Don't fuck around!"

"Buck!!!"

"Can you tell me what I want to hear?" Ask Baekhyun.

"What?"

"About how you still love me!"

"God! Still about that?"

"Yes." Yeah." Baekhyun looked at Hana, wiping her hair so as not to block her pretty face.

"Tell me first, what do you know?"

Baekhyun shook his head, "No way."

"You should know what's hidden from me."

"You know that too."

"About what?"

"My feelings!"

Baekhyun was silent for a moment, then smiled slowly.

"So you really feel like I convinced you?"

"Hm..."

Baekhyun immediately smiled widely, he could not help but feel great pleasure because Hana was willing to be honest with her own feelings even though it was still a little tiring.

"You.. still love me, don't you?" Baekhyun asked making sure while looking at Hana deeply.

Hana was weak by her husband's gaze, until she felt she had no other choice but to nod.

"Can I hear it directly?" Baekhyun Pinta.

"Yes Baekhyun, I still love you, me--,"

Hana could not continue her words because her lips were first puffed up by Baekhyun. The man's hand was tightly coiled around Hana's waist, while Hana who received this kiss suddenly and instantly made her defense collapse by Baekhyun when the man begged his friendly lips, licking his lips, making him instinctively put his hand around Baekhyun's neck.

Baekhyun's hand that was on Hana's waist, now raised next to her to land on Hana's back head, pushed her slowly to deepen their kiss.

Hana pushed softly Baekhyun when he felt he was out of breath, then he lowered his head feeling ashamed of himself.

Baekhyun smiled, he wiped Hana's hair for her to slip behind her ear.

"I miss these sweet lips" said Baekhyun with a thumb rubbing Hana's still-wet lips.

"I-I'm going to sleep, Baek." said Hana straight up from her husband's lap.

Baekhyun chuckled to see Hana's face flushed in the wrong manner. The man immediately laid himself down, then spread out his hands on the sofa.

"Cabin! We sleep hugging!"

"You look like a kasmaran!" Reply Hana.

"That's the truth, let's come here!"

Hana finally lies down but still turns her back to Baekhyun because she is still ashamed.

Baekhyun did not protest, he re-hugged Hana from behind.

"So what do you know about Baekhyun?"

"You think?"

Hana quiet.

"I want you to say it first."

Hana sighed, she grabbed Baekhyun's hand for him to put on his shirt to touch his stomach.

"He was there" said Hana.

"It's 3 months old."

"Hyuna will have a sister."

Baekhyun immediately stroked Hana's stomach from behind and grabbed Hana's shoulder, pulling her slowly so that Hana would turn her body to face him.

Their eyes met after they faced each other, then Baekhyun's hand came back down to rub Hana's stomach again.

"Please take good care of him" said Baekhyun. Hana nodded too.

"Thank you for always being a mother to my son."

"God..."

"You know my previous job, why do you believe that this kid is your son? How about a-a,"

Cup

Baekhyun kissed Hana's lips briefly.

"I know you've never done your job right."

"I'm the only client you've managed to satisfy!" Baekhyun replied a little jokingly.

"Baekhyun!!!" Hana hit Baekhyun on the shoulder because of the man's words.

"That's my son, I know, baby."

"Every baby that comes out of your womb will always be my son, no matter what, they will still be my son."

Hana immediately slid into her husband's arms.

"Thank you Baekhyun."

"Thank you for accepting me, loving me, and loving me."

"No sweetie needs."

"I do it because I want to, and because I'm happy."

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay. I'm happy to be able to hug you like this."

Baekhyun kissed Hana's forehead for a very long time, then turned to her cheek before he finally pulled Hana into his embrace.

"Don't go again, it hurts too much if there's no you, Hana."