Back To Me (Byun Baekhyun)
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This morning Hana woke up more than before, and the first time the scenery in the morning was the handsome face of her husband who was still asleep. Baekhyun's position was on his back, one man's hand was coiled around Hyuna's body to give Hyuna a hug, while the other hand was parked on Hana's shoulder. So Baekhyun's position was now in the middle of Hyuna and Hana who were hugging him from the side.

Hana's hand moved to rub her husband's hair. Hana smiled haru, she could feel this again, how she slept beside Baekhyun, and on the deck tightly.

Hana suddenly wanted to do it again. Hannah is not a strong woman. Hana weak. Whatever he tried to forgive himself, it was still difficult for Hana. Staring at Baekhyun still left him claustrophobic due to this feeling of guilt.

Now that Hana knows, Hana is conscious and Hana believes that Baekhyun accepts her as she is, Baekhyun loves her that much. But Hana doesn't want to be accepted as she is, Hana still wants to be more, Hana wants to be worthy of Baekhyun.

How many times he was determined to keep trying to forget everything, Hana couldn't. Everything was still too deep in his mind. After all, the beginning of all that happened was from his selfishness towards Baekhyun, right?

"If I hadn't gone to a nightclub and preferred to wait for her husband, it wouldn't have happened, would it?" Lirih Hana's.

"Stupid! You're stupid Hana! And Byun Baekhyun, you're more stupid for still accepting a stupid wife like me" Hana muttered to herself.

But in fact, without her, her murmur woke her husband.

"Hm? Who's the fool?" Ask Baekhyun.

"Aniya..," Hana answered quickly and tried to show her best smile to Baekhyun.

"Good morning Baekhyun."

Baekhyun did not reply, he turned his back on Hana to remove his hand from Hyuna in order to focus on Hana.

"Hana.., uh...,"

"Hm?"

"Aren't you tired of constantly blaming yourself?"

"...." - ".Hana was silent, was Baekhyun actually awake? Why is he talking like that?

"If I were, to be honest, I'd be tired someday Hana."

Deg.

Hearing that, Hana became frightened.

Hana was afraid that Baekhyun would give up on her.

"Please be firm with your feelings. If you want me to go, say it! I'll really go and not come back."

"That's what you want?"

Hana shook weakly.

"I can get tired of facing you like this, Hana. Can you pity me a little?" Baekhyun again.

"I'm also tired of facing myself, you know Byun Baekhyun?"

"You think I want to be like this?"

"No! No matter how hard I try to get back to the way Hana used to be, I can't."

"Seeing your face always makes me sick from this feeling of guilt, is that my will? Not at all Byun Baekhyun!"

Baekhyun just kept quiet, then got up from the bed.

"We'll talk later. Wake Hyuna up, we have breakfast first, and don't talk about this around Hyuna, she doesn't understand anything and doesn't understand anything about us" Baekhyun said.

Finally with Hyuna who had been awakened, Hana came out of the room and found her husband who was struggling in the kitchen.

"For father's sake" said Hyuna, Baekhyun turned his head and smiled broadly at Hyuna.

"By morning too, Hyuna would not have breakfast pancakes?"

"You dad!"

"Okay, wait, wash your face!"

"It's dad!"

Hana and Hyuna washed their faces in the bathroom in the room.

"Oh so? All right, I'll make it quickly" said Baekhyun.

Hana also brought Hyuna to the dining table.

"Wouldn't you help me?"

Hana's speechless.

"Wouldn't one job be faster when done together? I'm hungry because, hehe," added Hana again.

Hana looked at Baekhyun who was not looking at her, "Okay, mom will help dad. Hyuna wait here, okay?"

Hyuna nodded in spirit, "Okay mother."

Hana went to her husband, and took the fruit that Baekhyun was cutting, "Focus it with the pancake dough, don't get burnt, let my fruit cut it."

Baekhyun did not answer anything and obeyed Hana's orders.

"Awh...." Baekhyun immediately turned to the side after hearing Hana who was grimacing in pain, and with that he found Hana's index finger bleeding from almost slicing a knife.

Baekhyun immediately grabbed Hana's hand, carrying Hana's finger towards his mouth to immediately suck it to make the blood not so much out.

Hana just silently looked at Baekhyun doing first aid for her, after sucking Hana's finger, Baekhyun took Hana to the sink to clean her wound.

"Dad, mom why?" Ask Hyuna.

"Mom's hand is hurt, can I ask Hyuna for help?"

"What father?"

"Please get me the p3k box in that drawer," Baekhyun pointed to a drawer that had a living room.

"Thank you dear" said Baekhyun.

"Mother be careful next time," Hyuna said, making Baekhyun and Hana smile.

"Dear, thank you?"

"Let me treat mom first, can Hyuna wait a minute?"

Hyuna nodded, "Yes dad, treat the right mommy yeah dad."

"Ready sweetheart!"

Hyuna went back to the dinner table and Baekhyun opened the box to take the red medicine and plaster there, he poured a little red medicine on Hana's wound, then wrapped it with plaster.

"Done" said Baekhyun.

"Thank you" replied Hana.

"Heum.., just wait with Hyuna," Baekhyun replied again.

"Okay, sorry to bother you."

"Anything."

Baekhyun refocused on his pancakes while Hana returned to the dining table with Hyuna.

After the pancakes were finished, the three of them ate together, their interaction focused only on Hyuna while Baekhyun and Hana still both avoided the interaction.

After eating, Hana found Baekhyun sitting in the front seat of the yard.

Hana sighed, she realized this was indeed her fault. Perhaps Baekhyun felt unappreciated, however it was not easy to accept someone who was lacking a lot like Hana right? But Hannah wasn't even grateful for that.

He chose to approach Baekhyun, and the man quickly noticed it and raised his hand to gesture to stop Hana from approaching.

"Don't come here first" said Baekhyun.

Baekhyun immediately turned off his cigarette and opened the door so that Hana could enter.

"What's wrong?" Ask Baekhyun.

"I'm disturbing, right?

"Aniya, what's wrong?"

"You want to talk, okay?"

Baekhyun nodded, then pulled Hana to sit beside him.

"You're not working?" Hana asked after sitting next to Baekhyun.

"Later a bit unfortunate," replied Baekhyun before proceeding with the question,

"What's? What do you want to talk about?"

"I'm sorry."

"Don't give up on me Baekhyun."

"I don't want to be left behind or leave you."

"But please give me time to forgive myself. Everything needs a process, I'm sure as time goes on, I can definitely heal, I can definitely move on from this wound."

Baekhyun did not reply yet, he was busy staring at his wife, his hands moving to rub Hana's hair gently.

"You have to meet that man."

Hana fused her eyebrows, "Who?"

"Sin Ho."

Hana's eyes were round, "No. I won't see his face again."

"You should talk to him. You have to apologize from her, she has to kneel to you, so you can forgive yourself, Hana."

"I'll take you to psychology, too, or if I need a psychiatrist, will you get treatment from them?"

"Do you think I'm that sick?" Ask Hana while looking down.

Baekhyun grabbed Hana's face, rubbing Hana's cheeks gently, "No dear. Listen to me, this is for you too. Your trauma, your guilt must be dealt with. You're the one who said you don't want to feel that kind of feeling, right? I want you to be mentally healthy, I don't want to be by my side to keep you sick from that guilt, I want you to be happy, Hana."

Hana looked at Baekhyun then smiled faintly, "If it's for that, I want to."

"But never leave me, Baekhyun" Hana said.

Baekhyun shook his head, "Remember, I won't leave unless you want me to leave. So once again you ask me to leave, I'll really go."

Hana was afraid, unconsciously her hand clasped Baekhyun's hand that held her. He was afraid of actually losing his Baekhyun.

"You threatening?"

Baekhyun chuckled faintly, "Whatever it's called that's important to keep you by my side."

"I'm not going to be too good anymore, I want to be more selfish if it can keep you with me."

"So, don't ask me to leave, because I'll actually grant it, okay?"

Hana nodded her head, Baekhyun immediately pulled Hana into his arms, "Stay here, stay with me, Hana," whispered Baekhyun.

Hana nodded again, then tightened her embrace on the husband.

"Dad, mom why hugging so hard? Why wasn't I invited?" Hana and Baekhyun compactly turned to the little boy standing in the doorway, Yes it is this if it is cool together, both of them, both Baekhyun and Hana often forget that they have a princess who seems to get bigger and bigger.