Back To Me (Byun Baekhyun)
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Hana PoVs

Having Baekhyun, Hyuna and Han was the most beautiful thing I felt in the world. With all the long hard and difficult journeys, I am happy to be with them. Even if I was given the choice of being able to repeat my life better and be happy from the beginning, I would still choose the life I live now. Any pain does not matter if in the end I can be happy with my 3 angels. Baekhyun, Hyuna and Han.

The three of them are my treasure, my life and my soul. Sound lebay. But it's true that way. As often as Baekhyun told me to love myself more than anyone, I still loved the three of them above myself. Because in fact, they are me. They're sick, I'm sick too. They are sad and I am sad too. They are happy, I am much happier.

"Baekhyun, have you ever regretted marrying me once?" I asked my husband, who was sleeping on my lap, as he stroked his hair. Our kids are asleep. Hyuna was in her room, and Han was in the baby box.

"Either."

"I've regretted marrying you, I also seem to have told you about it, right?" Yeah I also seem to remember we talked about this a long time ago.

I was still quiet to listen to him.

"I've been a little sorry because in this marriage you're always sick, you're always getting hurt, I think if it's another guy, he can take care of you more than I can" she explained.

"So you ever feel what I feel? That feeling of unworthiness." I asked."

"Heem. Maybe it would be better if we met in the right way. But in any case it is undeniable that all our past is the process of us reaching this point right Hana?"

I'm nodding. Then he spoke again.

"I used to think you should get a much better man, who not only gave you a wound but a whole happy one. Not like I'm with a lot of threats. But even though I am sorry, I feel I have to take responsibility, because what we have lived is not a little, I do not want everything to be in vain. That's why I chose to survive. Now that regret is no longer there. I'd regret not being able to meet you. And if we don't go through all of our sick and hurtful pasts, we're not necessarily at the point we are at right now, are we? Happy with our two children. So I no longer regret it at all."

Yep. He is Byun Baekhyun who always makes my heart tremble with all his words. Words that are not only empty but also done with real action.

"If you?"

"Do you regret being in this marriage?"

"Still, before you say that."

"You know your wife sucks, I've always regretted every single thing, my past, I'm not as good as you can forgive her and make peace with it. It takes a lot of time. But thanks to your words, I became more aware that it was true, if all we went through was our process to this point, whatever it was, as you say, as you say, without that pain we can't be as happy now, can we?"

"Thank you Byun Baekhyun."

I looked at him from above, while he whose position was still on me nailed his hand moved to rub my cheek.

"What we're doing now is still a process."

"There will still be many pains and wounds that we may feel now or later."

"But Hana, whatever stays with me, right?"

Baekhyun always begged me for that. He always seemed afraid of losing me when he said that. I felt like I had a new trauma for him. Because of the fact I left him.

I'm afraid to promise anything. I was afraid that things would not be on my side to fulfill that promise. But I believe in my husband. We can definitely hang on together. Whatever it is.

"Yes." Yeah."

"I'm here, and I'll always be here."

"You too? Stay with me."

"I will" he answered.

"Yes, let's go to sleep!" Baekhyun woke up from his sleep on my lap. But just as I wanted to lie on the bed, Han's crying voice suddenly sounded.

"Is he hungry?" Ask Baekhyun, come to me who is now carrying Han.

"It can be" I replied.

"Is the ASI supply in the refrigerator still there?"

I shook my head when my husband asked me that, because I remember I had not pumped yet, and this afternoon was the last stock.

"I'm going to suckle her straight away" I said.

"You go to sleep, you're going to Japan tomorrow, right? You need to rest."

Ja. Baekhyun is going to Japan for work. His career is getting more successful, his name is getting bigger and I'm getting proud of him.

"No, I'll be with you first" she replied.

I haven't answered because Han's crying is getting louder, I take a position sitting on the edge of the mattress and then start breastfeeding my son after removing some buttons for a nightgown.

"Tomorrow your flight in the morning, right? There too you must be busy, must rest enough!" My words again now looked at Baekhyun after Han became calmer because he had gotten his food

The man sat down beside me and watched Han suckling, smiling before his eyes met mine, "Han looks so hungry?" said it. Look, he ignored my words.

"God..."

"In a moment, Han also seemed to not be long, look at his eyes again closed," he refocused on Han. Baekhyun's gaze at Han was always enthusiastic, it was seen that he loved his son very much, as well as when he looked at Hyuna. He's the best father. And I'm grateful my kids have a father like him.

I gave up and let her wait for me to breastfeed Han. Fortunately, as Baekhyun said earlier, Han began to close his eyes again and finally fell asleep.

After making sure she was completely asleep, I put her in the baby box again.

"You've been fucking Han so now you're fucking me!" I was made to glare somewhat at the words of my husband.

"No. If all you think about is we'll make love tonnage, not Hana! It was yesterday, hehe..."

"Dry!" He who had already laid his body on the bed pulled me to catch up with him.

After I slept beside him, he immediately hugged me, hiding his face in the recess of my neck.

"Some days later I can't feel this, so you're gonna have to hug me all night, okay?"

I chuckled as I combed his black mane with my fingers, "Bas spoiled! Just tell me you were jealous of Han."

"Just right!"

"May I do like Han?" Ask jahil.

I immediately pinched her waist, "Sleep! It's late and tomorrow you have a morning flight."

Now that Baekhyun is chuckling, he kisses my forehead, then my cheek and lastly my lips, "Okay, baby."

"I'll sleep now."

"Have a nice dream."

"You too."

I kissed her forehead before catching up with her to close my eyes and go to each other's dreamland.