Back To Me (Byun Baekhyun)
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Baekhyun PoV's

Marrying. One thing I deleted in my dictionary of life. Never imagined before that I would be in 1 commitment as serious as that. My past is the cause. Wounded to see my own mother having an affair in front of my eyes, it made me distrust women. The woman I call my mother has broken my heart, let alone my father. Cheating even to the point of having a child from her forbidden relationship made me hate her. Hating his cheating partner is also of course even though I don't know him. And their children too.

For me. Jaemin is a wound. His presence is ruining my family. Her birth made the marriage of father and mother messy and even made the mother decide to end her life. Ja. That was my thought before I met Hana.

Park Hana's. The woman I used to always call in my heart as a brash woman who has entered my life at will. I thought I could be as evil as a jerk man who easily leaves and is not responsible for a woman carrying her child just like Jaemin's real father. Let alone me and him doing that outside of the element intentionally. We don't know each other. And it was just an accident.  But the truth is, I'm not that asshole.

Maybe what everyone knows, the thing that makes me finally want to marry Hana is my father's legacy. In fact, it's not that limited. Hey, I'm not that crazy with treasure.

Back then, I saw how dad had a good conversation with Jaemin. I don't know what they're talking about, but they seem familiar. Dad looked very sincere when he looked at Jaemin, but Jaemin was not his flesh and blood. Jaemin is not his real son. Jaemin was the son of those who had hurt him. Then I felt slapped. My father, even though I was annoyed at him back then for always urging me to get married, he was still an idol to me. Dad was the most sincere person in my life at that time before Hana came into that category. So when I saw the sincerity he loved Jaemin, I remembered Hana, I remembered the content, yes I remembered my son.

My kid. He had me as his real father, and I just ran away and chose to eliminate him while my own father sincerely raised a child who was not his own. I'm so ashamed of that.

Then that's how I finally came to Hana to propose to her. Ja. I decided to marry Hana, just for the sake of my son.

"You're a really good father" said Hana when I finally told her about it after all this time. I don't know, but being considered a jerk for choosing to marry Hana for inheritance makes me more comfortable because I feel guilty for thinking about eliminating my own child.

"You're Baekhyun's good man" Hana praised again.

Hannah. My wife is very good at praising people. But if you do it for yourself, it's very difficult. Not after he meets Su-Ji, my friend who became his psychologist. Now Hana was more able to appreciate herself.

"I don't know if it wasn't with you, would I fall in love with this?" I asked myself in front of Hannah.

While Hana just chuckled, "Can. You have an incredible heart and love in you, Baekhyun. I'm just a lucky woman who got that heart and that love."

"But I think it's you who made me have such an amazing heart and love."

"No. I didn't do anything for you."

Though much he did, do not forget that Hana was the one who took a big role to make me finally forgive massalu, and make peace with the situation.

"No, you do a lot for me, even without that reason I can love you just because it's you. Park Hana, not the others."

"But---," when I argue like this I'll lock her lips with mine so she stops talking.

"Whatever it is. I'm grateful that you're the one. The one God chose to have my heart."

"Like you feel lucky to have my heart, I'm also lucky to have yours."

Hana just kept quiet with a smile, she put her hand on my neck and then put our lips back together briefly.

"Stop talking Byun Baekhyun. Your voice, your words always make my heart go wrong. So stop 'cause I can pinch."

I laugh, my Hana is always funny huh?

I don't think my marriage will last long with her. Remember there was no love in our marriage. I was just thinking about how I should be responsible for my son. That'sthat's all.

But it turns out with all that Hana is. It can make me fall this deep. Hana is beautiful, kind, funny and perfect in her own way.

"Stay here huh Hana. I'm asking you to please, stay with me whenever."

My fear was marriage. Relation. Commitments. Now my only fear is losing Hana, losing Hyuna and Han. Lost family. Lost all my love.

"Yes Baekhyun. I'll stay here. With you. With Hyuna and Han."

"Not yet. Han is still not even 1 year old and Hyuna is also a child."

"How many children do you want?" My toot.

"Actually 2 is enough. Woman 1 and man 1, and I already have it. But if you still want to have more, I'll be happy too."

"If you? How many do you want?"

I just smiled at him, before finally making a sound, "Two is enough. I'll follow you Hana. You're pregnant and giving birth. So it's all in your hands, right?"

"You sure you don't want to anymore?"

"I said it's up to you baby, I really don't care if there's only Hyuna and Han. They are enough too. And it can also increase if that's your wish."

"But for sure...."

I hung up my words, he raised his eyebrows in curiosity.

"What?"

"It must be practice to keep his son from quitting."

"Buck!!!" He pinched my waist the wrong way.

"No, right? We're gonna keep doing it, right?"

"As you wish, dear."

I smiled. She rarely calls out the last word. So when he did it once, my heart was pounding. Haha. Yes, but that's the fact.

"You now?"

"You haven't taken Baekhyun's bath yet!"

"You too!"

Ja. We were both just sitting on the bed. While Hyuna and Han who is now 3 months are being invited by her grandparents.

"Then, take a bath together?"

"We did it in the bathroom?"

"Can I refuse if you ask?"

I smiled with satisfaction, "Of course not honey. I know you want to have me as big as I want to have you."

"That's the answer."

"OKAY. Let's take a shower!"

Just like that I carry her body for me to take to the bathroom and....

Yes already.

This is our privacy. Hehe.