Back To Me (Byun Baekhyun)
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All the guests Hana and Baekhyun had gone home, Hyuna had also gone to bed so now they were both going to get ready for bed, Hana was waiting for Baekhyun who still had business in the bathroom.

"Baekhyunis..." Hannah called her husband who had just come out of the bathroom.

"Yes baby?" Hana is still often mistaken if called that way by Baekhyun. Her husband was getting sweet with her attitude towards Hana.

"I want to tell you about Hera."

Baekhyun approached her and joined Hana who was already in bed.

"Not tomorrow?"

"You rest first, sleep."

"It won't be long, I'll say it now."

"Alright, so how did you meet Hera again?"

Hana also recounted her meeting with Hera in the hospital at that time, she also told him everything Hera said to her without being missed.

"It seems like he came out because he was mentally ill" Baekhyun replied after Hana told him everything.

"Hana, don't hide anything like this anymore, if he's screwing you up how?"

"Yes sorry."

"I'll take care of it again later. Now go to sleep?"

"Tomorrow our schedules are busy."

"Where are you going?"

"First we go to the hospital to take Hyuna check-up, then we check-up your womb too, after that we go to the psychologist to check on you."

"Are you not working?"

"You know what is my priority, honey!"

Hana smiling. "Thanks a lot, Baekhyun!"

"Bored, you've thanked me a thousand times, you know?!"

"A thousand times your attitude made me feel so good that I thank you!"

Baekhyun smiled broadly, "Sounds good."

"I take that as a compliment."

"Thank you."

"Now let's go to sleep!"

Like the previous nights, Baekhyun brought Hana into his arms and they slept soundly hugging each other.

***

"God praise, Hyuna's condition is getting better, so we will only do therapy, hopefully in the future will be better and even healed and normal again" explained the doctor to both Hyuna's parents.

"I've heard of spinal cord transplants for people with doc leukemia, so does Hyuna not have to?" Ask Baekhyun. As a father since his son was diagnosed with leukemia, Baekhyun always find out for himself about the disease, then talk to the doctor to find a bright spot how the best course of action for the princess.

"Because the leukemia suffered by Hyuna is a type of acute lymphostic Leukemia is not a chronic type so for the transplant we see from the condition of Hyuna, this should not be yes, yes, but if in the future Hyuna's condition relapses again can only be done transplant, but Hyuna's condition is now very good, so I hope to be asked to work together to maintain Hyuna's food and healthy lifestyle," the doctor replied, Baekhyun and Hana understood. That means, Hyuna's chance to make a full recovery is still very large.

"Well, thank you doc."

After checking Hyuna's condition, now proceed with Hana's content check-up. Of course with doctor Jongdae the friend.

"There is not often nausea and vomiting like the first pregnancy, only a few times, it can be cut a finger, it's okay right?" Again the one who actively asks here is Baekhyun.

"It's okay, it means that Hana's body can adapt well to her pregnancy hormones, nausea and vomiting are not the main indicators of healthy or not pregnancy. After I checked, the content was much better than last time, kept physically and psychically," explained Jongdae.

"Oh yeah, since it's been in the 4th month, so it's pretty safe for you guys to hook up, just have to stay careful, don't be too--,"

"I know," Jongdae's remark was cut by Baekhyun, both of whom had already heated up their cheeks when Jongdae discussed that one.

Baekhyun looked at Jongdae expressionlessly, making Jongdae and Hana chuckle, "Alright, that's all. Everything's great. The point is to take care of the physical and psychic Hana. Don't let stress and diet have to be taken care of."

"Thank you oppa" said Hana.

Baekhyun and Hana with Hyuna who slept in her father's arms came out of the examination room, with the look on her face. They are happy to have 2 good news today.

"We go to my father's house, let Hyuna there, we just met a psychologist, I'm afraid Hyuna is exhausted" said Baekhyun.

Hana nodded and they went to her father Baekhyun's house to leave Hyuna there.

***

Baekhyun and Hana go to the psychologist's practice after escorting Hyuna to her father's house. The best and most trusted psychologist Baekhyun has been looking for in Seoul. The psychologist who turns out to still know Baekhyun because they are 1st High School, also with Chanyeol and Jongdae.

"I can't believe Byun Baekhyun now has a wife as beautiful as this, even pregnant with a second child? Well, that looks so happy, doesn't it?" Her name is Su-Ji, Bae Su-Ji is complete, the woman immediately welcomes the friendly Baekhyun and Hana who come to her place.

Before this Baekhyun had already contacted Su-Ji, to at least tell what happened to his wife.

Baekhyun briefly asks Su-Ji, "Is bringing her to you right? Or should I go to psychiatry?"

"For the first step, bringing it to me is just right. After the first consultation later, it can only be decided whether your wife should be handled by a psychiatrist or just me as a psychologist."

So now Hana is already with Su-Ji in the consulting room while Baekhyun is waiting outside.

Hana told me everything, the incident, even about her feelings that felt unworthy of her husband.

"The first thing you should do is, rewire your thingking, change your mindset Hana. You're a victim of sexual assault, not a perpetrator. You didn't do anything criminal, or intentionally hurt Baekhyun, your own husband. It's all out of your control, right?" After Hana told a long story, now Gilira Su-Ji is talking.

"Maybe yes, it's not my fault. Slowly I realized it. But that doesn't change the fact that he touched me, I was touched by a man other than my own husband and that's the problem. I still think it should be a disability in my life, you know? Baekhyun is near perfect, one point of his imperfection is simply because he has a wife like me" replied Hana.

"Not so, Hana. You have to change your perspective on worth and perfection."

"Perfection or perfection is not the achievement of life. The perfect definition for Baekhyun might be different, what if he feels perfect for having you? Has a figure he loves."

"But it doesn't make sense, does it?"

"Why doesn't it make sense? What if the position was reversed, something happened to Baekhyun and made him not as perfect as before, what would you do? You threw it?"

"Of course not."

"You're gonna keep it, right?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Why?"

"Because I love her."

"And that's what Baekhyun did for you too Hana. Try to position it as if you were someone else. What if someone else had fared like you, you would have punished him like you insulted yourself? Are you gonna judge him if he's not worth it like you're judging yourself?"

Hana is speechless, she tries to absorb all of Su-Ji's words into her mind. Trying to connect him with his heart and mind. Su-Ji grabs her hand, grasping tightly to give her strength, before returning to speak,

"Hey, Hana, you know? That feeling of worthless or your sense of unworthiness is not a true feeling. It's just a belief you built yourself in everything that happened to you. So, you have to give up that belief, because it's wrong. It's not easy to get away from it, but you can, slowly. Like I said, rewire your thingking, first. Change your point of view. See yourself as someone else. First maybe you'll feel sorry for him, empathy, then eventually turn into affection. Sweetheart you finally got from you and for yourself."

"You're a good person, and try to be kind to yourself, too, Hana. I tell you, you are great person. I even salute you, you can make Baekhyun fall in love with you. The man who never wanted to marry and fall in love, now you can fall in love with you, have children from you and build your little family. Realize not that you have that power? Power that no other woman can have. That makes Baekhyun fall in love."

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Note:

Guys, I'm not a child psychologist, or a person who knows a lot about mental health and the like. So, what am I writing here if there may be something that is not the same as it should be, mon maap ya. hehe.

I keep trying to research and then I develop my own opinion. Hopefully there is something you can take away from all of Su-Ji's messages for Hana yaa....

Oya, this abis I will rarely update, because it has not nyetok part again, jd abis nulis directly publish😌

Hope it stays on waiting...

Okay.. c u✨