Between Sense and Wound
Hatred
..."And in the end I gave up, all this time I tried to close my eyes to the thing you were doing behind my back, but because I wanted you to be alone, we ended up splitting up, even though I never wanted to,"...
Naera applied lipstick on her pale lips, for the first time, naera came out of the house, it was almost two weeks not good condition, naera fell ill many factors of mind, also she was pregnant
just after he finished breakfast, naera again felt his stomach forced to regurgitate all of his stomach contents, he said,
his legs are squeezed, after removing his entrails, this is what naera faced these few days, a common thing that often pregnant women feel
naera wiped her lips, cleared the remaining liquid from there, the beautiful eyes were glistening, the hollows were clearly visible on both naera cheeks, the blackened eye bags were clearly drawn on her face.
"Wait for mama kai, mama will pick you up"
"naera drives her car to kai school, she can't wait to meet her son, on the side of the road she sees a cotton candy seller, naera tau kai is so fond of cotton candy, naera stopped by to buy her favorite panda-shaped cotton candy kai.
"funny, rich my son"
"thank you sir"
"iya neng "
arriving at school, naera is not allowed to enter by the guard, because previously they all who were there had gotten a message from cool to not let kai meet his mother.
"sir, I want to see kai, my mother, father has no right to deny me"
"sorry ma'am, but this is a request from our cool mom who doesn't dare to argue"
"i am the mother sir, I am the one born with my son, why I cannot meet him "
"sorry ma'am, cool mom threatened to revoke this school's operational assistance, if we let mom meet kai
"pa I beg you to let me see kai, I'm his mother sir"
"sorry you can't"
naera can not afford to compete with the Vin family, naera prefers to wait until kai out.
after a long wait, Kai finally came out
"mamaahhh" kai ran to meet his mother, the teacher who accompanied kai could not stop it, actually they also did not have the heart to see naera.
"son of maamahhh, mama kangen son"
naera hugged the kai tightly, smirking her cheeks nonstop
"mamah Wherever, kai kangen mamah, mamah have no love kai again ya "
"koh Son said rich, mamah dear kai, son, we go home, yes,"
kai shook his head making Naera worry
"loh why dear, kai ga kangen mamah "
"you don't love kai, you live in the same papah, mamah evil"
naera's heartache heard kai's words
"who said son, mama dear kai, what a pity, try to see mamah Buy kai favorite cotton candy"
"Tante Clara and Nene who said, mamah went with other men, ninggalin papah, papah sad, every night papah talk the same photo mamah, but mamah never came home "
"i'm not going, mama don't go, son"
"NAERAA"
the sound of the roll out came from the cool who came to pick up kai with Clara
kai ran over to Clara who had spread her arms
"KAIY"
"kai ga want Sama mamah, mamah has made papah nangis, mamah naughty"
"i'm the one with my mom" Naera tried to get closer but Clara pushed her body first
"mending you go, you gamalu already rejected his own child
"you who should be ashamed, you who should reflect, you who have damaged the household relationships of other women, where YOUR CONSCIENCE AS A WOMAN "
"DIAAAAM, SILENCE YOU CHEAP WOMAN "
"you never deserve to be with my son, your degree is different from my family, you don't deserve my son, realize NAERAAA sadaaar"
"YOU ALWAYS MEDDLE IN MY HOUSEHOLD, WHAT's my fault with you, now that your wish has been fulfilled we parted ways, why now you make my son hate his mother, whyaaaa" naera could not stand her tears anymore
"because you are miskiiiin"
kai who was already in the car thrashed to meet his mother, seeing the blood coming back out of the mother's nose made kai afraid
"kai, quiet"
"ma'am sick Aunt, nose bleeding mama, mamah must be pain Aunt, kesian mamah"
kai continues to rebel but Clara holds him back
naera looked at her in-laws face, with a thick liquid that never stopped coming out, her hands clinging to each other begging her mother-in-law to be allowed to meet with kai
"please, let me talk to my son, please"
there is a sense of pity in the heart of cool, cool also surprised to see the red liquid coming out of the nose naera, cool who had intended to help Naera but he paled because Clara had held her wrist
"ayo Auntie, we're home"
they leave naera helpless, naera becomes a spectacle at kai school, they pity but are afraid to help.
"kaiiiiii, don't go son"
"kaiiiiii, dear kangen mama"
"kaiiiiiii"
...
"is that woman sick?"
"don't think about Auntie"
"but raa, that woman doesn't look good either"
"maybe aunty karma"
"nene let's go home to see mamah, mamah must be in pain alone, no papah no kai nolongin "
"nene's home, ayoooo"
kai shook his wrist coolly, but the old woman was silent, her mind still fixed on Naera who was resting on her feet with a pale face, pretty eyes, blood flowing down her nose, cool also had time to pay attention to the woman's stomach that was slightly distended, contrary to her thin and small body
"what is she pregnant "
"siyapa who's pregnant Auntie "
"ahh, there's nothing"
...
naera was still on the road, one teacher who could not bear to see the condition of naera tried to help her to stand, but Naera refused, she tried to stand alone, getting into her car
naera hit the steering wheel, her heart was so hurt to hear her son hate her so much, all her heartache had not recovered but now it was growing
naera hit her chest tight, oxygen seemed to disappear from the air
"why should this be why "
" why did everyone go, Vin the person I trusted the most, just broke that trust, kai , my son , my darling, now so hate his own mother, what's my fault , whataa"
amidst his cries, naera muttered to herself
"i'm tired, I want to give up"
"your son will not leave mamah right son, you will continue Nemanin mamah right son, you will not go right, you will not hate mamah right"
"be the amplifier of mama son, no one wants the presence of mamah anymore, not with your papah not with your brother, they hate mamah "
naera returns to her car, returns home, she needs a backrest now, she needs her mother, she needs a tranquilizer from her mother, naera needs a hug, enough she has to hold everything herself, today he is going to Bandung to meet his parents, no matter what things will be in his parents' minds, after seeing the situation.
"Hallo well, I'm not busy today"
naera put her clothes in a suitcase
"don't want to, why"
"nae wants to go to Bandung can pick up nae not yah"
"you're both the same, Vin mana kai"
"nae himself well, kai same Vin in his mother's house kai"
"you want to go to Bandung"
"pengen only "
"yes, I'll pick you up, this is the way, I'll close ya"
"yes, thanks dad"