Bonds Without Love
ITC #92

"Mas, why are you down?" Erina asked when she saw Bisma get out of the car. Erina and Bhishma were in front of Soraya's house, they came to deliver the fried rice. He said, Soraya craves Erina's fried rice.

"Why?" Bhishma turned the question around while putting on a plain face, even though she actually understood Erina's intention. Now that it is noon, Bhishma may be late to go to the office considering the working hours at the beginning of ten minutes.

But, for Bhishma it does not matter at all, after all no one will dare to reprimand him even though later Bisma is too late. Not intending to be arrogant, because it is in fact the dreamer Bhishma of the people in his company.

Bhishma does not have to worry about being late or what the name is, he is more afraid of the events of the past few days repeated. Bisma wanted to make sure Erina was okay after meeting Soraya, at least that was all she could do for her wife.

"Mas, you could be late for the office." Erina reminded Bisma as she looked at her husband with a frown. Not long after, Bhishma grabbed Erina's hand and took her to walk towards Soraya and Farhan's house.

"We can go to the office after dropping off the fried rice for Soraya." Bisma said before they finally arrived in front of the minimalist house, then Bisma knocked on the door and ignored Erina's gaze to her.

"Why are they so long?" Mumbled Bisma when the door in front of him did not open. Bisma realizes Erina continues to stare at him, but tries to continue ignoring Erina's gaze until Erina finally makes him have to give up.

"Dear, you know? that adoring look of yours is too much! you're making me nervous!" Bhishma looked at the woman beside her and made their gazes meet, Bhishma suddenly gulped at Erina's eyes.

Originally, Bisma had intended to pretend to be nervous, but Erina's gaze made her really feel very nervous. Bisma wanted to avoid Erina's gaze on her, but somehow she felt locked in her eyes.

Erina herself looked at Bhishma while trying to digest what her husband said. We were? did Erina not hear wrong? Is she going to take him to the office? but why did Erina come to her husband's workplace?

Not long after the door opened and someone cleared his throat, Erina and Bisma turned to the source of the voice simultaneously, Soraya stood before them with her pillow face.

"Raya, this is your order fried rice." Erina said as she gave the food box in her hand. Soraya did not receive the lunchbox from Erina's hand, instead staring at the confused Erina for not feeling like she had already ordered the fried rice.

"Said Farhan, you're craving the fried rice I made. Look at! I've made fried rice for you guys." Erina explained her words. It made Soraya look at Erina and Bhishma in turn.

It was not Soraya who told Erina that Soraya was craving fried rice, Farhan who secretly told Erina when the woman called asking what Soraya wanted in her cravings phase.

After having dinner together four days ago, Erina called Soraya every day and asked if she might have something she wanted, but Soraya always said that she didn't want to bother Erina.

Today, because Soraya's phone is very difficult to contact, Erina decided to call Farhan and Farhan said Soraya was really wanting Erina's fried rice so much that Erina was in a hurry to make it.

You are what Erina means is Soraya and the baby in her womb. Because Erina knew at this hour Farhan had left for the cafe, Erina only made fried rice for Soraya, besides who craved Soraya was not Farhan.

Soraya sneered inwardly, she could have told Erina Farhan, even though Soraya had strictly forbidden Farhan to trouble Erina. Although Soraya really wanted the fried rice, but more importantly Erina's depression.

Soraya had tried to resist his desire by making his own fried rice, even Soraya had also returned to sleep. Because it turns out that his fried rice did not manage to fulfill his wish until Erina and Bisma came.

"Raya, please accept the fried rice, we don't have much time here." Bhishma mediated and gave the lunchbox right to Soraya's hand, then again grabbed Erina's hand. "Sorry, we have to leave immediately."

Bisma pulled Erina's hand without accepting rejection, she did not let Erina stay at Soraya's house for too long for fear that there were tears on her face, for whatever reason Bisma would not let Erina cry.

"Maos ..." Erina screeched, she looked back where there was still Soraya standing there, then again saw Bisma walking in front of her. "Why did you pull my hand? me and Soraya are not done ..."

"Mas is late, baby." Bisma's words cut through Erina's words while throwing a smile, she opened the car door for Erina and asked Erina to enter with a slight push. "Special today you must accompany the mas in the office."

Erina who wants to protest chooses to keep her mouth shut, she must remember not to refuse the husband's wishes, after all accompanying the Bhishma in the office is not wrong, there is no harm, Erina also felt bored continuing to be in their mansion.

Meanwhile, the corner of Soraya's eyes flowed after seeing Bhishma's car go from her home yard, then Soraya stared at the food box in her hand and smiled, the water from every corner of her eyes dripping more and more because of it.

"Sorry, thank you, Erin ..."

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"Good morning, Miss Erin." Greet Leo when you see Erina coming. "Over time not to meet, how are you? you look ..." Deheman's loud voice interrupted Leo's words, and Bisma's sturdy body stood right in front of him.

"In the morning, my wife's news is very good that no one like you would ever greet her." Bisma Sarkas said as she greeted Leo's hand that had previously been outstretched to Erina, it seemed like Leo should be reminded back about something.

Because every time Leo teases Erina, it is not Erina's reddened face, but rather the Bhishma's face that seems to hold back emotions, and Leo enjoys it very much, eventually Bhishma is upset because she is jealous of women.

After a long time, she finally met the woman she loved. As best friends, Leo is happy, and they will no longer be thought to be attracted to the same sex because they do not have a lover or girlfriend.

Yes, there used to be a lot of people who thought Bhishma and Leo had a same-sex relationship. Because every time a woman comes to see Bhishma for matters of the heart, the women will surely go home with disappointed faces.

Bisma is notoriously cute in the office, sexy female employees have never been lyricized by him, even one day there are employees who deliberately show their beautiful body shape, Bisma immediately fired the female employee.

Oh yes Rose, the client who met with Bhishma at the marriage of Leo and Krystal, she was one of the women who got the rejection of Bhishma. Before Rose returned home to her father's country, South Korea, Rose once pursued Bhishma's love but to no avail.

"Ck, stop being so stale." Bisma said, then threw Leo's hand and pulled Erina into her study. While Erina just followed Bhishma's steps, she knows what happened between Bhishma and Leo.

"You have changed, my friend." Leo's murmur was accompanied by a special smile. Just like everyone else, Leo's greatest hope for Bhishma and Erina is that they are quick to have children, because sometimes Leo feels sorry to see Bhishma.

Not because Leo knew that Bisma wanted a baby, Leo hoped that Erina would get pregnant quickly so that she could focus more on work, and so that Leo does not see the worried face that Bhishma always shows when in the office.

Bhishma's love for Erina is indeed so great, but it will not be enough if Erina is still devastated by the loss of their child. In fact, Bhishma often tells stories about Erina who sometimes speaks things that smell farewell.

It has not happened for a long time, but yesterday Bisma again told me, I don't know what underlies Erina talking about it, Leo can only advise Bisma to adopt a child to stop Erina's thinking.

At first glance Erina looks fine, the woman is still the same as the first time she met Leo, but actually Erina just did not show it. Erina's sick. Bhishma could lose Erina tomorrow or any other day.

"Mas, are you sure you want me to accompany you in this place?" The sentence was the first to come out of Erina's mouth after the big door in the room closed, she was worried that her existence would interfere with the work of the Bhishma in the office.

"Hm, why? don't you like this place?" Bisma asked softly, then she fused her fingers with Erina's fingers and pulled Erina slowly towards the sofa, Bhishma's facial expression changed instantly as they were just the two of them there.

Erina silently observed around without answering Bhishma's question to her and only according to when Bhishma told her to sit on the sofa, then Erina smiled looking at the picture frame in her husband's room. Their wedding photos.

"Mas, you believe I love you, right?" Erina asked suddenly, she looked at Bisma who was sitting in front of her with a smile. Bhishma did not like that smile, Erina would definitely say something strange and absurd.

"You should know that my feelings for you will not change, and that someday I will leave ..."

"Darling, I'll take a snack for you for a minute." Bhishma's words cut off Erina's words, enough for Bhishma to hear those words come out of her mouth, and no matter what happens Bhishma will not let Erina go.

"Mas, if I don't refuse to part from you, am I being selfish?" Erina asked as she held back the hand of Bhishma who was about to leave and looked at Bhishma with eyes that had started to water. The question always haunts him.

Bhishma did not reply, just carrying Erina's tiny body into her arms, this was the second time Erina asked the same thing and Bhishma really did not know what to answer. Because Bisma is afraid to make mistakes.

"Mas, I love you ..." Lirih Erina's.

The more Bhishma tightened her embrace, she would regard what Erina said as the wind. Besides the word love, Bisma will assume Erina never said anything again. And if love is not strong enough to make Erina last, then Bhishma will prove that their togetherness is imperative.

~ TBC

"Have you not been at the point of loving and being loved, but things seemed to be not on your side? have you ever felt less worthy to be that person's companion or partner?"

"Sometimes, love alone is not enough to make a relationship last. Because there are so many people who choose to disappear so that their love can be happy with others."

"Love is complicated, marriage is complicated, feelings are complicated, and everything in this world is complicated, we won't find it easy to deal with everything, so you enjoy the process."

Regards,

Nur Alquinsha A | IG: light.queensha