Bougenville of Love
53 - Stupid Mistakes.

Because it is finished being fed by the lover, Angga is increasingly unwilling to separate.

"Although you're done eating, you don't go to sleep again, yes. You have to wait at least 30 minutes to 1 hour" Damia said

"Yes, I get it. So, do you want to go straight home? You made sure of me, too, right?" ask Angga

"Hmm .. actually I still want to chat with you soon," replied Damia

..."Though I myself want Damia fast and a lot of rest, but I myself do not want to quickly part with her because I want to continue with her. I'm so bad ... basic, plan!" the inner Angga who cursed himself who was pure towards the lover....

"Then, here ... sit near me leaning back. To be more comfortable," said Angga

Angga also shifted his sitting position on the bed so that Damia could move to sit right next to him.

At that time, Damia also obeyed the wishes of the lover and immediately moved to sit next to the man who was now feverish.

Though Angga has been looking for the most comfortable sitting position so that Damia can lean on him. However, the beautiful sister instead chose to just lean on the head board.

"How, are you comfortable sitting?" ask Angga

Damia just nodded with a smile.

..."Don't be sad, Angga. Damia is not the type of woman who likes to be spoiled with her boyfriend and not insensitive. It is precisely because Damia is sensitive, so she does not want to burden you who are sick by leaning on you. Damia is the type of person who is understanding, caring, and caring. It's enough Damia wants to sit right next to you. You can't expect more, "inner Angga...

"Jadj, what about your college? Is it true that the task is very much until you become busy and late to eat?" ask Damia

"Actually, not really, anyway .. maybe it's just because I haven't been in college for a long time before, so I often feel overwhelmed by the task of college. Like having to adapt again, what else before I have not remembered much about the previous college period," replied Angga

"Then, have you ever had any trouble in college? Have you ever relapsed from trying to remember or remembering something?" ask Damia

"I often remember what happened on campus, but I didn't have a severe headache. At least feel a little dizzy for a moment," replied Angga

"Are you sure it's just that? You're not hiding anything from me, are you?" ask Damia

"Tell me everything is the same. Honestly and with nothing to hide" Damia asked.

Angga was silent for a moment. The man seemed to be thinking, did he have to tell a story or not?

"Actually, at first I was ... everything went well, but lately I have been having difficulties," said Angga

"Why? What makes you feel trouble? Is it about your college assignment or because of your memory?" ask Damia

"When everything went well and I was fine when I was able to remember about the past college days and the problem happened when I started to think back about Rena," Angga replied

"It's been happening lately. All you know is that he was my college friend turned out to be my ex-boyfriend who ignored me because he first felt neglected by me. You could say he cut his relationship with me because he knew that I never had any feelings for him at all" continued Angga

Damia who listened to the lover tell a story can guess the actual outline of what happened.

..."Is that ... cause it's because of me?" damia's mind instantly fell silent....

Damia directly touched her forehead while slightly looking at the base of her nose. It was a sign when he felt something was wrong, either because of his mind, his condition, or the situation he was experiencing.

"What's up, Damia? Are you feeling lightheaded or not feeling well?" ask Angga

"It's okay, I'm fine. Just digesting your story" Damia replied

"This is my problem. I told you because you asked. You don't have to think about it too much" Angga said

"If I hadn't asked, wouldn't you have told me the same story?" ask Damia

"Because it looks like you're that kind of person too. You will only be silent unless people ask you about something, because you are the type of person who does not want to be a burden on others with your problems" answered Angga

"That's right, I'm that kind of person. But, it's also my job to help you out of this problem" Damia said

"What role and who are you helping me with?" ask Angga

"It's definitely as myself, Damia. That is, your girlfriend and nurse" replied Damia

Hearing the reply from the lover, Angga felt very happy. Damia has thought of herself as a boyfriend, not just as a patient.

"So, just continue with your story" Damia asked

"My story just got there. There's nothing else" Angga said

"I can draw the conclusion that I'm dating Rena without any emotional basis and because I can't stand it like that so Rena chose to break up with me. I also don't know why I could agree when Rena invited me to date and indeed Rena always persuaded me to be her boyfriend. He himself also had time to say that in my heart there was another woman. Maybe at that time, I just thought of him as a runaway," continued Angga

"So, apparently .." murmured Damia

Damia fell silent again and Angga realized that.

..."Why was Damia's response silent? Does he think I'm not a good man for making another woman a runaway? Did Damia think that she, too, I made a runaway like Rena? If it's like that, it's bad!" inner Angga...

"That was all my fault. I'm a fool for dating someone when I don't have any feelings for him. But, Damia. I won't make you an escape like Rena. I really like and love you" Angga said honestly.

Damia smiled faintly and looked at the right Angga beside her.

"I wouldn't misunderstand, just calm down. After all, it's just your past with other women. I know it has nothing to do with me" Damia said

"Thank God, if you can understand" said Angga

"What I don't understand even to the point of feeling frustrated is that I'm sure I've remembered everything I've forgotten, but why can't I remember the slightest bit about you? When I try to remember about you, all my memories that have returned I remember instead continue to revolve in my brain until it makes my head feel very sick," continued Angga

"So this is your real problem? Because of this problem you got sick, didn't you?" ask Damia

"Yes, right. Sorry I tried to hide it from you. I just don't think, why is my memory of you even the hardest for me to remember? I was so hesitant, was it true that we used to be friends? It's ridiculous, isn't it?" ask Angga again after answering.

"Right, we used to be friends. You just don't remember it yet. No need to think too much. I've often said before, do not force yourself to remember the past, it will even have a bad impact on yourself. Now my words are proved and you are sick" Damia replied

"Yes, I know wrong .. sorry for not remembering your words well" Angga said

That ssat, Angga tried to grab Damia's hand to hold. However, the beautiful sister instead brushed aside and dodged from Angga's hands quickly. It made Angga feel shocked and confused. The man thought he had made a mistake.

"I'm sorry, I was just a little surprised because of your high body temperature" Damia said

"When my fever has gone down" Angga said

"It seems I'm overreacting. I was wrong" Damia said

"But, Angga .. surely you feel weird about it, right? About the memory of me that you find hard to get again" Damia said

"Yes, right. I feel strange and confused. Finally you understand too" said Angga

"I do understand. Have you ever heard that a memory that is difficult to recall is the most painful memory for a person? That's why you got amnesia, because you blocked the memory of me as self-defense because it hurts you so much" Damia said

"I've heard of such a thing, but it's impossible" said Angga

"Nothing is impossible. What if I ever make a stupid mistake with you?" damia asked who started to lower her head.

"During this time the memory of you is a pleasant thing. If anything, it's just awkward when we just meet again" Angga replied

"That's your new memory, not your old memory. What if what I said was true? Will your liking for me disappear and you'll hate me?" ask Damia again.

"I've known it all for a long time, but it's as if I'm covering it up from you. Don't you feel like I'm hiding it from you because I made a big mistake with you?" ask Damia continued.

"I'm sure you're not like that. No, no more talking about that. However, my feelings for you will not change or disappear, anything else so hate you," replied Angga

"Maybe you have been too satisfied with your current situation and maybe you need to try hard to remember your past. Because sometimes someone needs to get out of his safe and comfortable zone in order to develop better, but if you really want to try this way, it is, then you must be able to prepare well with all the possibilities that will happen, including with the worst possibility. Do not let the reality is not in accordance with the expectations, you even become dropped," said Damia

"I don't want to talk about this anymore. Let's just say we never talked about it. I don't want this kind of thinking, this relationship that we just started is getting worse. Forgetit. If indeed the thing I can't remember is a painful thing, it's better that I don't need to remember it anymore. Because I don't want things that are fun at this time to be damaged or lost just because of unimportant things that have passed" said Angga

"Where can it be like that? But, if you really don't want to discuss this for a while, that's okay. Are you sure you want to assume we never discussed this? Or do you want me to tell you everything about our past so that everything becomes clear?" ask Damia

"don't want. Even if I want to know, at least not for now," Angga replied

"alright. Then, let's just say that I was talking saggingly because I felt tired," Damia said

..."Yeah, like this it's better and it's good enough. I'm sure with my happiness now with Damia, that's enough and I don't have to remember anything that's been going on for a long time, but Damia's just leaving. I'm still not willing, "inner Angga...

"yes too. You have to go home to rest" said Angga

Damia just nodded small. The beautiful sister also stood up from her sitting position next to the lover.

"In that case, I want to go home. If there's no other business, I'll come back tomorrow. Otherwise, I'll come the day after work," Damia said

"Really, huh?" asked Angga while pulling Damia's hand to get closer to him.

As a result, Damia's face stopped at a very close distance to Angga's face as the man pulled his hand.

"I'll do it, but I can't promise" Damia replied

So close is the distance between the two, if it were not for Damia restraining her movements, it might be that at this time the lips of the two had collided with each other.

..."Well .. I think I really want to kiss Damia. Have to hold yourself, Angga. Is it because I'm sick that I want something?" inner Angga who felt the fiery turmoil of romance that smoldering....

"May recover quickly, Angga. I'm sorry that I'm not comforting you, but I'm adding to your mind by telling you half-and-half" Damia said

"I told you I don't want to talk about it anymore and assume I never talked about it. You better go home quickly so you can rest" said Angga

Damia smiled and hugged Angga's body. She smiled because she was happy.

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Seriate.