Bougenville of Love
59 - A Complicated Relationship.

Damia immediately lowered her head in silence because she felt guilty towards her parents.

"Why are you even apologizing, Damia?" ask Rita's mother

"I'm sorry I couldn't live up to Mom and Dad's expectations. The relationship between me and the man that Mom and Dad were dating didn't go well and ran aground in the middle of the road" Damia replied

"When you two are engaged, can't you hold it? Is there no way out?" ask Dodi's dad

"I'm sorry, Dad .." Damia replied in a soft voice as she shook her head slowly.

"Then, I change the question. Did you like Raffa or not?" ask Dodi's dad

"I guess, no. " replied Damia

"Then, how have you felt about being in a relationship with Raffa? Why did you accept this match?" ask Rita's mother

"That's because Raffa is the man that Mom and Dad chose for me. I know Mom and Dad do this because they think about my kindness. I don't like him, but I think that feeling can grow over time. All this time it was not the feeling of like that grew, but there was only a sense of disdain because he was the man of choice Mom and Dad, condolences because he was older than me, and respect because you could say he was my superior. I don't like him at all" Damia said

"Geez, Damia .. Why haven't you been telling me the truth about Mom and Dad? Why hold back only by yourself?" ask Rita's mother

"Because if I were like that, I would only let Mom and Dad down" Damia replied

"Then, other than you don't like Raffa, what's the reason you broke up with him? Haven't you held it well all this time? If you don't want Mom and Dad to feel disappointed, why don't you just keep going?" ask Dodi's dad

"I broke up with Raffa because he cheated. She had another boyfriend while still dating me. I knew it was even a moment of restraint and assumed it was just his khilaf, but I was tired and could no longer hold it or pretend I didn't know" Damia explained

"Is that the woman with Raffa that I saw when I drove you to the hospital?" ask Dodi's dad

"Yes, Dad. Her name is Lisa. She was the head nurse who worked in the same ward as me" Damia said

"Geez, I deserve to know about their affair. They seem to be people who are quite close to you. How can Raffa cheat on you?" ask Rita's mother

"Because he feels with my attitude like this, I am not considerate and do not care about him. Maybe I'm not exactly her type" Damia replied

"Where do you know that? Are you sure that's the reason? Since when do you know that Raffa cheated?" ask Dodi's dad

"I know because I quite often secretly and unintentionally see and hear when the two of them are together and talk to each other. I don't know when exactly they started cheating, but I've been aware of it for the past year" Damia replied

From the moment he discussed his relationship with Raffa, Damia continued to look down in listlessness. The beautiful sister did not dare to look at the faces of her parents and was more unable to see the facial expressions of her mother and father.

"You're not wrong because you're not lying, but why are you hiding everything from Mom and Dad?" ask Dodi's dad

"Sorry ... " There was only one word spoken and even Damia's voice was sounding softly trembling as it held back the guilt-ridden cries inside her chest.

"Dad said, you're not wrong. Why do you keep saying sorry? Damia, aren't Father and Mother enough of a backstop for you until you choose to hide and hold everything by yourself? Why can't you be honest with your own Mom and Dad?" ask Dodi's dad

"I think I've weighed enough on Father and Mother who raised me to this extent. I think I can make Mom and Dad happy with this match. I thought that with the success of this matchmaking I could make Dad and Mom feel happy and repay all the kindness of Father and Mother, but it turned out I was wrong. Not only was it not enough to repay the kindness of Father and Mother, I instead failed to make Father and Mother feel happy and happy because this matchmaking had ended when I made my decision," Damia said

"You're wrong, Damia. Father and Mother betroth you to a man and it is Raffa does think for your good and apart from that, we both hope you feel happy with the relationship you are living with Raffa. Here your feelings are the most important, not the feelings of both of us. Raffa was wrong for cheating, not you. We're both not going to get angry and you don't have to feel guilty. Try to be more open and honest because after all only family can be used as a place to lean," said Dad Dodi

"Dad, right, Damia .. " said Ms. Rita

Damia began to raise her eyes and look at her Mom and Dad. The beautiful sister started crying after holding back her tears for quite a while. Damia tried to keep her crying from sounding hysterical. However, still the beautiful girl could not resist her sobs.

"So, Mom and Dad aren't angry or disappointed with me like this?" ask Damia

"You're like this is still Mom's only son and Dad, Damia. Why are we both angry if you're not wrong? Of course, no. So don't cry" replied Rita's mother

"But I still feel guilty. Because I don't think it's any different with Raffa. We're both the same. He was cheating and had a girlfriend again while still dating me, but I also immediately had a new boyfriend when not long ago broke up with him," Damia said

"I'm sorry, this time I really let Mom and Dad down. I was wrong, wasn't I, Dad?" ask Damia continued.

"You are not the same as Raffa because you did not cheat and broke up with him first" replied Ms. Rita

"When did you break up with Raffa and when did you have a new boyfriend?" ask Dodi's dad

"At the hospital, I myself made a rumor that Raffa and I had broken up 3 months ago. I decided to choose like this so I could break up well. Apart from that I think this is for the sake of win-win solution. Raffa is not considered cheating on Lisa and I am not considered cheating on her new boyfriend. I actually broke up with Raffa 10 days ago and I had a new boyfriend 7 days ago. It was only 3 days. Am I really that petty?" ask Damia again after explaining.

"Although you just broke up 3 days from Raffa, who said you were having an affair because you immediately had a new boyfriend after breaking up? Is that Raffa?" ask Dodi's dad

"Raffa didn't seem to accept it when I chose to break up with him. He was angry when he found out I was close to another man and told me that I was secretly cheating on him while we were both still dating. She said she was willing to break up with Lisa because she didn't want us to break up, but I didn't because I had a new boyfriend after breaking up with her. That's the story, Dad. I'm confused what to do? Because I can't possibly break up with my new boyfriend this time," Damia said

"It's okay, Dad. I was wrong" Damia said

"You will not be considered wrong or cheating if from the beginning you do not accept this match. Even though from the beginning you did not like Raffa at all, you should reject the matchmaking ssat," said Rita's mother

"Me and my new boyfriend have known me for 3 years. We used to be friends for 1 year and immediately lost contact and never got in touch again after that. Because he said he liked me when I was dating Raffa. At that time I had made the mistake of leaving him just like that and cut off our friendship. Maybe actually at that time I already like him, but because I already have a boyfriend, namely Raffa, I refused he even ended our friendship together. I stayed with Raffa so far because I hoped we would fit in so Mom and Dad would be happy, but I was wrong and it was all over" Damia said

"When I was tired of pretending not to know that Raffa was cheating and continued to endure the hard feelings, he was always by my side and comforted me. I feel comfortable with him. It was a feeling I didn't even feel when I was dating Raffa. That's why when he said he liked it again when I had broken up from Raffa, despite having doubts I finally accepted him and we were both dating. This time I will not let go or leave him again. I really like him" Damia continued

"It's Angga, right?" ask Rita's mother

"Where do you know?" ask Damia

"Mom once accidentally saw the recipient of the message you sent and if you read the message from him you always smile. You are not usually like that if you send a message with anyone else," replied Ms. Rita

"Your relationship is very complicated, Damia. Is there any other story besides all this?" ask Dodi's dad

"Everything happened unexpectedly. Actually by chance Angga is an outpatient that I treated at his house. After 2 years of not seeing each other, our first meeting back was when I saw her crash and I immediately took her to the hospital" Damia explained

"He was a patient with amnesia who even forgot about our friendship. Angga doesn't remember anything about me when we were friends for a year. I feel guilty for breaking off our friendship that used to not know the current condition is quite favorable or not. On the one hand, I was relieved that he did not remember my old bad attitude, but on the other hand, of course, I wanted him to recover again" Damia continued

"Have you never told me about your old friendship?" ask Dodi's dad

"I never told it in its entirety clearly and in detail. I was afraid that if he could remember again he would feel disappointed by my old bad attitude and that would make our current relationship worse. What's more now that we're dating, I don't want to break up with her" Damia replied

"I'm really guilty, really bad, and really petty. I'm a coward and a coward" Damia continued

"Then, what do you want now? Will do what?" ask Rita's mother

"I don't know either, Mom. I'm confused myself. Maybe I'll let things go as they are. I didn't even expect to experience something like this" Damia replied

"Yes, if you really do not know what to do and how, maybe you should let everything go according to destiny because not all things must we determine" said Dodi's father

"Mom didn't think that there would be a time when you would feel confused and not like yourself. All because you feel the true love of your life. The things that will determine your way of life in the future will be what it will be. You must be able to pass it by yourself so that you can become a strong and better person, "inner Mother Rita

"Is there anything you haven't told me, Damia?" ask Dodi's dad

"Nothing, Dad. I told you everything" Damia replied

"Then, that's enough and don't talk about it again. No need to blame yourself anymore. I'm sure you can get through this as usual" said Ms. Rita

"Truely said Mother. We shouldn't be talking about something like this outside. At first I wanted to find another better atmosphere so that you are more free to tell stories. I didn't expect the story to be this complicated" Dad said

..."Also true. No one else heard the story of this drama, right? It's a shame .. I even cried so much" Damia said...

Damia wiped away the tears that had started to dry on her face. Even ice cream ordered as a dessert has melted in the glass because it is too late in the story.

"Geez, your ice cream has melted so. Do you want to order another ice cream or do you want another one before we go home?" ask Dodi's dad

"No need, Dad. I'll just eat this one. It's still good. The sweetness still feels. It even feels like drinking milk" Damia replied

Damia also scoops the ice cream that had become water into her mouth. Even the beautiful sister did not hesitate to chug the ice cream that had become like milk from the glass as if drinking it.

"My possession is over. It's only Mom and Dad who spent the dessert" Damia said

Rita's mother started eating again to finish her milk pudding and Dodi's father also spent her tiramisu cake.

"Are you sure you don't want another dessert message, Damia? Then, do we just go home?" ask Rita's mother

"Yes, Mom. We just go home, " replied Damia

"Yes already. Come on, go home .. " said Dodi's father

"But wait a minute, Dad, Mom. I'm going to the toilet first" Damia said

Mother Rita and Father Dodi only nodded small. Then, Damia got up and immediately switched to the toilet. The beautiful sister was about to wash her ugly-looking face and her swollen eyes from crying.

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Seriate.