Cold Man And Miss Stone
66. I'm Going to Go

The scent of kasturi .... Emilia will not forget these three things in her entire life.

The name Mahesa, the scent of Mahesa, and his own name.

Therefore Emilia immediately reached out, feeling better when her hand met the skin of Mahesa's hand which she knew was impossible for anyone else.

"Senior."

"Your eyes are hurt." Mahesa stroked the bandage on Emilia's face, which covered her eyes. "That's my fault. Get angry if you want to."

Emilia shakes.

Even if he lost a limb, he would never blame Mahesa, let alone be angry at her. That is his loyalty.

"Can I ask Senior something?"

"Of course." Mahesa's fingers slipped between her fingers, making Emilia slightly saved from this darkness. "Whatis that? Your eye?"

"That's not an important question. There's something more important." Emilia muttered. "Please answer honestly. What did Senior expect when he put me next to Samuel?"

"Ask more specifically."

"Did I make a mistake?" Emilia looked back though she could see nothing but darkness. "Am I supposed to do something else? I felt nothing from my actions. I am not amused even though they are dead."

"...."

"I'm numb."

Something moved beside his head. Emilia just waited, then suddenly felt something soft being placed there.

"What's this?"

"Little doll. A present for you."

"Senior won't answer me?"

Mahesa laughs. Directing Emilia hugged the sixty-centimeter-high doll, then held her hand again.

"I was expecting something else, indeed," said Mahesa, slowly.

"Senior should have told me." Emilia will do whatever she says. Whatever it is, even if Emilia can't.

"What I expected, Emilia," Mahesa rubbed Rowan's ring on Emilia's fingers, "is that you finish Ahkam without a fuss. You continue what you did in the beginning, until it's all gone, or at least until there's a little left of them."

"I screwed up." Emilia tried to get up. "I'm sorry. I trouble Senior. How many of our men died? How much loss? Is Senior having any problems?"

Mahesa laughed when she panicked. "Emilia, relax. It's not about how much loss."

"But—"

"I was expecting something else, but I knew you'd do this."

If Emilia's eyes were not closed, she was crying right now. There's no way Emilia doesn't know what she means.

It just means that Mahesa already knew Emilia would make a mistake from the start. That meant that he looked at Emilia unable to make the right decision.

"I let her do this, Emilia."

"Senior should have reprimanded my mistake!"

"I want to see you wrong and not live up to my expectations, Emilia." Mahesa encouraged him to lie down again. Keep pressing Emilia's arm to hug her doll. "Stop trying to be perfect in my eyes. That's not gonna work."

"Are you trying to trouble me for longer, Emilia?"

Emilia's hand shook. He tried hard to reach Mahesa, fearing she was too angry to touch Emilia again.

"Listen, my dear." Mahesa still wants to hold it, thank God. "I know your abilities. I know clearly your capacity. You are indeed amazing. But, Emilia, I decided you weren't needed in my plan. So can you now accept iu?"

Emilia squeezed her hand.

"Life needs to be freer, Emilia. Stop trying to live up to my expectations. Understood?"

"But, Senior—"

"I've used you to transact with Samuel. He was willing to hand over control of Oto to me, of course he would also follow me on an equal cooperation contract. Just so she has you."

"...."

"Now, I just want you to stop making yourself tired. I'm in charge of you, Emilia. You're tired, I'm tired."

Emilia bit her trembling lips. "Senior doesn't need to think about my happiness. I'm fine."

"Try to see something else." Mahesa put a small kiss on her forehead. "And .. I'm not going anywhere. We're connected through Samuel."

"That's the same as Senior forcing me to be with him for Senior's sake."

"You refused?"

"I don't like him."

"really?"

"That's right." Emilia hugged her new doll. "I'm going to go. I don't want to be with that Ahkam."

"certain."

"Senior did it again! Senior let me go home then Samuel will catch up with me, right?!"

Mahesa chuckles. "I betrothed you, but not the slightest force. Go anywhere if you want."

"really?"

"Yes. I'm not gonna tell Samuel. But I'll tell him that you forbid me. Contract, remember?"

Emilia nodded. "But Senior hasn't told me."

"What?"

"Why didn't Argantana's death please me?"

"Because it's not revenge, Emilia. You have no grudge against Argantana or Ahkam. You're just mad they're insulting you. You already returned it. No more than that."

Also true. Why should he be satisfied when from the beginning he did not expect more?

"I'll have Nine go with you. He's the best person who can take care of you now."

"Thank you, Senior."

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