Daydreams
B. SEOUL:NEW YORK - 7.2

I closed my eyes on the apartment bed. I tried to calm my mind even for a moment. I think I want to end it all. It makes everything go back to where it was.

At five in the morning I woke up. I take a shower first and change clothes with the ones in the closet. I scanned my phone through an app I bought in Japan for the script of the novel and then saved the file into my google drive. Next I kept his physical crush on the desk. Don't forget I took down an important phone number from my phone book.

I kept Jini and Mino's numbers on the phone I bought, not the phone Jun gave through Yuna. I then remembered about a piece of paper containing Akira's number. Remembering the man who left me drowned in the Sumida River made my emotions rise. Akira can do that!

Lee Umji's special dress. After sunrise I returned the car I rented and paid for it with a credit card.

I'll be heading to the airport by taxi. I hurriedly wanted to go to Japan and meet with Mino.

"Hana," Jun's voice call brought my steps to a halt.

I turned around to find Jun standing not far behind. He was with three other men in full suits. As usual, secretary and bodyguard.

I took a deep breath as soon as Jun walked over to me.

"You're here" I didn't expect that I'd see Jun this soon.

After I came from Japan and met Mino, I would go back to America and hope to meet Jun. But destiny says something else.

Jun looked at me. "What are you really doing here?"

I haven't been able to answer, Jun took me to one of the cafes around the airport. The two of us sat opposite the other three men who came with Jun sitting at the other table.

"I visited the relics of the Joseon Dynasty," I answered remembering one of the records Hana left in the locker Rose 408 that Hana's dream was one of them to visit the royal place of the Joseon Dynasty. While still studying at Julliar School, Hana played the figure of Jang Hee Bin at the theater festival of her last year.

"I remember you going to Korea so I went too. Regarding the shareholders meeting, I still do not want to think about it," I continued to say.

Jun frowning. I saw that he had a hard time accepting my reasoning, but a sigh rang out from him.

"Not because of an accident?" the question made me remember the accident about Raewon aka Hansung in the script.

"Jun," I said slowly.

"What's wrong?"

I saw Jun's eyes look tense. He gulped as if he was about to hear something bad. Why does he have to be that hot?

"I'm beginning to remember some of the past" I said in a lie. I want to make sure that the contents of the novel are indeed in accordance with the life of a Hana.

"My answer is, is it true that after our wedding day, I ran away with Hansung?"

Jun's body stiffened. The look on her face really makes me sympathize to remember the story that Hana left behind.

"My answer, if you want me back in America."

I posed a slight threat to get a definitive answer.

"true."

My breath seems to be choking. Even after Hana escaped with Hansung, a Jun still accepted Hana? Do not feel my eyes glazed, especially looking at Jun whose face look also looks tired and sleepless?

Before I asked any further, the cafe waiter brought us breakfast.

"Eat first, you know how I worry about you," Jun said, making me sadder.

"You eat too" I began to lift up the spoon and garfu.

But I have trouble swallowing my food. Why should I feel guilty when I am not doing it?

"Then why did you take me back?" I'm just impatient.

Jun who never touched his meal. He kept looking at me so I couldn't bear to hear the reason a Jun who looked perfect both physically and in the background still wanted to receive Hana back.

"Because I love you," Jun replied straightforwardly.

"Do I have to go home with you?" askaku.

Jun pursed his lips. He closed for a moment and his hand stretched out holding my hand on the table.

"Hearing you left America yesterday scared me. That ....you might be gone forever from my side," Jun's reply made my heart wail.

Honestly, even though Jun conveyed it to Hana who he knew, but why my chest felt pounding hearing it. I should have been self-conscious.

"But you know Hana, I think you're starting to change after you wake up from a coma" Jun said, smiling.

I cringed confused. "What do you mean?"

"Even if you've forgotten your memories before, I feel like you don't hate me too much. I still remember how you turned your face when I tried to kiss you on the wedding altar," Jun said, widening my eyes.

"Even after you remember it now. Your hands still let my hands hold you," Jun continued, looking down at our hands touching each other.

I looked up at him. For a moment, I only wished Jun was the man I needed to meet in this life. Not as Hana, but as Umji.

"Hana, I want to start everything from scratch. If you allow it," Jun's plea got me in trouble. How can I answer that request?

"I can't answer it yet" I said honestly.

Jun smiled thinly. Although I can see the look of his disappointed face. But this is the best. I should focus on thinking about Mino and Hana's relationship, instead of fixing Jun's relationship with Hana.

Then what about myself? My job will be back in a coma and I don't know when it's gonna hit.

Along the way on the plane, Jun was busy reading a number of work-related files. Sometimes he looks around and strokes my head.

I then pulled out my phone which I had changed to airplane mode. I made the screen as bright as possible and then re-read the content of the novel crush.

Once the plane has landed. I immediately went to the toilet asking Jun for permission, who was waiting for me in the waiting room.

I walked quickly and even half ran and went into one of the cubicles. I immediately typed a message into Mino's number.

    - Mino, is Umji conscious?

Not long after the reply appeared without me expecting it to be that fast.

    - No, who is this?

Without waiting again I immediately sent a cover photo of the novel to Mino.

    where did you get this?

Three minutes of no reply from Mino made me anxious to see the clock, afraid Jun would come looking for me. But when going out of the bathroom, Mino's cell phone number calls.

"Hello," lift me up slowly.

"Who are you? Isn't that script on a woman named Jini?"

Mino's voice was heard rising. I suspect he was so surprised about the script being in the hands of others.

"You want answers? Come to New York.  Maybe it wasn't enough to make you come. I'm Hana, Song Byul if you feel more familiar," I said, then hung up.

I then came out of the bathroom and just as I expected Jun had been at the entrance with a face as if I was expecting to run away again.

"Sorry, I took too long" I said.

Jun nodded slowly understanding then pulled my hand to hold his arm. I tried to equalize my steps while thinking about Mino whether to be lured here. Then what makes me confused is who will take care of my body?

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