Dear Om Rey
Chapter 18: The Declaration of Love

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"And open the door. Manda has gone."

I was sitting on the side of the bathtub. Sighing my breath for a few times.

One thing I know now, my assessment of Om Rey is not wrong. Because of the kisses, I had thought that Om Rey was a man who was unfaithful and could not keep his heart which he should only give to his wife, Aunt Manda. I even assumed Om Rey only made me his outlet because Aunt Manda was busy working.

But the truth is not like that. Aunt Manda is the one who can not keep the heart. In fact, he demeaned, betrayed, and was not grateful at all to have a husband as perfect as Om Rey. Om Rey is a good husband, even too good.

Also one thing I know for sure now, Om Rey is really putting a taste on me. He loudly and confidently told Aunt Manda that Om Rey loves other women, there is no more Aunt Manda in her heart. And that other woman was me, her own niece.

Now I just have to wait until Aunt Manda finds out everything.

"Can..." Call Om Rey again.

Don't want to make him worry I'm taking myself by the side to the door and opening it. I looked at the face of Om Rey who had returned warm and friendly, no longer looking at me sharp as before.

"I'm sorry, Dan..." His words are full of regret.

I'm still silent not knowing what to say.

"I'm sorry because you heard the Om and Manda debate just now. Change the access code of the door. Manda won't be able to get in like that again."

He doesn't have to explain that. This is his home, whatever he's gonna do. Also compared to me, Aunt Manda is certainly more entitled to come to this house. Why did Om Rey even make me feel annoyed by the arrival of Aunt Manda just now?

"Om want milk chocolate. Can you make it?" Her request. Without hearing my answer he stepped out of his room. He paused for a moment and looked at me who was still standing in the bathroom doorway. "Make two yes. For you one."

I took two glasses and started brewing two glasses of hot chocolate milk. I put one glass on the table in front of Om Rey who is now sitting on the middle room carpet. Holding that glass of hot chocolate milk, I joined him, sitting cross-legged on the carpet.

I drank the chocolate milk slowly, quite a bit to calm me who had just been trapped in an emotional situation like that.

Om Rey is still silent, daydreaming. He didn't touch his chocolate milk at all.

"Om, drink the milk." I'm after a long time.

Om Rey turned her head towards me, her face looking tired. It's not like seeing him like that.

He smiled faintly, and grabbed the chocolate milk in front of him and sipped it. Then he went back to silence.

After a long time I thought about going back to my room. "I'm going to go to the room, Om." I got out of my seat, but Om Rey held me back.

His hand held my hand and looked at me. "Please don't go, Dan. Speaking of which, just a second."  He returned to warm Om Rey. It was friendly Rey.

I sat down next to him again and fell silent, waiting for him to say something. But instead of talking, he returned pensive.

"Om what are you talking about?" Many finally.

Rey looked at me. "On that, you... hear everything?"

I nodded my head, and my gaze was fixed on the chocolate milk I was still holding.

We went back to silence. Only the clink of the wall clock sounded.

I don't know why I wouldn't leave him. After knowing how my tantalizing attitude was, I could imagine that every time they fought, Om Rey's face would be as sad as this. And I can't see it like this any more alone to endure it all.

"Om, if you want to cry, Om can cry really." That's what I told Om Rey.

A bitter smile on his lips. "Om not crying, really." He looked at me warmly. "But if you can, um want a hug you can, right?"

I hesitated, but I finally called my head.

Both of his hands were coiled around my body sitting next to him. I pat her softly on the back as if to say 'excitement yes, Om. Om can definitely get through all this.'

"Om so grateful to have you next to Om, Dan." Sluggishly. "Sorry Om because Om feels the taste that is not appropriate Om feels the same as you. Om can't prevent that either. All of a sudden it's been coming up since Om first saw you that day."

Ever since I first saw you, Om Rey's been in love with me?

He took off his arms and looked at me warmly. "When you first came to this house, actually Om just fought with Manda. Like what happened just now. It was the first time Om thought of releasing Manda. Then suddenly you came. Om has been told by Mother Diana if she wants to leave her child during the education of S1. At first Om wanted to refuse, because what was known to the entire Om family or the Manda family, our relationship was good. They don't know what Om's home life has been like all this time. Finally Om assented because it's not good with Miss Diana." Om Rey's warm hand grabbed my cheek. "And then you came."

"So, you asked my permission to stay here to Om? Not to Aunt Manda?"

"Said your mother has tried to contact Manda but not lifted. Chat is also read only. Finally your mom chatted to Om."

It turns out like that. From the beginning Om Rey herself allowed me to stay here.

"What now, Om? I can't stay here anymore. If Om gets divorced from Aunt Manda, I have to get out of here." I don't know why I said it like I wasn't willing to go.

"I don't want you to go, Dan." He took back my body. "Om comfortable with you here. You've only been here a few weeks, but everything Om needs that Om hopes Om can get from Manda, Om dapetin from you. Om's meeting with you convinced Om to let go of Manda finally. Om is really grateful for letting you stay here the same Om."

He looked back at me, "Om love for you, Dan. I fell in love with you."

The deg!

My heart rumbles back to the hammer. There was a sense of happiness that permeated into my heart, but once again I had to be within my sanity. Our relationship cannot be established. "But Om..."

Om Rey cut my words. "Please answer the question. Do you feel the same way about Om?"

Being asked such a question all of a sudden, really made me worried.

"Why not answer, Dan?" Ask expectantly.

I don't know what I'm feeling. I really can't answer that. Not to mention my logic and my heart that kept arguing. He is my aunt husband, how can I feel that unworthy feeling to my mother's own sister's husband?

"If you don't want to answer with words, you can answer them another way."

My heart was beating even more. I can guess, what Om Rey means.

And sure enough, both of his hands were back on my cheeks. "If you don't like it, if you don't have the same feelings that Om feels for you, you can avoid it."

Om Rey came back to me slowly. I should have avoided it, I shouldn't have let it go, Om Rey even warned me.

'Danis, don't do this!' My logic even rebuked loudly.

But instead of complying, my eyes closed as if agreeing. And just then Om Rey's lips were on my lips again.