Dear Om Rey
Chapter 32: I Didn't Take It

Om Rey's car entered the house where my grandfather's house was. The closer I get to home, the more nervous I feel.

"Eagerness yes. Don't you get that tense." Om Rey calms me.

"I can't calm down, Om." I said. "Tante Manda knows our relationship and he's very angry."

Last night when Om Rey came home, I just checked my phone. Ever since Om Rey picked me up on campus and during my birthday party, my phone has been in my bag. And when I checked, I saw chat and missed calls from Aunt Manda and my mom.

Aunt Manda is furious. He thinks I don't know thank you. All this time she's been helping our family's economy, but by not knowing myself I took her husband. Rude words also color his chat.

My mother also told me that Aunt Manda had just come up with such a miracle. My mother asked if it was true that Aunt Manda said that I was dating Om Rey. I didn't answer him and just said that I would go home and explain it in person.

I feel more guilty and more dilemmatic. I knew I was wrong about being with my husband or now I could tell my aunt's ex-husband, but I couldn't lie to my feelings that I loved Om Rey either.

Om Rey's car stopped in front of my grandfather's house. He turned off the engine and grabbed my hand. "You don't think Manda's chat anymore. She must still be emotional and still not accept this divorce."

"But Om, Aunt Manda deserves to be angry with me. I took Om from him." My tears even fell on my cheeks.

"Darling, you didn't take anyone away from anyone. The house has been destroyed for a long time. It's not your fault or Om's that we're in love now and in a relationship."

"But Om..."

"Dengerin Om," He looked at me intently. "What's wrong if Om wants to get away from Manda who never appreciates Om? Does Om have to stay with Manda even though Om has been cheated many times? Do you have to survive when we never care about each other? And what after what happened, when Manda said she wanted to go back to Om and promised to change, did Om have to grant that? I'm so tired, Dan. He tried to give us a chance to fix everything, but it never worked. Until the sense of Om in Manda is dead. I also want to move forward. I want to have a new life that makes me happy. And Om is sure with you, Om will find Om's happiness."

Om Rey is right. He had suffered greatly, was wasted and was not considered. Naturally, if the taste for Aunt Manda changed even lost. But the guilt still filled me. I shouldn't have let my relationship with Om Rey get any deeper.

"Now you say the same Om, what choice Om wrong? Does Om not deserve to be happy? Does Om have to go back to Manda and let Manda waste Om again?"

Suddenly I shook my head. "Om don't talk about it. Om is entitled to be happy. Aunt Manda is outrageous. Aunt Manda who has wasted a husband as good as Om." I avoided her gaze because suddenly the guilt restrained me again. "But our relationship is still wrong, Om. I'm Aunt Manda's niece after all. We shouldn't have a relationship."

"Don't want Om to love you. It's not your fault that Om loves you, and vice versa. We're not wrong, Dan. This taste grows on its own. Manda himself created that gap. When Om tried to defend our household, he made it all in vain."

I'm getting into a dilemma. I don't know why I still haven't been able to shake my guilt even after Om Rey said it.

"Now the last Om wants to ask you, answer honestly your heart." Reciprocity. "Are you still sure you want to marry Om?" His face is getting sad. "If you're not sure yet, it's not too late to cancel everything."

Om Rey's question got me slapped. I grabbed both of her cheeks. "I love the same Om, I want us to marry, really." Kurekuh body. "Om don't say that anymore. I want to marry you the same way, Om."

I felt both of Om's hands hugging me tightly. "If so, we must stand by our decision. Don't make Manda a barrier between us, Dan. I don't want that either. Afraid you might change your mind. But Om has to ask that. Om knows you're very young, marriage is too early for you, but Om wants to be able to look after and love you forever, to have you as a whole. I want you to be the last girl for Om."

I let go of that hug. I looked at her two slightly wet eyes. What else do you think, Danisa? The man in front of you just wants to be happy with you. Why do you still think about the feelings of women who just firmly waste men as good as this?

Well, I have to be sure of my choice. It might be that I was wrong to be in a relationship with my own former aunt husband, but one thing I have to be sure of is that I didn't take it.

I didn't take Om Rey from Aunt Manda.

"Yes Om, we meet Grandpa and Mommy. We're clear on everything so they understand." Say sure.

Then I, Om Rey, my mother, my grandfather, and my grandmother were already in the living room. Silent. For a few moments no one spoke.

Until finally, "Sir, Ma'am, Mom, I came here with Danisa, wanted to say something."

My grandfather's face is getting tense.

"I love Danisa." Speak to Rey without hesitation. My grandfather just closed his eyes with a sigh. "I want to marry Danisa."

"Rey, you're Manda's husband. How can you now want to marry Danis? He's 18. Ma'am left Danis to you not to have a relationship like this, and destroy your relationship with Manda. Why do you have to destroy everything?" My mother said sadly.

I don't know how bad it was last night when Aunt Manda came here, but I could see my mother was so devastated, from her sad and tired face.

"Mom, my marriage and Manda have not made me happy. It's been a long time since my relationship with Manda was broken. We haven't lived together since we returned to Indonesia. Periodically, Manda took her things from my house and moved into an apartment that I did not even know exactly in what unit. My relationship with Manda is very bad. At such times Danisa comes, accompanying my loneliness, making me laugh and happy again. I know he's young, but if I marry him, nothing will change. Danisa will stay in college until she finishes, I will also bear all her needs. I beg you, please bless us, Mother."

"But Manda still loves you, Rey. Manda was devastated to know your relationship. And..."

"Dian..." My grandfather interrupted, making my mother speechless.

"Let them marry." His word. Call me and Om Rey staring at each other.

"But, Sir..." Mom's frustrated.

"There's a lot you can't tell us about Rey and Manda's relationship. Rey has suffered so much because of your sister. Honestly, I am very ashamed of Mrs Sekar. Rey, his beloved son, the only son whose birth he had long awaited, had been made to suffer for many years by Manda. Rey has been very good at looking after Manda. But Manda did something embarrassing, even unforgivable." My grandfather turned angry, his wrinkled forehead furrowed, his eyebrows united. "Since he went to college in the big city, Manda changed. He chose the wrong company. In fact, you shouldn't let her marry Rey. Rey's too good for Manda."

"Since college? What has Manda been doing all this time? Why doesn't Dian know, sir?" My mother raised her voice a little.

"Father didn't tell me" said my grandmother. "Because you've had too many thoughts. You were busy taking care of your late husband and raising Danis. Plus when Danis is going to college in Jakarta, if you know about Rey and Manda's already disharmonious household, you will refuse to let Danis stay at Rey's house. While we have no cost for Danis to rent a boarding house. Finally we kept everything hidden, so that Danis could have a place to stay during her college days."

I who had been silent since then, also spoke because of this I only know now. "So Grandpa and Grandma already know Aunt Manda has not lived with Om Rey?"

"Rubber, Son." My Grandpa. "Manda is always difficult to contact, finally Grandpa told your mother to call Rey only. But Grandpa did not expect it turns out you guys even have a relationship like this. Grandpa thought you were a kid. It turns out you can also fall in love with a man." A faint smile rose on his old face.

"Grandfather... Did you really bless us?" I don't believe it.

My grandfather nodded. "Grandfather bless you."

"But, Aunt Manda..."

"You don't have to think about that bad boy. Let that be Grandpa's business. What's clear now is that you need to be able to take care of Rey and make her happy. Redeem Grandpa's guilt by being a good wife, devoted to your future husband."

I still can't believe my grandfather said that. I looked at my mother's face, who was still not entirely sure of my grandfather's decision. But I'll convince him later.

"Love, Cake." Unconsciously my eyes water full of water.

Om Rey took my hand. "Thank you very much, Sir, Ma'am, Ma'am. This will be my last marriage. I promise to make Danisa happy."