Dear Om Rey
Chapter 60: Unable

My tears won't stop coming out. I don't think my world knows how to get back to being okay like it used to be. Nelangsa. Depressing. Very upset, but there's nothing I can do.

I heard the door open and closed again. Before long Mas Rey was already squatting in front of me. He took both of my hands that covered my face.

"Darling..." Calling lirih.

"I'm sorry, Mas..." I'm nagging. "I didn't intentionally..."

Rey grabbed my body. "Why are you sorry, honey. It's just wrong here. They had to get Manda. Sorry, Mommy."

God, does every day have to be like this? Resisting jealousy, holding in guard. Coupled with the incident, the guilt of accidentally touching Vito in front of Mas Rey, worsened everything.

"I was unintentionally... My legs are crooked..." Isakku continued to explain everything.

"Mas knows, honey. See for yourself you accidentally. It's okay." Mas Rey rubbed my hair in the middle of her arms.

I continued to cry for a while until I unknowingly fell asleep from exhaustion. In the morning, I woke up in Mas Rey's arms. My mood was also slightly lightened, only my eyes felt very swollen. And sure enough, when I looked in the mirror at the dresser, my eyes were swollen.

I started my routine that morning. I'm a little relaxed, because the semester break is going on right now. But all of that doesn't make me feel good. At half-six in the morning, I was in the kitchen, making food and breakfast.

While busy cooking, Aunt Manda approached me with disheveled hair, her makeup still stuck to her face and looked messy.

"Ambilin drink." His orders while sitting on one of the bar stools at the kitchen counter.

Not to argue, I also took him a glass of water. He immediately swallowed it up. I was busy in front of the stove.

Samar I smelled a cigarette, and when I turned around, Aunt Manda was busy smoking that smoky thing.

"Aante! That aunt is pregnant, I am pregnant too! Auntie knows that cigarette smoke is not good for pregnant women?!" My tempest.

Aunt Manda chuckled. "So happy and proud that you got pregnant at 18? Or are you cool because you're pregnant with Rey? You look like sug^r b^by."

Aunt's words really ignited my emotions. "Should aunty say that?"

"Why? Emang. Rey often lives with aunt. She's lonely. Keep coming suddenly, teenagers are responsible that even fruit d^danya just so. Yeah, can't stand Rey seeing you."

"I'm not like Rey, Auntie! We fell in love!"

Aunt Manda. "Love? Don't make Aunt laugh, Nis. It's naive of you to say you're the same Rey is in love. Rey is just your benefit. Aunt Rey sure touched you a lot from the beginning you lived here. Keep you also happy. Aye, right?"

I let out a breath of air. "So much Aunty wants to say what. After all, free to explain to Auntie because Aunty will not understand. Auntie's got no heart."

"You're the one who doesn't have a heart. Call your own aunt husband. You still talking about the heart, Nis?" His words were cold, with a mouth that continued to emit smoke.

"Combones? Try Aunty inget-inget, like how the attitude of Auntie with Mas Rey. He was faithful for five years with Auntie, why suddenly turned to me? If Aunty can take good care of Aunt's household, if Aunty can make Mas Rey comfortable with Auntie, I won't be among you."

Aunt Manda was silent for a moment. He put out his short cigarette.

"Fine, Auntie is wrong first. But this time, Auntie won't give up. Aunty has succeeded in conceiving Rey's child, Aunt has become Rey's wife again. One more step, the aunt will make Rey fall in love again with Auntie. Aunty will make him realize that his love for Aunt is still there." Say it with certainty.

His words instantly made my hand that was grasping the spatula, tremble so hard I gripped it. I don't take it with Aunt Manda.

And, in the depths of my heart, there was a fear that if everything he wanted was realized, I was afraid that Mas Rey would fall back in love with him.

"You don't know, Rey used to love Auntie so much. He treats Aunty with a very romantic, gentle, and everything that women in this world want, Rey once sold to Auntie. Actually, Auntie is a little grateful because you are present among Rey and Aunt. Because honestly, Auntie became aware of her own feelings. Especially after this baby is in the womb of Aunt, Aunt became more aware that it turns out that only Rey who Aunty loves. Rey's the owner of Aunt's heart."

My tears fell back, but Aunt Manda couldn't see it because I turned her back. His words managed to make me again feel that I am the third party, not him.

"Now, Auntie will make you aware of your position. You only know Rey in a few months. Auntie and Rey, who had been in love for almost two years, had never really loved each other before our relationship was bland. Rey just feels good about you, she doesn't really love you, Nis. Rey is not a man who falls in love easily. He just took you 'stop' when he felt Auntie away from him."

Aunt Manda was silent for a moment. But I tried not to let him know that I was now sowing tears on both of my cheeks.

Then I heard the door to Aunt Manda's room open and close again.

Instantly I let out my sobs even without a sound. So upset. Why can't I fight him. Why am I crying like this?

My heart hurts so much.

Be ill.

Once.

"Darling?"

I heard the voice of Rey behind me. He twisted my body and he was stunned. The tears on my cheeks were already flooded, wet with no dry parts. My chin keeps shedding tears. A few drops also wetted my clothes, the rest fell to the floor.

"Darling, what's wrong with you?" Rey clutched my head close to her chest. But I refused it and ran towards the room, and continued my crying there.

Then I heard Rey screaming.

"MANDA!!" Murkanya while banging on the door of Aunt Manda's room.

Then they screamed at each other. I don't hear very clearly. What I faintly heard, Mas Rey blamed Aunt Manda for my state of crying to this extent. Aunty Manda also shouted back Mas Rey's screams with swear words that humbled me. They continued like that, just hearing it made my head seem to break.

I grabbed my phone and looked for my mother's contacts and called her.

"Mother..." I said when the phone was connected.

"Miss? Why are you crying?"

"Mother... Danis is not strong... Danis wants to go home...." Isakku.

"Son, you have to be patient. Mother knows this is not easy, but you have to be strong. The baby you carry. You want him to need his father."

"But, Mommy... Danis is not as strong as Aunt Manda. Danise..."

I almost said I wanted to end it all. Let me just get away from them. But I can't, I can't let go of Mas Rey. Need it. L loved her. I don't want to lose him.

But I also can't stand it if I have to continue like this. I should how?

Finally after a while, after hearing all the words from my mother that strengthened me, I was slowly able to master my emotions again. Slowly my sobs subsided. After making sure I was back, my mother ended our phone call.

But I just realized, the screams from Mas Rey and Aunt Manda are no longer heard. Rey didn't come to my room either.

I got up from the bed and walked out of the room. I heard a voice from Aunt Manda's room. I approached her room and heard the sound of someone munt^h. I went into Aunt Manda's room and the voice became clearer.

I arrived at the open bathroom door. Aunt Manda was vomiting with Mas Rey holding her hair and massaging her back.

"You haven't eaten yet, have you? But why vomit that much?" Ask Mas Rey.

"I don't know either. I think I'm a gini every morning. Cape is so delicious." Complain Aunt Manda. He stopped filling his stomach. Now he rose from his bent position.

His eyes caught my presence by accident. He leaned his head against Mas Rey's chest. "My head is dizzy, Rey. My body lemes."

Mas Rey suddenly carrying Aunt Manda's body, making my heart hurt again. But I don't want my presence to be realized by him. I slowly walked out of the room and hid behind the wall.

I peeked a little and saw Mas Rey had laid Aunt Manda's body on her bed. But instead of releasing his hand that was coiled around Mas Rey's neck, Aunt Manda instead remained in her position.

A split second later, Aunt Manda had already reunited her lips with Mas Rey's lips.