Divorced My Husband on My First Night
chapter 54 in the newspaper

[pemer*ko*saan on new year's night: has been found pe*ko*saan victim on easter beach party celebration night turn of year. Allegedly the victim who was a student of law xxx faculty was v* alternately by several people. Until now, the victim still cannot be questioned, he is still silent and allegedly suffered severe shock.]

that's the content of the news in the online newspaper you read this morning about how the night of the new year I experienced, before the pain of the former fateful events, now I also have to bear the shame of disgrace, may my family in the village not know about this news, let me bear it all myself because from the beginning it was my fault that was too sweet and did not remember my parents' message, some cops have tried to interrogate me, I still don't want to talk, even if I tell you, I'm sure Revan and his friends have escaped from this town.

I have been hospitalized for three days without anyone accompanying me because I did not allow the hospital to contact anyone, let alone the phone I also turned off this afternoon,I felt rather refreshed and planned to escape from the all-white room, I was tired of police intorigation only, I was also tired of hearing the compassion of the hospital residents who knew my situation now. I'm ashamed to keep lingering here, some people even peek secretly just to see the victim pe*mer*ko* it was on new year's night.

Quietly, I stepped slowly because the bottom was still painful under the road, I tried to endure this pain and walked down the wall to the hospital exit then stopped a taxi to be escorted to my home, Fortunately the atmosphere of the boarding house was quiet, so no one knows about my return.

I immediately locked the door, then dropped on the bed. I'm sure the whole boarding house must have been excited about my news, O Lord, how heavy this rain is and may I be strong.

my heart ached more and more when I saw the photos of my togetherness with Revan stuck on the wall of the room, two years we passed together so many memories about. I never thought, I never thought, if he can do all this to me, the real payment for all the stuff and the money he gave all this time, my self-esteem and my future are at stake. tears just melt and soon I sweep them violently always releasing the photos in a non-and-full way.

Revan, you are an animal! the events of that night revolved back in memory, they revolved me in a crowded manner, six people, it turns out that your love is only limited to demonic lust, only,I thought you would fast had succeeded in taking away my crown but you instead allowed your friends to take part.maybe your sister or older sister or another member of your family also suffered a similar fate with me,you can run away from the police but you can't avoid God's punishment, you're a law student, but you're doing something against the law, agghhh... completely block the head and re-submerge the head into the pillow. shed all tears of preparation.

for a week, I didn't get out of the dorm room, this thought was still needed, I didn't know what to do, college, I didn't have the spirit anymore. I will not be able to listen to the sneers of my friends there, the whole of you must also be excited and already know this viral news.if I go home, the village, mother and father must be very sad because I dropped out of college and this calamity that befell me. O Lord, show me the best path that Your servant must take.

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"assalamualaikum Rayna." Mother's soft voice over the phone made my daydreams scatter.

"waalaikumsalam Ma'am," answered him while sweeping a circle of tears.

"how are you doing there, son? all right, kid? ask the mother with a soft elementary school teacher accent, because she has served decades but her child status does not like to depend on being a PNS.

"Rayna is fine, Bu. The family there how is it? father and sisters?"I was imagining their faces.

"Alhamdulillah then, we are also fine here.you are no longer sick'kan Reyna. because your dream mother continued and from yesterday called, your number was not active.''mom's voice was anxious.

after about half an hour talking on the phone with my mother, I did not have the heart to stop college.I was already destroyed but could not be more destroyed, he said,I still have to continue the lecture that maybe not until two more years will be finished. I don't wait to think about all this while gathering all the spirit.

"his college is right, son?"don't disappoint mom and dad! You are the focus of our hope." the words of the mother always promise that all day long until carried into sleep as well. hence, with that,this morning I decided to go to college and pursue learning because it has been two weeks more absent.

"that's it Raina, dare also he stay in college huh,!"

"sttt... don't be so loud talking about it, he'll hear!"

"gift thought, by wearing glasses and masks like that, we will not know him again what?!"

"already sorry to know!"

yes, pity him, don't be worshipped again, he's a victim!"

that's how the babble of classmates when I saw me enter the classroom, I deliberately chose the back seat, in the corner and alone.My close friend Bianca also did not want to be close.maybe she was a point adjacent to the victim of abuse, it turns out that the witness in the community is quite heavy, even though I am a victim but instead shunned and become Gibran material for days, I do not want it to be like this, all of it is calamity, let it be. for the sake of my parents, for the sake of both, I will write my ears and mute my mouth to not be affected by the sneer.my goal is to come here just to college, get a science degree will be able to get a good job someday, he said, that's the determination that I have to plant in this heart.

the problem with Revan and his friends, I didn't see them on this campus, it's probably true that they escaped, even though I didn't tell the police who the abuser was, I'm sure, that's true, police will continue to investigate the case.

already one month after the fateful event entertainment has now entered the beginning of February, a bitter reality happened again, which I fear happened, the test in my hand now shows the line 2 which means I am positively pregnant. my God, it turns out that my trials are still ongoing, I am now pregnant from the abuse and do not know whose seed this is because there are six men who have graced me in turn on the eve of the new year Revan, he said,Rizal, Saldi, Iwan, Erik and Riski. I'm sure he remembers the parting.

what am I supposed to do now? I thought, after that incident there would be no more sadness, but it turned out that even bigger events came back.

seriated.