Forgive Me Both
Disillusioned

"I'm sorry, Van? You're okay, right?" Faisal's voice sounded again after a while. "I promise, next month I'll add more for you."

Alahh bulshit!

Vani slightly melengos, showing his protest although not obvious. It feels bad to talk about it again.

"You mad?" faisal asked holding onto Vani's wrist as the woman got up and intended to leave him.

"No!" answer Vani with a ketus.

"If you're not angry, why frown?"

"Do you think I don't deserve to be angry, Mom?!" Vani really showed a dejected face. Whether pretending not to know, or Faisal intentionally not curious, his attitude towards Vani is ordinary like not doing anything wrong.

"Don't be mad, Van. My paradise is with my mom. So, who's patient huh?"

That was always Faisal's reason. Vani himself was astonished, once the mother craved what the hell, until she could have a child like that?!

"Well, why should we get married. You don't need anything else, do you other than heaven?" Vani intentionally insinuated it. If asked sorry about the marriage of young people? No, hell! It's just that Vani sometimes feels not strong always in the number so many by her own husband.

"What do you mean, Van? You also have your own income."

Shamelessly Faisal said it. If as a man he understands his paradise is in the mother, he should also know about the life of a wife, right? The husband still has an obligation to provide even though the wife already has her own income.

"Well, we don't really need it yet, Van. We don't have children yet. So, let my mother enjoy it first."

Vani's attention immediately turned to the man's face. When talking about children, why does it hurt so much?

"You thought about what we talked about yesterday, didn't you, Mom? Is there a schedule for consultation? So, which hospital?" ask Vani a little. His tone was starting to soft again.

"Yet, Van. I'm not ready yet" Faisal said.

Again Vani had to take a heavy breath. "Why? Don't want to heal?" asked Vani with a face full of astonishment.

"Of course you want to, Van. I also want to like most men, be able to please the wife."

"Lantas, why don't you want some effort? Was it deliberately long to make me hurt by the accusations of a barren mother? I'm heartbroken, Mas, being accused of being rich is just that!"

"No, Van. Not at all. I can't intentionally make you hurt. Anyway you are patient, later if it's time, I will definitely seek treatment, really."

Vani just can't understand why Faisal continues to refuse if Vani told him to consult with an expert doctor?

"Udahlah, Mommy. I'm tired. I'm going to rest!" Choose to get up and walk towards the room they both are in and slam the door a little hard.

"Van, are you angry?" Vani heard Faisal's voice again from behind, but Vani had already entered the room and laid his body on the bed.

Staring at the ceiling of the room, Vani shifted her body when she saw Faisal also tailing behind her.

At night Vani's mood still hasn't improved as well. If usually Vani always approached and hugged Faisal when he wanted to sleep, this time Vani chose to face sideways, towards the wall and turn her back to her husband.

"You don't dong, Van. Sin if long cuekin husband," said Faisal while lying beside him.

Vani just kept quiet. He was lazy to reply again. What if he always ate the liver.

"You haven't slept, have you?

"Don't be noisy, Mum. I'm tired! Wanna sleep!"

Faisal immediately nodded to realize his wife was upset. He chose to close his eyes because of the drowsiness that attacked him earlier.

"Basically the husband is insensitive. The wife is crashing even in staying asleep!"

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Even at his employer's house, Vani's mood has not changed. Even all day this Vani looks often daydreaming. Recalling his argument with Faisal last night.

Vani swiped the phone screen, staring at the mother's face in her photo gallery. If only he could, Vani would like to turn the clock around again. It doesn't feel like living like this for long.

"You haven't come home yet, Van?" Renan's question jolted the woman's daydream. Vani hurriedly kept his phone again and got up from the wooden chair he was sitting on. Vani was cleaning the back garden. Vani only realized that since then he had been daydreaming and let the work that was delayed just like that.

"No, Sir. In a moment," he said as he grabbed the broom lying next to him. Vani continued his work again before the time was getting late.

"You daydreaming?" ask Renan. Because since a few minutes ago Renan was already in that place, but Vani only realized it when Renan tried to greet him.

"No, Sir!" Quickly whizzing. It was clearly discovered.

"You got a problem?! Or, sick?"

Vani nodded again. He quickly finished his work, then left before Renan before the man asked again.

After Vani came home, Renan who had just wanted to take a bottle of mineral water from the refrigerator suddenly stopped his steps, the man chose to sit and accompany Bik Minah who was still busy in the kitchen room.

"Bibik has known Vani for a long time?"

Bik Minah immediately stopped her activities, approaching her employer, the middle-aged woman hesitated to tell her everything she knew about the woman.

"I know my husband, sir. Before Bibik worked here, Bibik's husband worked as a gardener next to Neng Vani's house." Bik Minah begins her explanation of the origin she knew the woman.

"Oh, so it's been a while? But, why would Vani want to be a maid, Bik, even though she'll live in an elite housing?" That was the one question that always made Renan curious. If he says just to fill the empty time, why do people work at home?

"Babies don't know for sure, sir. But, Bibik's husband once told me that Vani's in-laws were very chatty. Yes ... probably because until now Vani has not been pregnant. Reportedly Vani is barren."

"What if you're not pregnant? Pregnant or not is God's gift. So, why would you judge Vani like that? Did they go through the examination?" Renan was deeply concerned about the fate of the woman. It is fitting that he often sees Vani daydreaming, sometimes also looks sad.

"Bibik is also really sorry for Neng Vani, sir. She would sometimes cry alone in the back room. But, Bibik did not dare to ask questions."

"Crying?"

"Yes, Sir. Bibik did not see it on purpose."

Renan clenched both his hands. He was furious himself after hearing all the stories from Bik Minah earlier.