Forgive Me Both
Bitter Reality

It felt like Vani had almost fainted hearing the confession from Faisal. Several times Vani tried to open his eyes, hoping that what he saw or experienced tonight was just a nightmare. But, Faisal's voice made him flinch again and finally realized that what happened this time was indeed real.

"I can't do that. I'm imp0ten, Van!"

"Your mom ...?"

Vani seems to be playing destiny again. Lord ... Why is this so unfair? Vani squealed in heart.

Getting a chatty in-law, super duper sister-in-law sucks. And, now Vani must be faced again with a bitter statement about her husband who turned out to be an imp0ten man.

As a normal woman, Vani wants that, to be honest. The inner breath that Vani should have gotten from Faisal long ago. But, his hope instantly disappeared along with the broken heart in pieces.

"I'm sorry, Van. Sorry if I hadn't told you all this time. I'm afraid you'll be disappointed and leave me if you know the truth." Feared the sad look of Faisal. The man lowered his head to hide his feelings that were certainly no less broken than Vani.

Disappointed? So Mas Faisal chose to keep it to himself for fear of disappointing me? Didn't he? whispered Vani in heart.

So, now what? Have I not been disappointed long ago? Since our wedding night?

Vani smiled wryly, as the shadow returned to his memory. After the wedding reception, Faisal left and left Vani.

That night in the bridal room that should be a silent witness to the romance of the two, even deserted like uninhabited because Vani only silent by occasionally wiping the clear crystal out of the corner of his eye.

The next morning Faisal had just returned home, and again, Vani had only heard an excuse spewing from his lips regarding his reason for leaving him last night.

"Sorry, I have a sudden job and I can't represent it. I'm sorry, Vani. You're okay, right?"

Although the reason was less plausible, Vani tried to accept it. Vani still entertains himself and assures that there is still plenty of time they can spend later.

Vani woke up when he saw Mas Faisal rise from the bed feeling sad. He swung another step towards the bathroom in the corner and disappeared after the door was tightly closed.

Tonight there is no more chatter between Vani and Faisal. After coming out of the bathroom, Faisal immediately threw himself beside him. Vani himself felt that awkwardness. I just feel like getting angry. But, seeing the sad look of her husband, Vani suddenly did not have the heart.

Let this secret be kept by myself. It is up to you if mom or anyone will come back to urge my– again to get pregnant quickly. I don't give a shit! Vani said to himself.

Vani tries to think positively. He believed Faisal's disease could be cured. Vani promised herself that she would talk slowly to Faisal so that her husband would seek treatment.

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Morning began to say hello, although reluctant to pull the blanket because the weather is so cold, Vani forced this body to rise and carry out activities as usual.

A flash of last night's events are still clearly recorded in his brain .How Faisal looks so hot, making Vani instantly drift. At that time Vani was so confident, he thought that tonight they would do it. But as the game is about to reach the top, Vani is forced to pull away from realizing something is going on with her husband.

The annoyance still gnaws at the heart. However, Vani still treats her husband well. He still prepares food, work needs, and other needs. As usual, nothing ever happened.

But then again, when his heart just wanted to make peace with the circumstances, another problem came up again,

Vani gasped in shock, his daydream suddenly flying out of nowhere. "What the hell, Lun, Mba again does not hold the money," he seemed to Luna. If you keep giving it, it can be a habit later.

Vani did not particularly bother about the boy's arrival, choosing to leave and continue his work again. But, it turned out that Luna did not give up just like that.

"Well, Mba, don't stingy dong!" It turned out that Luna was still following her all the way to the kitchen. When the water faucet was turned on, Luna stood right beside him.

"I have a sudden need, Mba," said Luna again. He was still trying to seduce his sister-in-law..

"Aren't you getting my husband's monthly allowance?" When Vani says it, Luna looks nervous. Maybe he thinks Vani doesn't know about this. Though Faisal himself said that if every month he always rationed enough monthly money for his sister.

"Jatah from Mas Faisal is already abis, Mba. I need a lot!"

"out?" Vani deliberately turned his body towards the girl. Luna started to behave wrongly. "It's only the middle of the month, Lun, how could the monthly money have been even? What are you wearing to? Kan Mas Faisal always gives you enough money!"

Vani deliberately spoke a little sternly. If only the monthly money that Faizal shared with his sister might still be able to tolerate Vani, but, yes Luna had to recite the money that Faisal gave her too?

"Well, Mba, I don't know young people. Gaul dong, Mba, little gaul!" It seems like Luna is getting upset, but Vani doesn't care.

Even if you are upset, if you need to go straight away. That's what Vani expected.

"Please, Mba, this time? I have a sudden need for it." It turned out that Luna was still standing at her place earlier. The girl started putting on a face in front of Vani. The longer, why not the heart?

Geez Vani, why are you so soft? This is my biggest weakness, easy to overcome.

After thinking over and over again, Vani decides to split a bit of her monthly money for Luna.

Vani wiped both hands, then his hands immediately he put into the pocket of the household negligee he was wearing. "Now, I'm just here." Vani thrusts a red sheet of money towards Luna. Actually there are still a few more sheets, but deliberately Vani save for needs until the end of the month.

"Well, what's up, Mba?" Despite frowning, Luna still snatched the money her sister-in-law gave her.

"Don't be wasteful, Lun, you haven't worked. Poor Mas Faisal." Vani was a little bit of a bitch. Although he was only two years above Luna, but as a good sister-in-law he felt he had a duty to it.

"Alahhh, Mba, don't be wise. If not, I won't be here either!"

Without saying thank you, the girl just took her steps forward. Vani just shook his head slowly, rubbing his chest many times in order to remain patient. Vani decided to return to finish the dishwasher that had paused earlier. However, just as his hand was about to start again, from the front there came a cry of Luna's voice,

"Mba, that fried chicken on the plate I picked up, yeah? Make provisions on campus later!"

Let it be, Vani said in his heart. Today Vani cooked five pieces of fried chicken. If only a piece is all right, there is still for breakfast and Faisal later, and the rest can be saved for lunch.

Not ngirit, but Vani must keep frugality so that this money can be enough until the end of the month.

Finish the washing activity. Vani steps towards the dining room. His intention was to call Faisal for breakfast. But as he passed the dining table, Vani immediately gave a surprised shriek,

"God ...!!"