Forgive Me Both
What I Am a Village Woman.

"Marry Mika, Ren. She is a good woman, her family we already know," said Mr Heri. It had been two weeks of time given to Renan, in fact the man could not bring the woman as his son told him.

"Where do you know that Mika is a good woman? He's not who you think he is."

"If you don't know him, how could you possibly say rich gini."

"But Renan doesn't love Mika, sir. Please ... don't force Renan," she replied.

The man sitting in front there let out a long breath. "Until when? Do you want to be rich? Think of something uncertain? Look, even now you don't know where that woman is?" said Mr. Heri again

"Renan's still trying to find her, sir. And Renan is sure that one day he'll see her again." Renan is still tight. For him, Vani is the only woman he loves.

Huhhh ...

Ms. Aida listened anxiously afraid that a fight like yesterday happened again.

"Can you give Renan a little more time?"

"How long? A week, a month, or a year? You just don't want to keep getting rich, Ren?! Your life is long. You shouldn't think of someone who doesn't even care about you at all!"

All quiet. Only the sound of the clanking clock was heard in the room.

Renan can't marry Mika. He did not like the girl at all. How could he live his days with someone he doesn't love?

"And as Mba Vani accepted my request yesterday" whispered the middle-aged woman over there.

His arrival to Vani again with the intention of asking the woman to be his son-in-law, but instead Vani refused subtly. The woman said she had not thought about marrying again. And finally the two old men made their choice to Mika. The woman who from a long time ago also had feelings for Renan.

What's wrong with them getting married.

Mika is very happy to accept the offer from Mr. Heri. Renan was the one Mika wanted. Only, would that man accept it?

[Tante, how is Renan? Is he willing to accept this match?]

Mika called Bu Aida again. The woman unceasingly asked how about the arranged marriage they planned, as if Mika was already impatient to get married to the man soon.

[We're still trying to persuade Renan, Mika. You are patient, right?] ma'am Aida replied as is.

Though Mika has contacted both of her parents who are currently still living abroad, worried if later she did not have time to go home when she married. But if Renan himself has not agreed, how will the marriage happen?

[Can't it be soon, Auntie? Because both my parents also have urged Mika to get married,] said Mika reasoned.

[We'll work on it as soon as possible, Mika. You know, don't you think Renan is so stubborn?]

The woman across there sighed heavily.

[But when is Auntie?] Mika sounded frustrated. What is my lack until Renan continues to resist?

[You're patient, right?]

Mika hung up the phone very upset. If in a subtle way he cannot, then the only way he will act in his own way.

"I've been cheating on that woman, but Renan still can't accept me. Don't blame me if I mean you, Ren!" mika said with both hands clenched.

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Nah! She did not want to be a widow for the second time.

"Van ..."

Nisa reclines Vani's daydreams. The girl knows best what Vani is feeling after she tells him.

"You still think about what Ms Aida said yesterday?"

Vani was still silent, then raised her face to look at Nisa.

"I can't accept Bu Aida's offer, Nis. What am I the village woman. The man may not be interested in me" said Vani lirih.

"Why is it not possible? You haven't tried to see Miss Aida's son, have you?"

"But ... What if that guy refuses me, Nis? I don't want to fail a second time."

Her divorce with Faisal left Vani traumatized. How she had to live alone after being dumped by her husband.

"You're beautiful, Van. You are not as barren as they think. What's wrong? You deserve to be happy too."

"But ... This?"

"You haven't tried it, Van. You can meet that guy first. If both fit, you can decide for yourself to continue the relationship what is not."

"Does Miss Aida still want to accept me, Nis? If the man was married to another woman how?"

"Something is indeed in his destiny for us, then God will not be the property of others. You believe that, right?"

Vani thinks of Nisa's advice over and over again. Even until the night Vani could not close his eyes, he was too afraid to start again.

Until the morning before Vani still could not close his eyes for a second. Vani chose to start his activities again as usual, picking up dirty clothes to the houses that Vani subscribes to every day.

While on the road Vani passed by the mothers who were shopping for vegetables. It has become commonplace that a widow seems bad in the eyes of society. Moreover, the widow was still young like Vani. Many are afraid that their husbands will be tempted by the beauty of Vani. So only bad words are accustomed to Vani hearing from the mothers.

"Look at the new widow coming out. And then again, who's trying to seduce?" said one mother.

"We should always be careful of our husbands, ma'am. If you don't want to hang with him."

"Alahhhh free beautiful if it turns out barren!" say one more.

Vani who heard long ago also. Is there something wrong with the status of a widow? After all, he never teased let alone harm anyone.

"Alright if you dare to fuck around!"

Vani clenched both hands. He promised to prove that what they said was not true.

And what was it, barren?

"Bad!"